To drop out or not to drop out...

Lilywhitey

This is my first time doing this blogging thing so make allowances please
I'm in third year of a 4 year science degree, freaking out because I have a physics exam tomorrow and have done very little for it.
I've been considering dropping out for a while now, or at least taking a year out. I don't feel mature enough to deal with fourth year projects and the stress of it all plus I've kind of made a mess of things socially speaking.. which is the main thing really.

Truth is I have social anxiety and there are so many people who I have to duck from in the hallways because I'm so embarrassed at something stupid I said, sounds paranoid I know but I end up being so distracted in lectures because of this and it has really affected my concentration. I plan to deal with this social anxiety problem once and for all over the summer but I was wondering if I should start afresh next year instead of being haunted by old ghosts?
Or is that just running away? I'm sick of people thinking I'm weird when I'm really not, I'm normal around friends and family.

My family arn't too gone on the idea of me dropping out of college since I was always an A student, and part of me doesn't want to leave science behind but I don't think I can take another year of misery and fear. I know as you're reading this you're probably thinking I need to cop on and realise how lucky I am to be in college at all and forget about other people and what they think but for the moment I'm finding it hard to deal with and the only thing I can think of is avoidance.

Anyways I'll stop with the self pity now and thank you for reading all the way down to here. If anyone out there has gone/is going through something similar I'd really appreciate some advice:)

Gi joe!

'part of me doesn't want to leave science'

That says it all really.

You're nearly three quarters the way through your degree which judging by the above quote you enjoy doing. Is it really worth throwing that away on account of the people in your course? I know it can be tough feeling isolated and alone(been there myself) but you have to look at this in the long-term.

College(whatever some morons might say) is a place to get an education, having fun and making friends is also important but ultimately a choice whether you want to or not.

Ask yourself: If I stick it out one more year will this be a problem to me in 5 years?

p.s Don't worry about being weird. EVERYONE is weird in their own way. If people don't like you for being 'weird' their the ones with the problem.

macaronicheese

You're not weird ,let them piss off
stay!

pink100

Instead of looking at negatives...think of all the positives you have achieved.
Well done to you to getting to 4th year.. go and try your best at your exam tomorrow. Think of who is important to you in your life and who matter, which is your family and friends.
Keep going, you have got through so much in college now it would be a shame to give it up...but whatever you decide do it for yourself only..best of luck and take a deep breath and relax