Things you want to say to husband/boyf/ex's/friends/family/people *MOD NOTE POST #1*

LegacyUser

This is to someone who i know reads boards a lot, though not sure ever registered.

2 years ago i made the biggest mistake of my life, left my wonderful girlfriend because...i dont know why. Because i was an idiot. For someone else who turned out to be demented at best. And it wasn't a mistake just because my new girlfriend turned out to be a nightmare. Even at the time i just KNEW it was wrong. That i did the wrong thing. You even said it, you were not upset at first because you knew i'd realise the mistake i was making. If only i did.

Since meeting her my life is ruined, lost all my friends to her issues,job, i'm a slave to her problems, and cant leave for various reasons at the moment though i very very much want to. thought the grass is greener, it most certainly was not!

Why am i leaving this message here? My girlfriend checks my phone records, uses my email, im not able to talk to people, she listens in on my phone, etc etc

So to you, though i cant leave any details for fear of being discovered, I'm so sorry. I was so wrong. I was an idiot. you treated me like a king and i threw it away. Maybe you'll read this, maybe you wont. And how will you ever know its you I'm talking about? Or that its me. I don't know.

I picture you sat at your desk reading this on your break in work or maybe on your iphone as you come into work on the train, stopping and maybe somehow just knowing its me. Just want you to know there hasnt been a day gone by i dont regret leaving, i've wanted to say im so sorry for years now and sadly this is the only way i can.
You are an amazinig person, i know i hurt you so so much, i hope the hurt is long gone and your living an amazing life. I feel so so stupid. I had it all and i was too selfish and immature to know it.

Sometimes in life you got to make mistakes to learn and grow up. Wish i had my set of values i have now back then. Wish i still had you. I know i deserve the egg on my face, and i deserve the worst. I brought all this on.

Anyway, to you - where ever you are, I am so sorry. I need to say it, even like this because I have nightmares about it still.

I hope for the day i can come see you, like a friend - like you asked at the time and i refused not coz i wanted too, but at the time had too.

Until then i have loads of memories of you.

Goodbye from a fool

xx

doubtfir3

That year we spent together was simply the best of my life.. you enlightened me so much sexually, you showed me that i didn't need to work so much, showed me that i had nothing to prove to my dad, that I am a good person and you pushed me to experience all that life has to offer.

When you had to go back to France I was devastated... It took me 3 years to "get over you".. but I never truly did.. I was so happy that we were so in love and so very honest with each other always.

So, now that you have settled at home and want me to come visit I know what's on your mind.. we talked about it!!!

But, can I give up everything I worked for here in Ireland? Yes, it has lost its gloss and I'm not fulfilled here.. and I've never met anyone even remotely like you or someone who could come within 100 miles of the way you make me feel.

I love you and want to come running to spend the rest of our lives in bliss, happiness and living my ideal life in France..

But, can I make the leap?! I'm afraid!

xx

itac

Dear Mum, Dad, Big Brothers, Big Sister and my two Nieces.

Thank you so much for everything. I wouldn't be who I am without the love and support of you guys. Everytime I've felt life has been getting the best of me, one of you has said or done something to make me realise I can get through whatever's ahead of me.

Losing Gran so suddenly made me realise just how important family are, how lucky I was to have been born into our family; and just how loving, supportive, funny, warm and wonderful you all are. We all have our faults, but true love recognises the ugly moments in life as well as the beautiful. I know that no matter what life throws at us, we are as just as together in comfort as we are in sorrow, and I'm so grateful to still have you all in my life.

I may not always show it but I do love you all from the bottom of my heart. Thank you for making me, and more importantly, thank you all for being you...♥

MissMiami

To Shane,

I miss you so much and can't wait to see you in person again. It's been the toughest few months of my life and I wish you had been here with me, as it was hard enough without you been gone too. I know we will be back together soon and hopefully can make some great memories! New York is going to be amazing and who knows what journey in life we will take afterwards!

Love you loads,
T

By the way, my heart is still racing after that skydive, I don't think I'll ever recover!

