Lets all be anxious/depressed together.

starviewadams

Don't feel guilty about it,it's their job,if you went in there with a bad flu or something like that you wouldn't feel guilty,mental health problems are just as important as ''normal'' sicknesses,if not more so.

It's quite sickening that in the 21st century some doctors in this country still have such a dismissive attitude towards mental illness.

Hope you feel better soon btw

Kranium

Can't deal with my thoughts anymore - just easier to end it all and I've no idea why I haven't already

oranbhoy67

Kranium wrote: »

Can't deal with my thoughts anymore - just easier to end it all and I've no idea why I haven't already

please speak to someone about how you are feeling!!!

Kranium

oranbhoy67 wrote: »

please speak to someone about how you are feeling!!!

I did but apparently its better for me to be out of hospital than in a safe environment

oranbhoy67

Kranium wrote: »

I did but apparently its better for me to be out of hospital than in a safe environment

why would they think that if you are feeling the way you are feeling??

Kranium

oranbhoy67 wrote: »

why would they think that if you are feeling the way you are feeling??

Idk I wish I knew

oranbhoy67

Kranium wrote: »

Idk I wish I knew

Well please dont do anything stupid, i know how you feel & it will pass in time!

Kranium

Don't worry I'm hanging in there

wilmer mclean

Kranium wrote: »

Don't worry I'm hanging in there

I know its easy to say but things will get better. Think Steven Fry said it that depression is like the weather it can rain for many days in a row but eventually it will get sunny. Hope you have a sunny day soon.

stupidusername

this isn't good. the night ends on a downer and i'm going to be down for god knows how long. my loneliness gets to me. it gets to me because there's something about me that means people (men) don't like me. I do my best, but I can't help the way I look. I'm just tired of it.

starviewadams

I was out tonight with my cousin who's a member of Dublin Fire Brigade,I felt quite guilty that he was drinking the fact that he found a body on Tuesday night,and I was drinking the fact that I thought I had a bad week.So pathetic.

I feel okay once I don't come into contact with normal people,but once I do I come crashing back down to earth.I'm just fed up of putting on this front.

luckyfrank

caught my GF cheating on me last night, gutted we have two kids think im going to snap

pudzey101

1st time posting in this section

long story short.. Last sunday night was feeling like $h!t! was goona do something stupid that involved lots of alchol and tablets:( was talked out of it though, and every day now im starting to get myself back to 100% happiness!!:)
My advice for everyone is.. dont bottle your feelings up, talk to someone you can trust. youl have the weight off your shoulders when you get it all out:)

dave

muddled1

starviewadams wrote: »

Was drinking all day,considered necking a whole bottle of diazepam and ending it,but the thought of my landlord having to find my body put me off it.

Don't know what to do to be quite honest.

Please stop drinking. My experience is that in the long run it makes every thing else seem so much worse.

I felt like ending it for many months last year and very reluctantly went back on the anti-depressants (I didn't want my teenage daughter to find me). I still contemplate it, but I don't obsess about it like I used to. If you're not on medication (aside from the diazepam, which can also get you down), please consider talking to your GP. Much as I don't like taking them, more than once in my life it has made the difference between life and death.

luckyfrank

Was feeling really down just realised im FREE

MUSEIST

I hate this time of year, its getting so dark and it really hits my mood. I just want to hibernate for the winter and get up when the bright sun and warmt is back. I am sleeping enough to hibernate atm.

Seren_

Don't even know why I bother any more, I've been trying to change my life for the past 2 years and nothing's worked. I really just don't give a fcuk anymore.

audi a4 2008

Your Text Here wrote: »

Don't even know why I bother any more, I've been trying to change my life for the past 2 years and nothing's worked. I really just don't give a fcuk anymore.

hi there:), i was there rock bottom.everything i had gone pennyless and alone.
but things change everyday brings new hope,new freinds at times.hang in there the good days will come back to u.
try to get back into something u love or a new hobby:)

starviewadams

Your Text Here wrote: »

Don't even know why I bother any more, I've been trying to change my life for the past 2 years and nothing's worked. I really just don't give a fcuk anymore.

Have pretty much gotten to this stage,I just don't really care about anything anymore.

mdan

luckyfrank wrote: »

caught my GF cheating on me last night, gutted we have two kids think im going to snap

so sorry to hear this - please hang in there for the kids - they need you and you need them...take it one day at a time - keep the head up xx

Elizabethc

I have had a dreadful 10 days. 10 days taking lexapro for the first time... I have spent much of this time crying and staying on the couch at home. I can't stand, I can't breath, I can't do anything... The anxiety is 20 times worse thAn it was before the medication. But I have been told it will improve so will stick with it.

But I feel so selfish after reading many of all of yOur posts as many of you are really struggling...
All I can say is that the sun is shining today and the world looks like a friendly place for today anyway.

Kranium

sertraline is meant to be one of the top 3 anxiety meds

IHeartChemistry

So I got good news and bad news today. Good news being I dont have GAD or incurable depression! Bad news being I've ADHD Still on Lexapro though. 15mgs. Gonna be stuck on it for ages.

Elizabethc

Wow how did they figure that out

Elizabethc

Sorry to ask but how are you finding the lexapro I have just started on it and have been reading so many horror stories about it but it must have a positive side or else it wouldn't be prescribed

wobzilla1

Elizabethc wrote: »

Sorry to ask but how are you finding the lexapro I have just started on it and have been reading so many horror stories about it but it must have a positive side or else it wouldn't be prescribed

Why are you sorry for asking?
I've been on it for almost a year. It gives me a numb sort of feeling like I'm not really doing things. It does stop me getting depressive episodes but it also seemed to stop me from getting overly happy aswell. Probably the main side effect I had was the phenomenal amount of time it takes me to orgasm. Sometimes I can spend ages having sex followed by her going down on me for ages and I can't get anywhere. Sometimes I just have to give up and go to sleep.
When I started them I avoided alcohol completely. About 3 months in I got asked out for drinks by a girl (now my girlfriend) and the next day I had the mother of all depressive episodes. I think it's because I had stayed off alcohol so long. I drink alcohol regularly now and it's okay.

