LETS ALL LAUGH AT PEOPLE WITH DEPRESSION!!

Chiquitita

With this current episode, im doing what I shouldnt and googling things and convincing myself that I have all sorts of mental disorders.

Has anyone else experienced this?

snausages

Chiquitita wrote: »

With this current episode, im doing what I shouldnt and googling things and convincing myself that I have all sorts of mental disorders.

Has anyone else experienced this?

lol yeah, I'm a self-diagnosed schizoid paranoid narcissist with a superiority/inferiority complex. :cool:

lukesmom

snausages wrote: »

lol yeah, I'm a self-diagnosed schizoid paranoid narcissist with a superiority/inferiority complex. :cool:

Yes and my psychologist has convinced me to impose a ban on researching anything medically related and so far I'm feeling a whole lot better for doing this.

Chiquitita

Haha gosh that's such a relief like you wouldn't believe. An hour ago I had convinced myself of something, and then 10 minutes later I have something else entirely.

Mom im going to impose a ban on myself also, definitely not good to be looking up stuff. Anyone reading.....STOP googling :P

snausages

I wouldn't worry too much about what the internet says anyway, they invent new psychiatric conditions like Apple release new iPhone models.

efb

snausages wrote: »

I wouldn't worry too much about what the internet says anyway, they invent new psychiatric conditions like Apple release new iPhone models.

Oh no you didn't! Hugs iPhone 5s

Chiquitita

My nokia 3210 was the most reliable phone ever, until it fell into the toilet, then I realised how ****e it was...put your iphone 5s into the toilet and see what happens :P

looking_around

Chiquitita wrote: »

Mom im going to impose a ban on myself also, definitely not good to be looking up stuff. Anyone reading.....STOP googling :P

lol, yeah.. ~googles sysmptoms~ .
~finds out, I'm going to die!!!~ :eek: :rolleyes:

google the best way to find out the worst thing that could ever posssible, minutely connected be wrong with you.
There's nothing wrong with googling about meds to understand them and likes. (of course, choose reliable links)..but googling symptoms, nah, don't bother.

Turtwig

Samsung's are the best. There I said it!

Google goes by popularity. People tend to check out the biggest fears first. Then that becomes popular and it becomes a self fulfilling prophecy. Just about every symptom you google will link you back to the extremes.

Reiketsu

I have been up all night stressing and when I finally stopped I was left with total emptiness. I'm lying on the sofa because I couldn't even be bothered to go to bed. I'm so exhausted, haven't had one bit of sleep and my alarm goes off in about an hour and a half. I hate this.

efb

Chiquitita wrote: »

My nokia 3210 was the most reliable phone ever, until it fell into the toilet, then I realised how ****e it was...put your iphone 5s into the toilet and see what happens :P

Why would you do that???

Chiquitita

The panic returns

Reiketsu

Chiquitita wrote: »

The panic returns

I hope it passes soon.

I got about half an hour's sleep....bed will be my best friend today.

Chiquitita

Thank you.

Going to the doctor now. My thoughts are going over and over and over. God above this is torture

lukesmom

Chiquitita wrote: »

Thank you.

Going to the doctor now. My thoughts are going over and over and over. God above this is torture

Best of luck at docs hope you get on okay do let us know x

Chiquitita

Hello and thank you!

Upped my 20mg prozac to 40 and told him I found I was relying on the xanax too much so going to have to stop taking them.

Waiting for the tiredness to kick in to go to bed for a few hours.

How are you? And everyone else? Or are ye all in bed? *echooo :P

JupiterKid

I'm here in bed checking boards.ie on my iPhone. My doctor slightly upped my meds so hopefully they will work. Not feeling as anxious as I normally do which is a good thing.

Just taking things one day at a time. That's all I can do.:)

mickstupp

The worse I feel the later I stay up. It's like I'm afraid to go to sleep. I don't get bad dreams or anything, but I really hate that moment when you wake up and think, 'I don't want to be awake'. So the fact that I keep staying awake as long as possible isn't really making much sense. I guess I just hate that first moment, and the hour it takes to get out of bed.

Bollox. It's always when I have a deadline that I start slipping.

Chiquitita

@jupiter, in the same boat, waiting for them to kick in is the agonising part isnt it? Only good thing ive found is that ive said to myself that i'll "reassess" myself, if you will, in 2 weeks when they have settled. Do you have trouble sleeping?

Chiquitita

Micks thats exactly how I feel too. The mornings I wake up in sheer panic like someone has kicked me in the face. THANK GOD im sleeping but the dread of those feelings being there when I wake takes any goodness out of it.

How do you deal with the morning panic/anxiety etc? Im off college with this so I dont have to go anywhere, staying in bed all day isnt even an option cause I go up the walls now!

looking_around

Chiquitita wrote: »

Micks thats exactly how I feel too. The mornings I wake up in sheer panic like someone has kicked me in the face. THANK GOD im sleeping but the dread of those feelings being there when I wake takes any goodness out of it.

How do you deal with the morning panic/anxiety etc? Im off college with this so I dont have to go anywhere, staying in bed all day isnt even an option cause I go up the walls now!

Create something that you can look forward to in the morning. Or have a dog that will make you focus on letting them out/feeding etc XD.

Seriously though, setting something up that you can look forward to, is the thing you need. Maybe going somewhere nice, eating something nice, gaming, spending time with someone, watching something on tv, idk.

You dread morning, because you dread repeating the day, and the misery. Having something you want/look forward to, should help ease the dread.
(at least in my own experience)

I collected some of my past posts on this thread and turned them into a blog entry.
I've just shared it on Facebook. I've no idea if any of my friends will actually read it or not.....but at least I've put the real me out there, rather than constantly hiding it.