LegacyUser

Dear H

It's been a while. The majority of the time, I feel nothing towards you. There is still part of me that wants you to know how much you hurt me. I don't think you ever will. You sent me fake apologises; a veneer for the passive aggressive rage you felt. You were always the victim and never could take responsibility for the actions and decisions you made. I should have seen it in the way you treated your mother. One thing I always wanted to know, did you think I was a fool? To believe all the lies, to loves you despite your increasing bad treatment of me, I think I was a fool. I don't know how I would feel if you agreed. All I wanted was the truth and you could never give it to me. I guess I'll never know. You'll make some woman a very unhappy wife, of that I'm sure. I really don't mean it in a malicious way. I feel bad for any woman who is made to feel the way I did. I hope you can change, I don't know if you want to though.

cdaly_

Silly Chap wrote: »

my new girlfriend turned out to be a nightmare. ...

Since meeting her my life is ruined, lost all my friends to her issues,job, i'm a slave to her problems, and cant leave for various reasons at the moment though i very very much want to. ...

Why am i leaving this message here? My girlfriend checks my phone records, uses my email, im not able to talk to people, she listens in on my phone, etc etc

Leave her. Leave her now.

doubtfir3 wrote: »

But, can I give up everything I worked for here in Ireland? Yes, it has lost its gloss and I'm not fulfilled here.. and I've never met anyone even remotely like you or someone who could come within 100 miles of the way you make me feel.

I love you and want to come running to spend the rest of our lives in bliss, happiness and living my ideal life in France..

But, can I make the leap?! I'm afraid!

Take a 1-year career break and go to France. You'll know when it's getting near time to come back to Ireland...

Wibbs

cdaly_ to quote my fellow mod one page ago...

Ickle Magoo wrote: »

this thread just does what it says on the tin and is for people to post things they want to say, it's not for asking/giving advice/discussion/bumping posts/etc.

Many thanks.

Leslie91

To.......

You were my first love. Love is blind. I learnt the excruciating way. I cannot understand how I did not see what was going on, how much of a fool I was being made look. It seems everyone else knew but me. You cheated more than once, why?, what did I do wrong/not do right. I did not deserve that. I deserved more.

And you know what I got more, much more, more than you could ever be. You were/are a poison and I wish the worst for you. I am in a better place.

L.

Fluorescence

Dear Y,

I'm sorry, I've no idea what I'm doing. I'm allowing myself to grow close to you again, even though that's not what I want, and I'm just going to hurt you... AGAIN. Jesus, you'd think I would have learned before but apparently not. Yet, here I am stringing you along AGAIN. If you'd any sense at all you'd run miles but you don't. You're too damn nice (and you think I'm nice, but you've no idea...). Seriously - what the flying fig rolls am I doing?

I'm sorry. Fuck. I should stop talking to you, stop answering your messages, stop enjoying the attention, but I can't seem to help myself. I'm pathetic. I just wish you'd see it and stop feeding my ego. Lord knows I don't need it.


Fluorescence

Gunslinger92

Dear G,

You have no idea how much I am dreading the summer, dreading being away from you for weeks at a time again. There will be moments where I question is it all worth it, worth the pain and the misery and the tears and the missing you. But those moments will be mere nanoseconds, because I know full well it will be so much more than worth it. You are my best friend as well as my boyfriend. I'd trust you with my life. I can see myself building a life with you. Most people would laugh at me for that, because we are so young, but I don't care.

I just want you to know that I will stay strong. I don't want you to worry about me, because I know you do. I will be fine, you will be fine, and we will continue to be amazing.

