Lets all be anxious/depressed together.

Gillo

Actually I should have said that yeah, I wouldn't really have any I could talk to, I 've one good friend here in Dublin but his solution is to have a pint and forget about it, he means well in fairness to him.

cloud493

Through the pokemon league in Dublin, I've actually started meeting people I don't know if I'm arrogant enough to call them friends yet. But we have a laugh, always have a good time. Shame its only one night a week.

neemish

O Lord, dark thoughts. Lots of them. At work bot can't concentrate at all. Filled with self-hatred. I hate this part of it. What to do, what to do???

banquo

Deep breaths. Call Jo.

Gillo

cloud493 wrote: »

Through the pokemon league in Dublin, I've actually started meeting people I don't know if I'm arrogant enough to call them friends yet. But we have a laugh, always have a good time. Shame its only one night a week.

Why not organise a small pokemon night for some evening either in someone house or a quiet corner in a pub?

handbagmad

highly strung out tonight,dont know why?

banquo

/Feels fine.

*Sips a coffee*.

"Ah. I appear to have developed the madness."

NegativeCreep

You kniw when you all go on about being manic? Is that when you are really uncontrollably hyper and happy? Im like that now, I like it

Princess Peach

NegativeCreep wrote: »

You kniw when you all go on about being manic? Is that when you are really uncontrollably hyper and happy? Im like that now, I like it

I don't know what is up with me lately. I am for sure not bipolar, but could say I've had some bipolar symptoms lately. As in yes I have been super energetic and happy, but can crash hard and fast over anything. And my anxiety and temper are crazy. Never been like this befor. As great as I feel sometimes, would prefer to be a little more level!

NegativeCreep

Princess Peach wrote: »

I don't know what is up with me lately. I am for sure not bipolar, but could say I've had some bipolar symptoms lately. As in yes I have been super energetic and happy, but can crash hard and fast over anything. And my anxiety and temper are crazy. Never been like this befor. As great as I feel sometimes, would prefer to be a little more level!

I definitely prefer it to the way I was though! I've been the same as you lately, up and down more times than a yoyo! My college friends think it's funny which is good because they used to think I was weird this is manageable so things are looking up it would definitely be better to be more level but sure beggars cant be choosers!

girlonfire

Haven't posted in a while. I feel bad about posting when things are rocky and not when things are good too. Feeling very up and down today. Things are going well for me - there's no "reason" for me to feel edgy, but I feel a spell of something coming on. I wish I could shut my mind off because it's my skewed thinking that lands me in trouble. I'd love nothing more than to take off somewhere and hide away for a few days

Gremlinertia

Missed my app with therapist last week, could not face it.. Then made progress yesterday out of nowhere, today can't get off couch again. The unpredictability is something that really gets to me about this illness.

handbagmad

Positive Day today. Had great meeting with psch this morning plans of action are now being put into place.
I then came home and had a ME day. Had a long soak, dyed the hair and pampered(whislt eating a MASSIVE toblerone throughout the day).
I wonder how long this blissfullness will last????

Da Shins Kelly

Told my parents finally about how I'm feeling. They're were quite sympathetic and my mother even took the liberty of contacting my doctor and asking him to see me when I get home for Christmas. Simultaneously looking forward to it and dreading it.

Seren_

^ Well done on telling your parents - it's a big step. It's good that they're supportive

Haven't been on here in a while! Or boards at all really.... Started a new job last week which is going well so far. I've had a few periods of really low mood/suicidal thinking though over the past week, which was the first time for quite a while. Kinda worked out what triggered them when I was in with my therapist yesterday though. I self-harmed for the first time in a long time

I scratch/hit myself rather than cutting which I never thought was as bad for some reason

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I hope you're all doing okay right now x

Well done to all who are battling the feelings they describe here, ye will never appreciate how much it means to other people that ye are fighting through this.