This was a reckless move, perhaps, and yeah I have been drinking.....but I'm sober enough to type so I must be sober enough to think coherently, yeah? I really hope this doesn't come back to bite me in the ass but if it does......well, I was just telling the truth after all.

Chiquitita

Thanks for the advice looking, my thoughts are incessant in the mornings. Its torture. This lasts until about 4 when im absolutely exhausted from thinking.

I just didnt catch this on time and ive let it go too far.

Thanks for your kind words though, im just in a bad place at the minute waiting for the meds etc. All I can say is that this is absolute torture.

Gleeso_Finglas

Chiquitita wrote: »

Thanks for the advice looking, my thoughts are incessant in the mornings. Its torture. This lasts until about 4 when im absolutely exhausted from thinking.

I just didnt catch this on time and ive let it go too far.

Thanks for your kind words though, im just in a bad place at the minute waiting for the meds etc. All I can say is that this is absolute torture.

I am the exact same however... I took it upon myself to go to a&e because I just couldnt cope and because of past bad experience with the hse I was sceptical....but my how things have changed I was pissed off because the hospital had no bed for me but...the very helpful and caring psychiatrist referred me to a day hospital. I went on thursday and friday and it really is an excellent service. You go there for 9 30 am till 12 30 and they do coping skills...relaxation and you are allocated an on site psychiatrist and therapist to speak to.

They are arranging for me to attend a CBT specialist too and they are lovely people and You get tea and toast too they look after you and they put a recovery plan in place. You attend from 2-4 weeks. You get your prescription etc on site.

I was not even aware of this service so o ask anyone who is struggling to ask their GP or if you are bad go to a&e...best thing I did. They even help you with coping when you going on or switching meds...self harm..everything.

I take back what I said in my previous posts about the health service. I am now getting there slowly...but slow progress is progress.

Chiquitita

Gleeso, you made the right decision going to a&e

Is it in Dublin? The cbt specialist will work wonders for you, well I sincerely hope it does. Out of interest what did they say you should do when you feel the panic etc coming on?

Also glad to hear that they're treating you so well, makes things a lot easier when there's a sympathetic ear. My parents are without doubt 2 of the best people on this earth.

I have to say also that my experience with the health system has been good in this regard, my gp is lovely and has asked if i'd like to go to hospital. Im going to wait for the medication to kick in first and then see. But I think it might have to happen. Dont know what way to go about it though.

Hope you're all having a nice day, and thanks for sharing your story gleeso!

lukesmom

Glesso I also attended a day hospital for four weeks. Identical to everything you have said about it. Did me good and nurses were fantastic and so understanding.

Well done for taking that step I'm delighted your attending there you'll have excellent support from now on.

Gleeso_Finglas

Chiquitita wrote: »

Gleeso, you made the right decision going to a&e

Is it in Dublin? The cbt specialist will work wonders for you, well I sincerely hope it does. Out of interest what did they say you should do when you feel the panic etc coming on?

Also glad to hear that they're treating you so well, makes things a lot easier when there's a sympathetic ear. My parents are without doubt 2 of the best people on this earth.

I have to say also that my experience with the health system has been good in this regard, my gp is lovely and has asked if i'd like to go to hospital. Im going to wait for the medication to kick in first and then see. But I think it might have to happen. Dont know what way to go about it though.

Hope you're all having a nice day, and thanks for sharing your story gleeso!

Okay well first I am determind to "get better" so when I was getting thoughts that I did not want to be here whether it is side effects from the meds kicking in or not I was like fcuk this I am going to a&e. I went to my GGPand she was happy to refer me and I went to a&e and I was seen by the nurse nearly straight away then about an hour or so later I met with the psychiatrist in connolly hospital in blanchardstowns.. Yea the day hospital is in finglas which is 15 mins from lucan on the m50 I would highly recommend this if you are struggling we all need that bit of help. See it as a rope thrown into the hole your in and you will start to climb out slowly bit surely and the meds will work away.



Even jesus needed help to get his life back.

Chiq I know you are all over the place but you are doing better then you think.

1. You admitt you are depressed
2. You went to your GP
3. You are going to Pieta House
4 You have your parents for support
5. you are ok with the fact that you can go to a&e if you feel you cant wait it out then thats fantastic. But all I can say is I personally needed the extra help so I went. Best decision I made.

As for the anxiety and panic in the mornings...worst thing ever!!!!! Sit up give your mind a few minutes to wake up and think to yourself that the thoughts you are having are they fact or opinions. If this doesnt help I recommend find an good anxiety guided meditation on you tube and pop the head phones in and do this it will help calm you and then the rest Is continuing to fight the good fight. Only you know you and whats best for you so do what you got to do to get better.

Gleeso_Finglas

lukesmom wrote: »

Glesso I also attended a day hospital for four weeks. Identical to everything you have said about it. Did me good and nurses were fantastic and so understanding.

Well done for taking that step I'm delighted your attending there you'll have excellent support from now on.

Best decision I made.... I felt I needed more support so I said feck it a&e it is and what happens happens I cant feel any worse then I do.

Gleeso_Finglas

Dont get me wrong im 40% off 100% okay and mornings are horrible but making slow progress.

I hope everyone else is ok?

Lollipops23

Was out last night and had a couple of drinks (only 4). The anxiety animal shook me awake at the crack of dawn today. Ya know, just to remind me it's alive and well.

I hate waking with a jacked up heart rate and inability to stop twitching my limbs.