R

LegacyUser

Dear Ex,

Much and all as I still have strong feelings for you, what you asked me for today has in some way helped me to move on a little at last. I was tempted, I can't lie. I've missed you so much, missed seeing you, talking to you and all of that. The past few months have been torture. I trusted you with my heart. I absolutely did not think for a second that you'd end up breaking it, even unintentionally. Talking to you last night and today reminded me how much I still feel for you. But what you asked me for today was not what I wanted you to be asking, and in a roundabout way that helped me realise how much more I deserve than than what was on offer. It felt good to say no to you. I have a strong feeling that the day will come when you realise how much you gave up on and see what a huge mistake you made. I'd take you back in a heartbeat if I thought you wanted to get back together again for the right reasons and in the right circumstances. But only then. If that day comes and it's meant to be, I'll listen to what you have to say and be willing to give things another chance. On the other hand I may well have moved on. I try to remind myself that your loss will be someone else's gain in time, if we don't find our way back to each other for the right reasons. One way or another I am determined not to feel the way I've been feeling for a second longer than I have to. I want to smile more, laugh more, be at my best again. I am still mad about you. But I deserve the best and the best of you and if that's not what you have to offer then someone else will benefit in time. I can't wait to feel great again, soon hopefully, with or without you.

A
xx

dominiquecruz

Dear D,

Change your mind. Choose me.

E

G86

Dear sinus headache
Please go away, I don't have time to be sick. And you're wrecking my head - literally.

Dear little sister
When I see you smile, it just reminds me of how amazingly beautiful you are. Keep smiling, the world needs to see you...you make it a better place.

Dear S
I've made so many acquaintances in that place, but very few true friends; they're hard to find(as we've seen lately), but I knew from day 1 you'd be one of them

Dear gym dude
You're pretty.

LegacyUser

Dear C,

Thank you for breaking my heart. I've learned not to love so easily.

S

LegacyUser

dear...

you have me tied up in knots. you are the most amazing person i've ever met. i know you're not perfect, so i'm not idealizing you. but you send me into orbit with the things you say and do. i wish i knew what you wanted. i wish i knew how you really felt. i will wait for you forever, and try not to mess things up while i do.

your best friend (and hopeful lobster),
me

Gunslinger92

Dear Dad,

Don't be ashamed of me, please. I am honestly and truly giving it my best shot, but I am not confident. The last thing I want is to let you down.

LegacyUser

P,

Thank you for showing me that nice guys actually do exist.

Thank you for not judging me, or making me feel like an idiot next to you. Thank you for not thinking I'm crazy, or tainted, or messed up. Thank you for listening without judging. Thank you for making me laugh, constantly, and showing me what it means to have a good time with someone.

Thank you for the small, sweet gestures that embarrass me because I'm so not used to them. Thank you for making me feel like I deserve them.

You've made me forget about the bad things in my past, and look forward to a happier and better future, even if you won't necessarily be part of it ... Who knows

I feel really lucky to have met you. You're a good person and you've made me really happy lately.

squeakyduck

Dear you,

The amount off bull**** you come out with is ridiculous. I hope people realise how much of a **** head you really are. What is the point in trying to make your life so interesting? It's clearly not.....

SD

fee fi fo fum

S

Thanks a million for showing up in the most unlikely of places this morning when i'd only just rolled out of the shower, hair unbrushed, dripping and slapped up on top of my head.

Will i ever learn that Murphys Law is my number one follower.

You on the other hand looked like the vision of perfection that you absolutely are. I miss you so much. Almost enough to forget the hurt.

C

micayla

Dear R,

It's been 16 years and I still miss you as much as I missed you back then. I'm also still pretty pi***d off that you killed yourself but being angry won't bring you back. You've missed out on a lot of things including meeting your 11 nieces and nephews, soon to be 12! I wish I had been older back then and could have helped you somehow, though the realist in me knows that it probably wouldn't have done any good, you're my big brother and just as stubborn as me if not more so! I wish we could have known each other for longer but I understand life was too difficult for you. Knowing you were able to finally get peace is a small consolation for losing you.

I miss you.

M

Smurfvin

Dear SM

I don't know how to cheer you up. You've changed so much in such a short space of time. You say you're the same you've always been but you're not, you don't want to do anything that you used to love, you don't go out with your friends and you don't enjoy seeing me.
Whenever we meet now you don't look at me, you don't smile. You don't want to be there, you just come to make me happy. I've asked you if you want to call it quits, you've said no and I believe you. But i don't know what I can do if you're not happy, it's killing me inside.

