Things you want to say to husband/boyf/ex's/friends/family/people *MOD NOTE POST #1*

TommieBoy

Hey Doc, way to destroy a persons motivation! Yeah, just another persons attitude to bounce back from... Signed, black cloud :mad:

LegacyUser

I have so much inside me i wanted to tell you but i was afraid of pushing you away and upsetting you, instead i kept it all to myself. A break up is exactly a break up, you can't stay friends and pretend everything is ok when it's not. You broke up with me. Any decisions or choices i made upset you yet we had broken up and were not together, something i felt you forgot but you constantly reminded me. I felt bullied with your behavior and the hurtful comments you made. I told you i loved you so many times. In the end i just stopped trying.

singledad80

Today was a great day today with our son I wish you where with us now I made mistakes, But how can you say it was just me I taught you would change I taught you would stop letting them get involved with risen our kids it was our family now its been torn apart by you and your mother, she couldn't even mind her own kids your dad raised you, you told me how when she was so drunk when you where small she wouldn't even get up to feed you for school and now you let her tell you how to rise your kids you let her mind our son when she is pissed on vodka ,now the new boy friend he called you a bad mother, you said you are happy, your happy that you lost you kids lost your husband and are broke, You only throw me out of the house and moved him in, You think when you said that he had problems he was planning to kill him self if you left, that's abuse and you never be happy he might spend all his savings on you now what you going to do? when its all gone when he has no pension when he losses his job, he cant even mind his own child and you left me for him you make me sick, I don't know why I still love you, people think I am mad, tell me I am stupid I don't know why I do either. I guess in a few weeks it be to late then And I will change and lost to you, Hope you realize that this time next year would have been better with new job and more money out of depth, We could have had a great life, set up for the rest of our life's we could have grown old and grey together but now I am going grey from the stress of all the hard ship you brought my way. I don't what to hurt you as I always said if you love someone you never make them cry but I have to make sure my son is safe, I do love you with all my heart and soul it hurt me when you sold all our wedding stuff its a shame we wont be going on holiday it be nice to see our son be able to go down the slides now after so many years of trying. I love you And I wish you knew that.

Carter12

So...............

Im here on a Friday night, watching you sleep on the sofa, theres nothing on TV. (Not that I watch a lot of it anyway)

Ive never felt so lonely.................

Im going to bed..........

WinterSong

I can't compete. I know you don't expect me to, but it's interesting that you don't want me to even try. You always look out for me, even when you know I'm complicit in my own pain to such an extent.

Four months and I still can't accept this. I wish, wish, wish things could be different. God, more than anything.

emmabrighton

You have wounded me so deeply, every time I have written on this thread out of sadness is because of you. You took my personal pain and shared it outside our immediate family. I did not want to see your friends because I was embarrassed about my past. You rang them and said we weren't calling over because I was embarrassed. You then handed the phone over to me to talk with him. I don't even want to see him. You then put the phone on loud speaker. I had no choice. You are abusive and controlling. I want you out of my life. I am stuck 10 miles from the nearest town with you for the weekend. I dont ever want to be near you. You make me feel small and weak. The day I met you 10 years ago was the worst day of my life. I want to have nothing more to do with you. My heart aches with the betrayal. You are laughing at me now because the only way I can go is by getting you to give me a lift but you wont do that for me. So I am trapped. I feel weak and small and you have done this to me. I long to be back home where I feel safe and secure. I want nothing more to do with you.

LegacyUser

Please let something positive happen me.
Please.

I am trying so hard, so hard.

- I'd love to buy my own home. But anything decent, I cant afford. I dont even know where I want to live. Am stuck. Stuck.
- I have to do the above on my own, and I know the path now I've been given, I wont have anyone special in my life to do this with. This is way I thought it would be. I have to do it on my own, like everything, I have to do it on my own.

Please give me a break as my little heart cant take much more.

dizzymisslizzy

S

I miss you. So much.
It seems crazy to me that this time two years ago we had just bought my engagement ring and you were a week away of proposing to me and making me the happiest woman on the planet.

You're gone just over a year. We should be married 8 months. My heart still breaks when I think of you. I still wake up in the middle of the night and reach out for you, roll over expecting you to be there. I still occasionally make two cups of tea. I almost bought a pair of runners for you last week.

When does this end? When do I get to get over you and move on with my life?

I love you with all my heart and I hope you find the happiness and the love you deserve. I really do. I just want to stop hurting and stop loving you

S xx

TommieBoy

Thanks for taking time out... WAS FUN!
Emmm :rolleyes: we seem to be sending out mixed signals... but I'm glad neither of us are bold enough to act on any feelings that don't exist!
Like someone said "we may look good on the outside but inside we are both train wrecks."
Ya must admit though, we do have the oddest relationship born out of strange circumstances.
...It's growing on me... and frankly that makes me uneasy.

sunshine and showers

D,

I love you. I'm so happy I don't know what to do with myself.

