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Have you ever had depression?
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If you don't think prozac is working for you, talk to your doctor. It can take trying a few different medications to see which one suits you best.I'm on prozac, have been for a year now. I was 'diagnosed' to use lack of a better word, when I was a lot younger than I am now. But It wasn't until march just gone that I.... well I don't want to say publicly. But I tried counselling, and I'm taking the medication, and I can't see its helping, to be honest.
I agree with the letter that girl sent, 100%/
@paulac - What a great post. You've really come through a lot
I always post in this thread when it's bumped -__- I haven't been great lately, but a lot of that is down to myself. Really need to get into a proper routine because that is one thing that is unbelievably helpful when you have a mental illness. I'm starting group therapy in January, which is a bit scary as I've never done anything like that before. The therapist is lovely though, I'm meeting her every week until then.
When I first started taking anti-depressants, I thought I would be better in no time. But here I am, nearly two years later and I'm still on them. Life isn't as bad as it was back then, so that's a good thing, but it will take a lot of work to get where I want to be. I know it's such a soppy thing to say, but I don't know if I'd still be here if it wasn't for this thread and some of the posters on this website. One of the worst things about having a mental illness is the feeling that you're the only one who has ever felt this bad, but thankfully I always knew that there were other people out there who had been through similar situations and were getting better.
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But I tried counselling, and I'm taking the medication, and I can't see its helping, to be honest.
I was on prozac for about a month and couldn't stand it! Insomnia and constantly shaking, twas awful annoying. But it showed me that meds don't always suit and sometimes you need to try some other types to find the right one. I've been on Sertraline for nearly 2 years now and it suits me much better. The thing you NEED to understand though is that medication is not the be all and end all. IMO, you need a combination of medication, counselling and working on your lifestyle to feel better. Most of all though, you need time. It can be so damn frustrating not seeing immediate changes but this isn't something that started overnight and it sure as hell can't be cured overnight.
It's good for you to even speak on this thread, I know it's not easy admitting to mental illness since it carries such stigma in our society. But there's plenty of people here who have experienced the lowest of the lows and everything that brings you there so don't be afraid to talkYour Text Here wrote: »
I always post in this thread when it's bumped -__- I haven't been great lately, but a lot of that is down to myself. Really need to get into a proper routine because that is one thing that is unbelievably helpful when you have a mental illness. I'm starting group therapy in January, which is a bit scary as I've never done anything like that before. The therapist is lovely though, I'm meeting her every week until then.
I did a few months of group therapy for eating disorders last year. I really enjoyed it actually! It was really hard the first week or 2 but once we all got a bit more comfortable with each other I found that it really helped to hear about other people's experiences. We all shared little tips and tricks with each other too and it was a good motivator to stay on track for the next week. Hopefully it goes well for you too
And I agree entirely with everything else you said in your post 0 -
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Do you think you could write a letter that you could give to the doctor? Or show them some of your poems? And you should give yourself some credit, you're talking about it hereI know you're right, I do. And I applaud everyone in this thread who is getting help, and getting better, its great. But I hate saying it out loud. I can write... miles of depressing poetry. But I can never say it. I can't even say what I do to myself out loud. And to be honest, I feel worse than I ever did.
But well done to people, for recovering. ****ing, big step, very well done. 0 -
Well ye all know my troubles :P Lexapro is working perfectly and I'm doing great! After my last breakdown I dont think I could go through that again anytime soon. To all those out there now suffering, remember...time is a great healer and don't give up
I've just physically recovered from a pretty severe breakdown which ended up with me being arrested and put in hospital. Not pleasant! Stay strong guys and I am just a PM away if anyone wants to chat 0 -
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I don't know if it will. I wish I succeeded in March.
March seems to depress everyone. My own best friend died March 08 and my first suicide attempt happened in March 07. I'm convinced it's the weather that makes people feel so miserable around then :P You dont want your life to end, trust me. You can win the war if you talk to someone 0 -
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Hi guys. I'm a bit of a recent lurker on this forum, but I just wanted to say first off that I think you're all amazing. From your posts, I am very much inspired by how many of you have dealt with Mental Health Issues. Also the amount of support you all show for each other is just remarkable.
