The long slog back to being well again

bionic.laura

I hope some people on here might have some advice for me.

I have a pacemaker for slow heart rate/heart block and about a year and a half ago it stopped working and in october of last year they replaced it. When it wasn't working I felt pretty bad. The replacement surgery wasn't a success as I got an infection in my heart. I had to have the whole lot surgically removed and I was also on massive doses of antibiotics. I also had anaphlayatic shock as a reaction to the antibiotics at one point. I ended up in hospital for two months. Eventually I got out and a few months later I got a new pacemaker.

The first time I got my pacemaker I felt much better as my problem was corrected. This time is nothing like that. I feel wrecked tired, short of breath and depressed. I am going back to see the doctors soon. I think there is still something wrong.

I just wonder how people cope with being sick for so long. At this stage I'm beginning to lose hope that I will ever be well. I lost my job after this and I still haven't got another. I think I may be too tired to even do a job. At the start of my illness I was really positive and focused on getting out of hospital. But now a whole year later and I'm not better. I eat well and exercise and do all the doctors said and still I'm not back to normal. Some days are better than others and I suppose you have to focus on the good ones. But I do wonder when it will be all good days again.

Thanks for listening to my rambling.

sorella

Takes a long long time. Yes, focus on the good days and slowly they will increase. Maybe keep a jourmal then you can look back and see the progress you have made.

I find that doing something for others boosts the spirit; I am a keen knitter and we sell my work to feed our abandoned babies.

Blessings and prayers