You don't talk to me about what's wrong. I wish you would. I think you're worried about your Dad, which is perfectly understandable. I just wish you'd open up and talk about it. I want to help, but you have to leave me help you.

You've said some strange things to me recently which have made me worry about you. To be honest, they've really scared me. It's made me worry about us in the future as I don't know if I can be with someone who thinks that way. I hope you're lashing out, saying things to deflect away from your other thoughts.

I hope I wasn't too much of a jerk before I realised what was wrong. I didn't understand. I couldn't understand why you weren't coming to me. I think I understand now. I want to help you.
What you need to know is that I love you, now and always. Nothing will ever change that. I'll always stand by you and be there for you. I'll do everything that I can do to cheer you up, to see your smile again.

I love you,
K

LegacyUser

Dear boyfriend

Sometimes I actually can't believe that you picked me. I'm so in love with you. When I'm alone and I think of the way you look at me, the way you touch me, the way you kiss me and the way you hold me, I smile and think that I'm the luckiest girl in the world. I really mean that. I know that you thought that I was only taken by the fact that you're my first, but trust me - I know how I feel about you. It's not easy for me to trust people or to talk to people I don't know well but from the first time I met you, things were so easy between us, like I'd known you for years. I was always the quiet, shy little girl but I'm different around you, I feel like myself around you and I want to thank you for that. I just hope that you feel the same about me because losing you would kill me. The past 5 months have been by far the best of my life and I've never felt more beautiful than I do now and it's thanks to you. The little things that you do make me feel so special. Like holding my hand, playing with my hair, running your fingers down my cheek when you kiss me, when you look into my eyes and tell me I'm beautiful, your little smile after we kiss... All I can say is I love you so much babe, please don't ever change.

xxxxxxxx


Dear friends,

I know you're all away at college and I'm stuck at home with no job because I finished college last year. But would it kill you to send a text once in a while? I know how stressful college can be but seriously, it takes a few seconds to send a "Hi, how are things?" I was there for all of you through all the crap but now that I need all of you, you're all too busy. But I'll never say any of this to any of you because I'm the quiet one and everybody expect me to say nothing. I just want to feel like you care.

Yours,

The one who's always there, no matter what.


Dear S,

You'll never know how much all that sh*t affected me. You seem to be fine now, no more self harming. But after I started in an attempt to scare you into stopping, it turned into an addiction for me. I haven't done it in over 4 years but sometimes I still struggle with it and I don't know if I'll ever be ok with it. I'm jealous of you. You cut yourself more and way deeper than I did, I have no scars left, they were really only scratches. And yet somehow you're ok, and I'm not. Answer me one question: how is that fair? We have a good friendship now but I won't be able to shake these feelings, at least not for a long time.

J x

micayla

Dear F,

Did you actually want to be friends or did you just say it without really meaning it? If you do want to be friends than start acting like one. If not, that's fine, just don't pretend that you tried.

*******
Felt good to write that:)

PK2008

Dear B

Do you know where the remote control is?

I've looked everywhere

PK

LegacyUser

Dear R,

It’s been over a year now since you let me go, or rather I forced you away…. What happened that Christmas 4 years ago will forever be my undoing, we both changed that night, we tried to make it happen again but it’s not something that can be forgiven or should it be. You are the closest thing I have ever had to a best friend AND you are the woman I love. It kills me everyday to know I can’t pick up the phone and just talk to you

Like a fool I still email you and try to communicate but I’m sure it’s a complete waste of time, but I think if I don’t try I will regret it forever. There’s a saying you’re familiar with ‘the truth is everyone’s going to hurt you, you just have to find the ones worth suffering for’, I hope I’m worth it because you definitely are….. no matter how sh1t it feels the little hope I have of making things up to you makes it all seem worth it, I hope I’m right.