With regard to depression, yes I go through a lot of times depressed. I have very low self esteem, which has plagued me for most of my life. As a result, I have bouts of depression. It has been like that since my pre- teen years. I literally struggled to get involved in activities in school, as I never felt I was good at anything and never had anything to make me believe that I was. I tried everything from Speech and Drama to Taekwondo, but never stuck long term at them.These self beliefs followed to secondary school, which was a tough time for the most part. I went to one of those 'rugby schools', where the Rugby players got away with everything due to their status. I'm quite bitter over it, as I felt that the place only made things worse. Teachers made me feel stupid, and treated me awkwardly for not trying to make the Rugby team, struggling to socialise in school, etc.
This belief of feeling stupid just grew out of control. I devoted myself to studying hard for exams and was trying hard to get into higher classes in school. When I saw that I was getting benefits (in self confidence) from study, I developed very rigid rules for success. I drove myself to insanity with these ideas that I must study all the time, or otherwise I would fail and feel worthless. In school, I was basically the smart shy guy who nobody knew anything about, except a few friends of his. I never did any extra curriculars throughout school, except a few language exchanges and an extra in a school play. There were a few that I did try, but as soon as I felt I couldn't do it, I quit. Even during TY, I was still working hard. As a result, I didn't really develop personally until my later teens. I put all my focus on academics, that I never tried to do anything else. Even when new and interesting things came about in TY and a short term girlfriend, I still hid under my comfort blanket with my rigid rules, which only ever gave me short bouts of confidence.
When I finished my LC and went on to college, I was really excited to be out of school. By that stage, I had a good summer (as I went to the Debs a few times
) and was relieved to be finished school. But, I still had my rigid rules of living, coupled with my very low self-value (the 'I'm stupid belief'). Regardless of how I did academically, the fact that I wasn't confident socially confirmed this belief in my head. With this beliefs, I found it hard to adjust to college life. I tried to get involved in societies and talk to new people, but my self esteem always discouraged me to withdraw even more into myself. I still kept to my rigid rules of living. During the summer of 1st year, I was getting more and more depressed about how I found life so unsatisfying. What didn't help was my parents' complicated legal separation, and my father's alcoholism. I decided to seek help for my depression, so I went to student counselling in college.
Counselling was beneficial, but I was only tackling my problematic relationship with my father. At this point, I wasn't really sure about my self esteem issues. It was around Christmas of second year, when I began to explore the idea. My Mum told me she was worried about me. She saw that I was consistently moody, took no pride in my appearance, avoided friends, hardly went out except for college, etc. I then told her how I was feeling, and began to realise (slowly) that my way of living was rigid and totally unfair to myself. I began to notice how people around me in college and elsewhere took life on the chin, while I was consistently hard on myself.
Since this realisation, I have been attending counselling and undergoing Cognitive Behavioural Therapy. I went travelling on my own this summer to get some time to myself. Since I study languages in college, I decided to spend some time abroad improving them. It was a positive experience for me, as I managed to find a flat share, language course, etc. It didn't go directly to plan, but that wasn't bad. I was proud of the fact that I managed to exercise a sense of self independence, and take care of myself for a whole summer. I learned so much about myself, but most importantly that you have to face fear and keep strong. You can't let the fear of a pre conceived opinion take over and stop you from achieving what you truly want in life.
Nevertheless, it's still a struggle. This term in college, I've been trying to work hard but still make time for fun and new activities. I am trying my hand at new activities, and am still facing the same negative ideas I have of myself. With the help of a thought diary, I'm constantly challenging these ideas and dissecting harsh judgements with more realistic and fair reflections. I'm also trying to get to know myself better by recognising my positive values, attributes, etc, and praising the good things I did each day. With my counsellor, I discuss all these and continue to work towards building my self esteem.
Sorry it's a bit long. It's a bit therapeutic writing this. And I felt the need to contribute. 0 -
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Maybe you could start a blog? Then you still have somewhere to get your thoughts downI'd kind I'd like to say what happened here. But I'm not sure if this is the right place. By the rules or for me. You can put the blog on private too, if you don't like the idea of people seeing what you write. 0 -
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