I only recently had someone I really care about attempt suicide and seeing the relief (amongst the shock etc) of their family and knowing how devastated they were close to being was somewhat frightening/amazing all at once.

Hard to verbalise but I think ye can see what I'm trying to say

darkhorse

Gremlinertia wrote: »

Missed my app with therapist last week, could not face it.. Then made progress yesterday out of nowhere, today can't get off couch again. The unpredictability is something that really gets to me about this illness.

Grem, you are going to see that therapist, even if I have to come and carry you to his office, ok.

darkhorse

Captain Graphite wrote: »

Insomniac self indulgent waffle time....
I really REALLY tried so hard to make 2012 work; going to China, starting an MSc, putting myself out there more and trying to make friends better.....on the face of it everything is nice but it's not really changed anything has it? I'm still the fúcking bitter, useless, self-sabotaging underachiever I was last year and the year before.

Wrong, you are a great person, and always remember that. You are to be admired. I think that you are a great achiever.

Gremlinertia

Oh i'll be going back, just a serious speed wobble, didn't feel i was worth the effort..

Call Me Jimmy

Feeling so down I decided to ask someone out (odd mixture of feelings and actions). We'll see how it goes. God I am going crazy

LegacyUser

Hi guys, I lurk around this thread a lot, first of all I'd like to say I admire how strong you all are for coping with this illness every day. Even if you don't always feel strong, it takes a great deal of strength to keep going and I admire that.

I don't suffer from depression (not yet anyways...) but I do have a boyfriend of a long time who's suffered from it for years. I love him more than anything but lately I've found it very difficult to be there for him in the way he needs. When he's in a depressive episode I come over to him and try to reassure him/tell him I love him/that we'll get through & get help but more and more I've been met with hostility and told I'm not helping & he might as well be on his own. I try and drop as much as I can to be there for him but I'm in a tough college course and have a part time job so it's not always possible to be there all the time. Right now he's really upset & hurt with me for not being there. I dont know what to do. I know some of you are in relationships, what would you expect/want from your other half when you're particularly bad with depression? I feel like every thing I do is wrong these days, even when I think Im doing the right thing I'm not.

He has seen a GP & was on anti-ds & seeing a counsellor but due to monetary issues all this has stopped. I'm not sure how much it helped in the first place.

I'm at a loss. I'm terrified I'll lose him. I'm sorry if this seems like a big ask or is inappropriate, I'd just like to hear some insight from similar sufferers!

banquo

Just gonna write ''not going crazy'' on my hand and look at it a few times a day.

LegacyUser

I haven't left the house for the last few days because I'm afraid that if I do I won't make it back. I really hate this time of year.

banquo

''bad'' gf - Drop me a pm. Very difficult for another to appreciate (nature of the beast) but glad to help

darkhorse

I'll just give you guys some food for thought before I hit the leaba.

Try being near sixty and in bad health.

flyswatter

darkhorse wrote: »

I'll just give you guys some food for thought before I hit the leaba.

Try being near sixty and in bad health.

What's your point exactly?

noah45

Feel rotten, no motivation and want to stay in bed. Had been doing so well, then out of nowhere I slipped from a feeling of 8 to about a 3.

No reason, nothing to blame it on, so why????? Thats what gets me, why?

cloud493

I was out last night, socialising, all that ****, and.... It did nothing for me. I felt rubbish

flyswatter

NegativeCreep wrote: »

You kniw when you all go on about being manic? Is that when you are really uncontrollably hyper and happy? Im like that now, I like it

I'm not a fan. It happened me last year. It was happy at the start, full of life and optimism but I lost the run of myself a bit, sometimes forgetting what I was even doing or where I was. Missing stops at public transport, tracing back til I managed to get it right. Silly stuff like that.

Also thinking unrealistically or delusionally.

darkhorse

flyswatter wrote: »

What's your point exactly?

Ah, dont mind me, fly, someone very close is dying, was just thinking aloud and it just came out.:(