S x

singledad80

Well I have to say I finally seen the new you and you know what I am ashamed to have called you my wife your a disgrace karma is a bitch and your going to get yours soon, Your acting like a big child I really don't know why I love you any more and you brought all of this on your self, All I have to do is watch you keep digging and digging and don't worry I will show every body everything if you keep acting the way you do and don't worry I will never speak bad of you at the end of the day I did love you and you will have a small piece of my heart, but after tonight the only bit of you I want to see is your name on divorce papers. I am sure when our son grows up he realize that his dad was there for him all the time and how his mother turn into his nanny a Alco and cant look after her kids. You know I believe that we can chose to be better than our parents but some people would rather watch the world burn than doing the right thing good bye wife as now my tunnel as light and Its full of live and soul.

TommieBoy

Hey God? ..................Thanks for today

loubian

Dear god, please give me strength to get through this without losing my head. I need to stay level headed as much as possible.

L



Dope,
I can see past your lies, I can see through your facade. You basically told me you didn't want to be part of her life. No more, it's done,II'm done. Just go, leave us alone please!

You don't even deserve a sign off


Me, stay strong, you are a great mother and A is lucky to have you. The waste of space will be gone soon. It will all be ok. Take care of yourself

Me xxx

singledad80

Another day and the clouds are lifting higher, sun is shining and I am glad your gone, its like the misery you allowed to form in our life's has died away, God is giving me strength and the weight of the world has been lifted off my shoulders.

TommieBoy

Dear Drivers of the World - you people scare me... Fair warning, I will NOT be a happy camper if I have to bite the pavement one more time, simply because you failed to take 2 seconds to see if anyone is in the crosswalk before turning. Seriously, what puts you in such an all-fired hurry, I will never understand :mad:

loubian

Can I just say to all the married parents, , cherish your relationship and don't take it for granted. Soak up the love that brought your baby into this world. It's so hard having to do this by yourself with an ex who is a bad bad man and I would give anything to have a supportive partner who loved me as much as the baby. I'm lucky to have my baby here and my love for her has grown double today because I know she is saving me daily. I'm hope this doesn't sound condescending.

TommieBoy

Ok love, this is bordering on... insulting.
Frankly, I do enough self-deprecation to destroy even wonder woman.

dizzymisslizzy

Dear body

For years and years you failed me. When we were happy and secure and planning a future. Month after month you let us down. Doctors. Poked and prodded by specialists. All telling me no I'll never have children.

And now you decide to work after a stupid, drunken one night stand, when I'm desperately alone, in a ****ty job and unable to support myself let alone a child.

Thanks for the head f*ck

singledad80

my horrible x you just cant help and prove me wrong I say to my self she cant be that bad, It took me so long to realize what a horrible b---h you are, I never taught you can sink so low at least I have my self respect your a cow I hope you life is long and miserable, you deserve every thing that's bad in your life you make me sick, I hope life treats you bad I never hated any body in life I still don't but I will never feel bad for you again and I never want to be friends with you and when your son is older I will show him every message text email and every piece of paper work your f--k my way time is on your side but like everything else it will catch up on you and that's when I will sit back and laugh in you face. You never wanted to be like your mam well you are her twin and god will punish you in his own way you messed with my life, now you have your chance to fix this before the rest of your soul is swallowed up from the black hole where your heart is prove everyone wrong show me there is still my beautiful wife inside but like everything else you will let me down.

loubian

dizzymisslizzy wrote: »

Dear body

For years and years you failed me. When we were happy and secure and planning a future. Month after month you let us down. Doctors. Poked and prodded by specialists. All telling me no I'll never have children.

And now you decide to work after a stupid, drunken one night stand, when I'm desperately alone, in a ****ty job and unable to support myself let alone a child.

Thanks for the head f*ck

I've a baby from a pretty similar situation. Pm me if you want to talk

beks101

Dear Beks,

Oh you big tough guy. Taking on the world. Surviving on coffee and minus sleep. Going days without a proper meal, weeks without a decent night's sleep, months without a mental break from it all. Late night anxiety attacks, day-long adrenaline rushes.

Stress stress stress. And then beating yourself up for not being perfect. For not being even close. For not getting the basics right - the very things that are the foundation of your being. Health, happiness, balance, peace, love.

Tonight was fcuking terrifying. Just like that morning two months ago was terrifying. Sitting there idly chatting with A, slurping on coffee when all of a sudden the room is spinning. My chest is tight. I can't breathe. I can't focus. Sitting on the tube convinced my last moment would be spent eyeing the exit with the blank faces of strangers whirring around me.

