Lets all be anxious/depressed together.

starviewadams

Feeling okay over the last few weeks,am sleeping okay,side effects from increased lithium dose have settled down,and I have been socialising a bit more(even went to a concert last night!)and am starting a confidence building course in about three weeks time.

Long may feeling like this continue!

LegacyUser

Thanks so much for your reply sardonicat. It wasn't so bad today. I won't take anti ds right now for a few reasons but the psychiatrist seems to have accepted that for now. She said I seem better. I wish I could see things from her point of view as I don't feel much different one way or another. Thanks again I have read your reply a few times and it has helped me. I hope you are doing ok yourself.

Starview I am glad to read things are going better for you. And printemps I do hope you are out of hospital and feeling better very soon.

Gi joe!

I've been going through a very dark time recently and honestly feel that I'm not going to get through it. I sleep most of the day and spend the few hours being awake worrying about the future and relieving all the mistakes I have made in the past.

Naturally depression has taken a toll on my health. I have a very hard time concentrating on anything for over 3 minutes, so returning to college in autumn does not look too fun. I was in peak physical shape before the summer started but have since put on about 6kg and lost some muscle mass.

The feelings of hopelessness and low self esteem are just starting to become overwhelming. I think the worst part is being 21 and feeling I'm wasting the best years of my life. Yet I have no motivation to do anything but read, play video games or surf the web.

The only thing keeping me going is my family, I know if I ended my life it would devastate them, particularly my parents. They've done everything for me yet time and time again I've let them down. I'd just like to make them proud for once.

I would do anything for a job and a girlfriend, some sense of stability and a feeling that I'm not completely useless. Believe me, in the past I've had more than enough opportunities in these aspects of my life, but have always managed to make a balls of it through laziness or just not giving a damn.

starviewadams

Gi joe! wrote: »

I've been going through a very dark time recently and honestly feel that I'm not going to get through it. I sleep most of the day and spend the few hours being awake worrying about the future and relieving all the mistakes I have made in the past.

Naturally depression has taken a toll on my health. I have a very hard time concentrating on anything for over 3 minutes, so returning to college in autumn does not look too fun. I was in peak physical shape before the summer started but have since put on about 6kg and lost some muscle mass.

The feelings of hopelessness and low self esteem are just starting to become overwhelming. I think the worst part is being 21 and feeling I'm wasting the best years of my life. Yet I have no motivation to do anything but read, play video games or surf the web.

The only thing keeping me going is my family, I know if I ended my life it would devastate them, particularly my parents. They've done everything for me yet time and time again I've let them down. I'd just like to make them proud for once.

I would do anything for a job and a girlfriend, some sense of stability and a feeling that I'm not completely useless. Believe me, in the past I've had more than enough opportunities in these aspects of my life, but have always managed to make a balls of it through laziness or just not giving a damn.

Hey,I'm sorry that you're feeling so low.

Have you seen a doctor and discussed how you are feeling with him/her?If you haven't I would really urge you to do so.It's a help even just telling another human being,face to face,how you are feeling.

Your story sounds very similar to the way I felt about a year ago.Basically I felt hopeless and I couldn't see things getting any better,depression,in me anyways,clouded my ability to think rationally and I only thought about myself negatively.

I don't want to come across as all wishy washy and say everythings going to be great and you'll be fine,but things can and will get better.

LegacyUser

Hi,

I hope nobody minds me posting here as unreg., I am a regular on boards but some of my family know my user id on boards hence the reason for being unreg.

Anyway, I'm in my early thirties and have recently given up my career to care for a loved one who needs 24/7 care. It is a young person so they are gong to need continuous care well into the future.

Here is the thing, I love the person I'm caring for and I really want to look after them but I feel I need some help. I'm so depressed at the moment, I feel so lonely and cut off from the world and have absolutely nothing to look forward to. I managed to get out to see a film recently, the first film in two years and that was my only break this summer. I come from a fairly large family and I have explained that I'm severely depressed, stressed, anxious and completely worn out but they just fob me off saying things like "you would never know you were depressed" and "fair play to you for looking after X", "you're great" and "you've a great way about you" but they never offer any help. Then I have to listen to a long list reasons why they can't help etc. Maybe I'm a selfish cow but I know that if my siblings were carers I'd help them out.

I have lost contact with most of my friends because I can never get out to see them as it can be difficult to get someone to take over my caring duties, I feel so low now, boards is the only escape I have, I'd be lost without it. I'm finding it so hard to keeping going and because I feel so low, I find it hard to pretend everything is normal. Maybe this is just me but I find it very difficult to talk to people, it takes so much effort.

I've seen my GP and I have tried different anti-ds but I found they all had very unpleasant side effects or made me feel even more depressed or hyper. I've had counselling but it hasn't really worked. I hope that some of this makes sense.

LegacyUser

How do guys pick yourselves up on low days?

I suffer from depression and constantly have low days.