Me and J miss you so much, he still won’t take the pictures from our train adventure down off his wall. When you turned down my invitation 2 months ago J said out of the blue that he had a dream that you were coming with us that day. I’m one of the most skeptical people I know but that just blew me out of the water.

I still miss you so much

R

allandanyways

Pick me! I want to make you happy and see you smile and wake up beside you and draw your tattoos over and over your skin and show you that you can be with other people and it's not only her who was the only girl who could ever make you happy. I feel like we're standing on a precipice.

For **** sake, please! Please just pick me!

LegacyUser

I feel like I'm losing you. Every day that passes it seems less and less likely that things are going to work out between us. I know things are hectic right now, and I'm probably overthinking things, but I wish you'd keep me in the loop, if there is one. I've fallen pretty hopelessly in love with you. I trust that you won't leave me in the lurch, but deep down… the words “too good to be true” come immediately to mind. That's why I've been so reticent. That’s why I've chickened out more than once. That's why I've let you put your heart on the line only to brush you aside. I'm so sorry.

And whatever you do, don't change yourself for my benefit, or think that you have to hide your true colours from me. I think you're amazing, and that's not going to change any time soon. You're wasting your time trying to impress me; preaching to the converted, as it were.

TangyZizzle

Dear better half

I look at other females. Don't resent that. It's human nature.

E

This thread is actually heart-breaking

lilmissprincess

C,
You act like you're in love with me and treat me like a princess, yet after this long you say you love us but you don't love me, not yet, you don't know how to do this emotions stuff..... Please learn soon x I do love you x
LMP

Dear P,
I may have a stone too much, may be a bit ****ed up in the head, but it's you I feel sorry for. I can lose weight and get help, but you'll always be a bitch.

Dear cm,
I miss you, the you before her. I wonder why you cut me out and winder are the two linked... Wish you'd tell me

Asphyxia

Dear ???

It's strange that you have appeared back into my life right now! Ever since the first day I saw you I've had this crazy burst of motivation to do a certain thing. I'm not sure why but thanks I needed something to move me forward.

I might bump into you sometime in the future but for now goodluck

N

LegacyUser

Dear me,

Cop on to yourself.

You have so much. There's so much love in your life.So you lost your job. Enough feeling sorry for yourself already...it's been months now.

You're thinking yourself into a depressive hole. Stop. It's bad for you, bad for your brain, bad for everyone around you. Why can't you focus on all the wonderful things you have, instead of the one thing you haven't? Why do you keep letting the panic back in, until you just want to walk out of your own head? You're in control here. Why can't you stop it??

S

Dear OH,

Please turn the TV down. I'm busy moping.

S

Gunslinger92

Dear exams,

Go easy on me, please?

R

gagiteebo

Dear D,

I loved you from the minute I met you. I had my issues at the start, issues that I've had for a long time and they came to a head with you. You gave me the strength to get them sorted and I'm not there yet but I'm much stronger than I was.

Which is why it's all the more heartbreaking that you've changed the way you have. You're controlling and mean. You used to fight for me and now you fight with me. You constantly criticize me and things that I do and I now realise that you have your insecurities and issues and I bear the brunt. You used to make me so happy but now you make me cry.

I've stood by you through this tough time you are going through but I've given up too much of myself in the process and I've lost myself when I was just starting to find myself again.

The final straw was today. You tried to control me once too often. I love you, I always will but I need to get away from you before my life is ruined. You've taken all the best parts of me and left me drained.

L

LegacyUser

Dear me
Did you honestly think sleeping with your boss would solve anything in your relationship?

LegacyUser

Dear you,

I Hear you, loud and clear, I will try to remember what you didn't say so I never slip again.
for what its worth, you've changed me forever.

bye.

LegacyUser

Are ANY of these people you?