Also, I was prescribed Lexapro by my GP who just gave me a general diagnosis of depression. I think I might actually have borderline personality disorder. Is there a specialist or something I can go to?

IHeartChemistry

Elizabethc wrote: »

Wow how did they figure that out

Going back through my childhood and watching my behaviour and my genetic tree. Its crap but meh

Elizabethc wrote: »

Sorry to ask but how are you finding the lexapro I have just started on it and have been reading so many horror stories about it but it must have a positive side or else it wouldn't be prescribed

I've no problems with the Lexapro! Just sleepyness but thats it. It works well for me

djk1000

So, first time posting here, they say that writing things down can help, so I thought I'd share with the group!

I've had depression on and off for years, went through a few years of feeling fairly content and thought those days were behind me. A few things happened, each of which I guess you'd call a major life event, one thing could crush you, I had three in a row! lost my dad, lost my business and broke up with my fiance!

all of these things made me sad, which is natural, but looking back, I guess I didn't deal with them properly. About a year or so after the last thing happened, I started to get a feeling that I hadn't had since I used to have depression before. It was a kind of mania where my mind races, I started to think about all kinds of weird stuff like I wanted to quit my job and head to India, or I wanted to sail the world. Each of these thoughts completely engrossed me one by one for more than a week, couldn't concentrate on anything else, like living in a day dream.

That seems to happen to me before the depression hits, each and every time, the weird thing is that when it happens, it never registers with me as a sign that the fall is coming :-) I don't know if I'm describing it well, it's not manic per se, or bi-polar, the best way I can figure it is that my brain sees what's coming and tries to fight back.

Anyway, I went to bed one night and couldn't sleep, my mind was racing on all this stuff, but the thoughts started to turn to the bad things that had happened, in particular my ex leaving me. That was when I had the mother of all anxiety attacks, I've never felt anything like it. My rational mind knew that it wasn't normal but I couldn't stop it, just got worse and worse like the adrenalin tap was stuck open. After pacing the room for a while and searching the house for alcohol, I went for a run (not something I'd normally do) to try to tire myself out so I could sleep, I ran until my feet blistered and I was puking! Next morning I pulled a sickie, went back to my mothers house and told her what had happened, I phoned the GP and made an appointment.

He put me on lexapro, which didn't agree with me, then effexor which was horrible! (I should point out that this is my experience of anti-depressants, they work really well for some people) I also have some Xanax for emergencies. I stopped the antidepressants and just avoided my problem for a while, felt like **** every day, just couldn't function, I managed to keep up with work and social life, but I was putting on a front every day, I was just so tired when I got home each day, faking it from morning to night really takes it out of you! I was totally frustrated, I'm a smart guy and I just couldn't think my way out of this, no matter how logical my mental argument against anxiety and depression was, it just didn't help

The GP gave me the number for a psychologist when I saw him, that number sat by my bed for a long time before I called and made my first appointment (another major anxiety attack spurred me on to phone him).

I've had a few sessions now and it's tough, really draining, every minute of it is difficult, but I haven't had a bad anxiety attack in a while now (thanks xanax!) and I'm starting to deal with some repressed stuff, I told a friend that I was seeing someone, he asked me to describe it, the best way I could was this, it's like going to a physiotherapist with an injury, you've been limping for weeks and avoiding dealing with it and it's just not going away, the physio finds the most painful area and pokes and prods until you're nearly in tears, you swear you'll never go back, but the next day the muscle feels a bit better, each visit is tough, but the next day you always know its worth it.

So now it's one day at a time, I still feel ****ty, but at least now I have some help, this period of my life is the first time that depression has really taken over, where I don't really see an end to it, I'm hoping that that kind of thinking will change in time.

To anybody on this thread, don't suffer alone, there is help out there but no one is going to knock on your door to offer it. I understand that going to a doctor/Councillor/whatever is a very very difficult step, but for me its been worth it. It's a long post, but I wrote it in the hope that if there are others that have felt this way, they know that they are not alone :-)

I might check in and let you know how the counseling is going in a few weeks and a few words of encouragement from anyone reading this (particularly if you're further along the journey) would be great!

D

Princess Peach

Elizabethc wrote: »

Sorry to ask but how are you finding the lexapro I have just started on it and have been reading so many horror stories about it but it must have a positive side or else it wouldn't be prescribed

I've been on lexapro 2 years now and its fine! Of course you read more about the bad sides of it, people who have bad experiences of it are more likely to talk. Same as if you had a bad experience in a shop, more likely to tell people than if you had a good experience if you get me

Side affects at first can be pretty rough but bare with them, and keep up your doctors appointments. They will know if the side affects are too bad for you and will change the meds. But they go away fast enough. I had the orgasm problem too and kinda killed my sex drive but that only lasted a little while too.

2 years on the only possible side affect I still have is tiredness, but that is more likely due to my crap diet and unfitness

Really helped me with my mood. Never had any kind of numb feeling, just ups and downs. Mostly ups and when I do feel down I can deal with it a lot better.

starviewadams

Had last session with the HSE psychologist that I've been seing for the last year this morning,he's heading back to his home country.Have to find a new CBT person now who charges very little.