I spend all day every day cooped up inside, never go anywhere, no money to do anything.

I live in a small town and there is nothing to do here, any clubs I thought about joining all cost money, money I don't have.

My therapist is away for a few weeks so I won't see them until they get back and its not for ages yet.

Printemps93

Had a friend on another forum ....hates my guts

Basically tries to tell people I threatened suicide and had a friend tell people I was dead . Sick playground rumours like That do great things for my depressive state . Gotta wonder where she got that notion

Sardonicat

Having some nasty side effects. Supressed appetite/nausea. Seemed to have returned to normal yesterday but today I ate about as much as a baby bird and now I've started dry retching. Lovely.:(

@Printmepts: if someone on boards is spreading nasty rumours about you on the site report them.

Novella

degausserxo wrote: »

After a year or so of fiddling around with medication, I was finally settled and things started to get back to a level of relative normalcy, but in the past few months, I've had uncontrollable muscle spasms (literally every minute of the day) and the worst shakes, to the point where I could barely hold a mug of tea for fear of scalding myself. Doctor's currently trying to find out which of the meds is causing it, and started by tapering the efexor down to 225... And the change is actually terrifying me. Although the shakes and spasms have definitely subsided a little, I've been bursting into tears at random points and am having horrible migraines. Definite drop in mood. I'd been looking forward to returning to education in September but I'm terrified that this is all going to start again. It can't.

Know the feeling. Hoping to return to college myself this year (yes, again) but also having medication problems. Hope you get it sorted soon x

KnifeWRENCH

KnifeWRENCH wrote: »

I really think I'm starting to get a bit better. And that seemed impossible only a few short months ago. Of course, it's premature to start thinking about being cured or anything like that....but a few small steps in the right direction is reassuring. The big difference between me now and me a few months ago is that I actually WANT to get better. I have an idea as to what I want from the future and have learned to stop clinging to the past.

*sigh* Funny how one night everything just seems to change. Even if for no discernible reason.

I'm at a stage now where I know I'm better now than I have been for a long time. I am looking forward to the future....but not clinging to the past has proven much more difficult.

This is a momentary, self-pity blip. Hopefully tomorrow will be better. Hopefully....

I've been feeling like I'm losing the will to live over the last few weeks. I'm not exactly contemplating suicide or anything, but feel like locking myself in and crying. I haven't any long term goals in my life and just feel like I'm trapped, going nowhere. And anything I do plan out, I'm too terrified to see it through.

Printemps93

Sardonicat wrote: »

@Printmepts: if someone on boards is spreading nasty rumours about you on the site report them.

She knew how I'd been feeling but she heard from some sick fugger that I was dead or something , now she basically hates me for no apparent reason in my opinion because I'm not to blame for what someone else has been saying , now pretty much the whole LGBT forum thinks I'm some kinda sick freak or something .......There goes my sad pettiful excuse of a life

flutterflye

Are we allowed discuss meds?

Just incase, I won't mention the one I'm on.
The pharmacist today said that I should go to the doc if this continues into next week, which of course I will.

But just wondering; I only started on my anti-depressant 2 days ago, but I've been experiencing this really weird, almost 'out to lunch' feeling.
Like I'm not here, or dissociated, or numb, or something.
Only on a very low dose to begin with.

Just wondering though if this, and the other side effects like really bad head ache and dry mouth, should go away, or once you get a side effect, does it tend to stick around for good?

Different for everybody I guess.
I'm mainly concerned with the weird spacey feeling though.
I don't like it at all.

LegacyUser

flutterflye wrote: »

Are we allowed discuss meds?

Just incase, I won't mention the one I'm on.
The pharmacist today said that I should go to the doc if this continues into next week, which of course I will.

But just wondering; I only started on my anti-depressant 2 days ago, but I've been experiencing this really weird, almost 'out to lunch' feeling.
Like I'm not here, or dissociated, or numb, or something.
Only on a very low dose to begin with.

Just wondering though if this, and the other side effects like really bad head ache and dry mouth, should go away, or once you get a side effect, does it tend to stick around for good?

Different for everybody I guess.
I'm mainly concerned with the weird spacey feeling though.
I don't like it at all.

Hi, I've recently started on Lustral, the first week is rough. I had that "out to lunch" feeling too for five or six days but it DOES pass. Stick it out!

LegacyUser

flutterflye wrote: »

Are we allowed discuss meds?

Just incase, I won't mention the one I'm on.
The pharmacist today said that I should go to the doc if this continues into next week, which of course I will.

But just wondering; I only started on my anti-depressant 2 days ago, but I've been experiencing this really weird, almost 'out to lunch' feeling.
Like I'm not here, or dissociated, or numb, or something.
Only on a very low dose to begin with.

Just wondering though if this, and the other side effects like really bad head ache and dry mouth, should go away, or once you get a side effect, does it tend to stick around for good?