Are they? Because if they are, and you are being all cute and mysterious then I have to tell you, you are doing it too well. I HAVE NO IDEA IF YOU'VE POSTED HERE. Maybe you have, some deep message that you're dying to have me understand, and expected me to pick up on it, and if you have, well, I have to tell you I didn't grasp it. I have read everything and I'm still as perplexed as ever. Maybe you didn't! Maybe you haven't even thought about posting here once, and I'm just going crazy expecting something that won't happen. It's not as if you've ever exactly burnt my ear off with all the things you wanted to say to me, you know. You could, now and again, just drop me a damn line, if you were so inclined.

So, anyway, if you do, please be clear about it, because if you have, I'm none the wiser.

Julybreeze

Dad,

I met you for the first time last year, slow the hell down.

Cheers

msbusterpuss

Dear S,

What did I do that made you so angry with me? Why were you so mean to me with your put downs when all I ever tried to be was a good friend to you?
Why after 10 years of friendship did you just decide to ditch me for people you barely knew? For people who had treated you badly? You f*cked me up thanks.

Dear T,

Why didnt you care enough?

Dear B,

what is wrong? why cant you talk to me? Why do you resent us all so much? can I help?

Dear BR,

Im sorry, I dont know if I love you anymore

LegacyUser

Wasn't looking for anything, just glad to meet a friend. But your smile, your laugh, your touch, your kiss, all just blew me away! It was only one night, but what an impression you made.

There are so many reasons why it can't work, people would disapprove, would try to stop it, maybe they would be right! There are so many things wrong, and yet I can't help but wonder........what if?

You're a special lady........

LegacyUser

Dear you,

Today for the first time in a long time you did not win, the truth be told neither of us did but at least i didnt loose anything else that i cant afford to. Today I got out with a little self respect, a little more than yesterday anyway....even if just for today.
I have stood up for the things that truely matter, but I can recognise when I have lost, I really dont want to try anymore. I think we both know where I've been.

From me.

xxtattyberxx

Dear ________________

I have gone past the stage of looking for the answers to my questions, you destroyed more than ones persons life,you ripped the hearts out of plenty. You betrayed so many people but morely important you inflicted pain and suffering. Always remeber I neither forgive nor forget.

We shall meet again

Dear H

Why didn't you listen to me that night, why didnt you just stay. You shouldnt be in heaven now. I wish you were here, nobody else will wear an Everton jersey with me :P

I'll always love, always miss you.

Dear ________________
Thank you for coming into my life, Thank you for helping me in the most difficult time in my life,you stood by me/ infront of me when I couldnt. There is no amount of praise or thank you's I could say that will amount to how I apprecitate you help fighting my battle with me.
You have stepped up and given my son the male role model he deserves. You have given him the one thing that has always been missing, the father figure that he can love and turn to.
You are a wonderful person whom I love more and more everyday, from your goofy texts to you sly dark humour.
My heart is always yours and more importantly to us, I trust you to mind it
x

pinkheels88

Z,

You've come out of nowhere and I'm falling for you at an alarming rate. I never thought I'd be living in the Middle East. I never thought I'd meet someone like you, so intelligent, so spiritual, so god damn interesting. I our 4am talks by the corniche.

I only wish I knew where things were going. I know things aren't going anywhere simple. I want to be with you and I'm scared about how far I think I'm willing to go to do that.

HLG,

I still think about you every day.

Getting there

Dear W,

I never thought Id say this but I dont think this is working. We used to have so much fun and spend all our time laughing.When I think about what we had, it makes me so happy, but thinking about now makes me frustrated and sad and so impatient. I don't want to be the person Iv become around you. And I dont think you do either. But we couldnt stay the same forever. Life goes on, one of us had to grow up.

GT

theg81der

Dear my husbands ex

You are an absolute bitch. Stop with holding the poor kid she`s not a weapon. I hope you....ok I`m not going to wish you bad things she loves you, your her mam, but I hope you get fatt(er) or something else non life threatening like you have to wait reaaaallllyyyy long every time you phone customer service! I love her and I`ve made such an effort for us to get along and because I love her I can`t even defend myself - I would never let anyone else treat me this way. I never did anything wrong you finished with him, moved on and then he met me, 10 years and your still at this ****.