Oh the deja vu. The casual surroundings, the tranquil air contrasted with this growing, unsettling, horrifying terror inside me. The spinning, the trembling, the dizzying light-headedness, the surreal feeling of doom and death. Is this it? Am I dying? Or am I losing my mind? Knowing full well what is happening to me but unable to slow it down or stop it; this is surely the end.

Come on Beks. How many more of these do you need to brown-paper-bag your way through? How many more times do you need to not recognize the pale, small, knackered face staring back at you in the mirror? You know your history here; you know your vulnerability. You know noone can rectify your health except you.

Please listen to your body. It IS possible to control this stress. It IS possible to cope a lot better than this. Don't let this become a thing.

Your wiser self.

P.S Lay off the coffee, for the love of Christ.

loubian

Dear summer sun,

While I love you and you're beautiful, I do not like how you wake my daughter up at the crack of dawn. I need sleep.

Cheers

Gunslinger92

Do yourself a favour, and leave. Honestly. I am absolutely not worth it.

TommieBoy

Dear ^ Gunslinger - I know how you feel (((hugs)))

Dear Self - This path you insist on taking has mistake written all over it! Get thee to the nunnery before this goes any further. He is soooo not the man for you....and you know it. :mad:

Hey K - HB you ... Put down the drink love, you are better than this. Don't kid yourself, you are not a victim - you chose this path intentionally. I can't watch you drink yourself into oblivion and I can't fix this - not this time... But I have complete faith in your abilities to climb out of this downward spiral (if you want to). You are worth whatever sacrifice you must make.

dizzymisslizzy

Dear sesame seed

I'm sorry for my earlier post, I was angry and scared. It's like overnight my feelings for you have changed. I love you so much already and I'm hoping to see you on Monday. I think you'll be too small though.
I'm going to do as right by you as I possibly can.
Love....your mam ( !!!! ) xxxxx

aleatorio

aleatorio wrote: »

Dear K,

I know we're young, 17 years isn't much life experience, and the general consensus when it comes to love at our age is that love should be in inverted commas, 'love', and soo many people fall for their 'first love' and imagine that they're going to be in love for ever and ever and live happily ever after in a rose tinted world, but I can honestly, hand on heart say that I see a future for us. Yes, we have our little squabbles and disagreements, but in the end we both end up coming out as better people with a better understanding of eachother.. and in my eyes, the fact we admit we aren't perfect, admit we have our problems, but dont give up, is a sign we have something special. I genuinely hope that our frivolous talks of having a life together come to fruition, and I dont look back in a few years wondering what happened to the man who made me so happy.. I know we have a tough year ahead of us, but I know Im prepared to fight for us, I hope you are too, I know you are too. Keep your head up, keep your heart strong

Lovingly yours,
L xox

Just a quick follow up on this:

Dear K,

You broke my heart, because of the battles I was fighting with myself, and for that, Ill never forgive you..

L

Gunslinger92

I think I might be starting to realise how much you actually love me. Because nobody else would have taken that crap. You should have given me the bollocking of all bollockings. I was being a class-A cow. I'm ashamed of myself. Not that it's an excuse, but I seriously think that I may have some sort of anxiety that's triggered by being alone? Because if M had been home, or if I'd been home for the weekend, none of that would have happened..

I'll ask the doctor next time I go. And I will try my hardest not to let something like that happen ever again. I'm just glad that all is okay, and I just hope dearly that I didn't ruin your weekend.

Yours forever,
R.

x Purple Pawprints x

I'm short. I get it. Pat me on the head again and I'll blow a f**king fuse.

JumpShivers

To myself...

I feel so lost and confused. I'm sitting in front of an assignment, knowing it's due tomorrow, I just can't start it. I know it, though.
I haven't felt like myself for awhile. I hate leaving the house, anxiety I know, but it's so nerve racking and time consuming thinking of everything. There's stuff that I liked doing, not so much now. Mainly, I just like reading in my room, or listening to music. I'm a little scared. I can't feel happy for anyone, while I'm upset. Nothing's going my way recently and it feels like no one likes me. The last part doesn't bother me as much, just I can't express how I feel properly.

I need a little break of some sort, a little holiday..

mojesius

Dear N,

I'm not sure if we're meant to be together or apart. I feel emptier and more lonely every day with you. I know it's 50% my fault but what was once a caring, fun, loving relationship is slowly rotting.

I'm sorry. I know I'm everything to you but this is just getting too hard. I've had to carry us for too long. I need air, space, my own happy thoughts and mad imagination back. All I'm imagining at the moment is life without you. Christ, I'd miss you so much.

But I need more. I need you to show your love for me. I need strength. I'm so alone right now. Wish I could rewind the clock to six years ago and be that me for a few months. Just having fun and being me. I can't see myself anymore.