Different for everybody I guess.
I'm mainly concerned with the weird spacey feeling though.
I don't like it at all.

Yes almost all of those feelings and effects will disappear eventually. Sometimes I get a slight bit of it back for a few hours here and there but nothing serious.

Lustralette, good to hear your doing better! Ive actually just been bumped up to 150mg (due to my stupid ability to put myself in crappy situations) so im suffering all the crap again so i can empathise with you.

The last couple of days have been hell but im beginning to feel better now already. Going for CBT next week also. Cant wait

bob50

flutterflye wrote: »

Are we allowed discuss meds?

Just incase, I won't mention the one I'm on.
The pharmacist today said that I should go to the doc if this continues into next week, which of course I will.

But just wondering; I only started on my anti-depressant 2 days ago, but I've been experiencing this really weird, almost 'out to lunch' feeling.
Like I'm not here, or dissociated, or numb, or something.
Only on a very low dose to begin with.

Just wondering though if this, and the other side effects like really bad head ache and dry mouth, should go away, or once you get a side effect, does it tend to stick around for good?

Different for everybody I guess.
I'm mainly concerned with the weird spacey feeling though.
I don't like it at all.

Normally anti despressant drugs take at least two weeks to kick in and you start to feel alright

This has happened to me my doc changed different anti d drugs over the the last few years

Mind you thats me everyone is different I think it can be trial and error though.

Best of luck with your treatment

starviewadams

New doc in clinic prescribed me diazepam for sleep for some reason,last doc I saw there said she didn't want to give me a script for that cos it can become addictive and gave me a script for phenergan instead,kinda nervous about taking the diazepam to be honest,might take half of one to get me asleep just to be safe.

Printemps93

does Olanzapine reduce anxiety levels?

LegacyUser

I'm worried about the medication I'm currently taking. In the last week and a half to two weeks, my moods have become very up and down. I'm either hyper (in an on edge kind of way) or I'm very depressed. I've been extremely anxious a lot of the time too. I've had some dark thoughts during this period of time. This came after a steady few weeks on the medication.
As my own gp's away at the moment, I went to see another just to discuss the symptoms, see what he thought, etc. He couldn't have been more unhelpful if he tried and I left there feeling like s***. Didn't think I should be taking the medication I'm currently on, but wouldn't change it, understandably enough. I don't know what I'm going to do between now and when my own gp gets back. I'm beyond frustrated and starting to feel hopeless. I feel like I do not want to leave the house at all but I've got things on over the next while that I cannot get out of.
I know I can't get any medical advice on here, but I just wanted to vent or something.

starviewadams

Jesus,I took a half of diazepam last night at about 4.30am and I didn't wake up til 2pm this afternoon,bloody powerful stuff.

luckyfrank

starviewadams wrote: »

Jesus,I took a half of diazepam last night at about 4.30am and I didn't wake up til 2pm this afternoon,bloody powerful stuff.

Is that similar to lexotan ?

Gillo

starviewadams wrote: »

Jesus,I took a half of diazepam last night at about 4.30am and I didn't wake up til 2pm this afternoon,bloody powerful stuff.

That's why they are addictive! I was on sleepers for a while and found it very hard to come off, that said they are great if you need them.

girlonfire

starviewadams wrote: »

Jesus,I took a half of diazepam last night at about 4.30am and I didn't wake up til 2pm this afternoon,bloody powerful stuff.

What strength did you take? Very late to take that alright as they are strong. Still though, good when needs must.

MUSEIST

I would not worry about the addictive properties of diazepam, they can be addictive but only when taken over a long period of time (MANY MONTHS USUALLY).

Personally diazepam was completely useless for me, had no effect at all.

girlonfire

MUSEIST wrote: »

I would not worry about the addictive properties of diazepam

With all due respect Museist, I wouldn't be so quick to throw out loose statements like this. Benzodiazepines are highly addictive.

MUSEIST

girlonfire wrote: »

With all due respect Museist, I wouldn't be so quick to throw out loose statements like this. Benzodiazepines are highly addictive.

Oh I know, but taking them for a few nights to help with sleep is not going to cause addiction.

girlonfire

Well that's true I guess.
I've encountered people with such a blasé attitude towards them in the past so I was just putting that out there.

Cravez

Could anyone PM me with a recommendation of a GP in Dublin City Center who is understanding and supportive with these types of problems? My Doctor (now ex-doctor) was very unhelpful when I had told him my problems and was told essentially to 'Grin and Bear it' with even no advice offered at all. Felt worse afterwards and left feeling even more in the dark.

Thanks

starviewadams

girlonfire wrote: »

What strength did you take? Very late to take that alright as they are strong. Still though, good when needs must.

I have 10mg tablets but I cut them in half and take 5mg instead which knocks me out,I'd imagine of I took the full 10mg I'd sleep for a full 24hrs!

girlonfire

As would I:)
At least you got some sleep anyway. It's dreadful going without.