I`ve come from a family situation like this and its the last one I wanted to be in the middle of. I`m really worried about when we have kids I didn`t want this for my children, its putting me of having them at all.

I`m a really nice person and I don`t deserve any of this.

LegacyUser

Dear C,
I can't stress how ridiculous this all is. Your wedding is in a few weeks' time, and you are choosing to fall out with me instead of focusing on your wedding day.
I may be your bridesmaid, but I am also an adult. You cannot dictate whom I can be friends with, & I cannot fall out with someone on the back of your fallout with them, a whole ten years ago. It's not healthy focusing on the past, your arch-enemy has moved on- I cannot understand why you can't or won't.
You're a beautiful girl, a loyal friend, with a heart of gold. But your skin is paper thin& I can't keep tiptoeing around you; it's too stressful.
You're an only child, but remember, you're all grown up now- the world doesn't revolve around you. Let me lead my life, I'll let you lead yours, and if we could meet somewhere in between, fantastic. But if not, just cut me loose, instead of this moody silence. This need to be sorted, I can't sort it alone.
Love,
M

LegacyUser

Dear "The One"

Are you out there? Because i can't find you.
I've tried so very hard, i keep searching but it only leads to dead ends and disappointment. I'm getting so tired, I don't know if i can keep searching. I feel like i've been screaming your name for years now, hoping one day you'll you'll hear me, but you never do. Are you looking for me too? Please keep searching, i'm here waiting for you, i always will be.

Do you fall asleep at night wondering what it would be like to kiss me, hold me, hear those words, to fall asleep in my arms? because I do. Have you ever wondered if maybe one day we could even start a little family of our own? We could be so happy...

Do you really exist? because i've never wished for anything or anyone as much as i do you.
I've never met you, but god i miss you so much. Please keep searching. I'm here.

LegacyUser

To anyone,

I want you to hold me so much right now. I don't know why I feel like this. I just want someone to show me they care. I know you care but I just want you to show me. My friends don't text at all. One text is all it would take. Just to know that someone is thinking about me, even for a second would be great. The last text I got from one of my friends was about three weeks ago. It makes me feel like I don't matter. I'm so alone I feel like I can't breathe. I'm invisible. Sometimes I feel like it wouldn't really matter to anyone if I wasn't here and it scares me so much that I think like that. Please, someone show me that you care.

xxxx

LegacyUser

Mostly I hold it together, mostly I don't care, and most of the time I can forget how much I loved you.

But sometimes, sometimes I fall apart.

Tonight is one of those times. I need a hug, I need a hug so bad it hurts. Not from you - you're not that person anymore, but god I just need...I just need someone to hold me and tell me everythings ok.

I'll always wonder, if what could have been, would have ever made us happy; if somehow we'd have sorted out the mess we got tangled up in; if somehow we'd managed to set ourselves free without driving ourselves apart.

Life goes on, this moment will pass, and you'll fall back into the depths of my mind...underneath the memories I've built on top of us; the life I've built to recover from the one we led.

But for now, I miss you. For this moment, I'll allow myself to miss you. And then I'll go back to being me...and I'll be happy again.

With love.
M

LegacyUser

Dear ____

There's a million things i want to say to you. It feels like only yesterday we said goodbye.
I wanted to congratulate you today and throw my arms around you and give you a huge hug, to look into your eyes and kiss you.
But I can't.
I have no idea how you feel about me. I don't know if you look back at that day the same way I do, with sadness and a mind full of what if's. What if I'd met you sooner? What if we'd had more time? I don't even know if I cross your mind anymore.
But I think you're great, I really liked you, and I still do. I have this tiny hope in my heart that one day you'll contact me again, that we can pick up where we left off. It's a silly idea I know but I can't make it go away.

From Me.

LegacyUser

Letting other people read your emails is careless; letting your boyfriend read them when you're cheating on him is suicidal. He knows. Or at least he thinks he knows. Put him out of his misery or put me out of mine.

J