LETS ALL LAUGH AT PEOPLE WITH DEPRESSION!!

lukesmom

pinkstars wrote: »

Just to let ye know I am also on zispin and am on 45mg this week and feeling awful - would have been fine on this dose before so here's hoping that it will work for me again, i have taken it for nearly a week so the doctor doesn't want me to just stop in as she said the drug is only building up in my system now. I had a major breakdown in the doctors today.

Hope you feel a bit better soon. Is it just zispin you are on?

pinkstars

No, I'm on a concoction of other drugs, it's a complete joke. Sick of the public health system.

ellavin

Aye I know I should of give them a chance but after what i briefly told her it was hard seeing her never mind soneone else three days later I knew I wouldn't of went I couldn't..

RossFixxxed wrote: »

Just to echo what the others have said, they take a few weeks and it varies from person to person.

MUCH more importantly is to follow your GPs direction and stick with it. Advise him if you make changes. I have seen people start to feel much better gradually on Lexapro and then decide they don't need it anymore and just stop cold turkey. I have had to rush out at 2a.m. to help the person in question as they began to drop badly and suffer withdrawls. These are SERIOUS medications and you don't mess with them, you don't do anything at all without a professional.

You were prescribed them for a reason and they take time. I more than understand the knee-jerk reaction you have had, but I would get talking to the GP and consider resuming your recommended treatment, or at least coming up with another plan. Please help yourself get better!!

lukesmom

pinkstars wrote: »

No, I'm on a concoction of other drugs, it's a complete joke. Sick of the public health system.

Me too. Chemical Ali I call myself

lukesmom

lukesmom wrote: »

Me too. Chemical Ali I call myself

Funny

McChubbin

I feel like I've built up a tolerance towards my current medication cocktail. It just doesn't seem to be working as well as it used to and coupled with the stress of finishing up my college course, I feel utterly wretched. My anxiety is through the roof and I'm experiencing crippling physical pain on account of the stress. Only thing I have to look forward to is my birthday next week but I'm beginning to thing: Why bother?
It's just another year passed where I've done little in the way of real achievement and I've regained all the weight I've lost at my last birthday.
I feel depressed and ****ty and it'll be a while before I can talk to my pdoc as she's in demand these days.
Urgh. I've lost the motivation to go into college as I feel I've gotten everything I can from it. I keep skipping days and now it looks set to count against me when I move into my next course.
The teacher I hate the most keeps bringing up my absences and is not being in anyway sympathetic to the fact that I'm struggling.
It's tough and I feel I can't talk to anyone.

RossFixxxed

McChubbin wrote: »

I feel like I've built up a tolerance towards my current medication cocktail. It just doesn't seem to be working as well as it used to and coupled with the stress of finishing up my college course, I feel utterly wretched. My anxiety is through the roof and I'm experiencing crippling physical pain on account of the stress. Only thing I have to look forward to is my birthday next week but I'm beginning to thing: Why bother?
It's just another year passed where I've done little in the way of real achievement and I've regained all the weight I've lost at my last birthday.
I feel depressed and ****ty and it'll be a while before I can talk to my pdoc as she's in demand these days.
Urgh. I've lost the motivation to go into college as I feel I've gotten everything I can from it. I keep skipping days and now it looks set to count against me when I move into my next course.
The teacher I hate the most keeps bringing up my absences and is not being in anyway sympathetic to the fact that I'm struggling.
It's tough and I feel I can't talk to anyone.

You can talk to us! There are some absolutely phenomenal people on boards, and their support is brilliant. I'm also here lol!

Have you sat down with the people in college and explained your situation, or sent them a letter. There is a stigma and there are some dreadful unsympathtic people in these places but not all of them. I'd recommend taking action now before this gets on you more and more. Maybe take a year out or change your focus onto getting better. Keep at it, you're far from alone, we're all here.

lukesmom

So second day on zispin. Yesterday I felt a lot of relief from anxiety but disappointingly today not as good. I know it will take a week or so till it starts kicking in but so disheartening when you have a great day followed by a not so good one. Can't remember what I did while waiting last time anyone have any suggestions? Doesn't help that I'm home alone looking after the kids

lukesmom

lukesmom wrote: »

So second day on zispin. Yesterday I felt a lot of relief from anxiety but disappointingly today not as good. I know it will take a week or so till it starts kicking in but so disheartening when you have a great day followed by a not so good one. Can't remember what I did while waiting last time anyone have any suggestions? Doesn't help that I'm home alone looking after the kids

Have you any baking supplies? You could do some baking with the kids? or maybe have lunch in the back garden with them, picnic style?
If you have any energy left , clean out the hot press, wardrobes etc, fill a bag or two for charity.

I hope the day gets better for you

RossFixxxed

Baking is weirdly theraputic at times, and could be a lot of (messy) fun with the kids. And you have chocolate treats at the end! I'd give that a shot for sure, and just factor in unwinding time if you can. Be that watching a movie together or such. Have you seen How to Train Your Dragon, one of the better movies I've seen lately and its very uplifting. And it has dragons!

I hope you feel better.

ellavin

What a horrible day.. today I feel angry that I kept putting the app to see councillor off now its just it can't go looking again go over it again with the doc first then I'll probably still put it off..

RossFixxxed

RossFixxxed wrote: »

Baking is weirdly theraputic at times, and could be a lot of (messy) fun with the kids. And you have chocolate treats at the end! I'd give that a shot for sure, and just factor in unwinding time if you can. Be that watching a movie together or such. Have you seen How to Train Your Dragon, one of the better movies I've seen lately and its very uplifting. And it has dragons!

I hope you feel better.

another thing I find most children like is gardening. Get some seeds, Lidl and Aldi have cheap packets , kids love the giant sunflowers. They love getting their little fingers dirty. Week by week you all can watch them grow. Take pictures too.

ellavin

ellavin wrote: »

What a horrible day.. today I feel angry that I kept putting the app to see councillor off now its just it can't go looking again go over it again with the doc first then I'll probably still put it off..

Sorry to hear you are'nt feeling the best. Why do you keep putting the Councillor visit off?
Is it something that could be addressed, like changing Coun, or to do with transport getting there?

ellavin

I just keep making excuses to put app off one day am all for it come that night I get that worked cant sleep.. the letter says in it to go to councillor for assessment I dont need an assessment.. what for I spoke to doctor

Jake1 wrote: »

Sorry to hear you are'nt feeling the best. Why do you keep putting the Councillor visit off?
Is it something that could be addressed, like changing Coun, or to do with transport getting there?

RossFixxxed

ellavin wrote: »

I just keep making excuses to put app off one day am all for it come that night I get that worked cant sleep.. the letter says in it to go to councillor for assessment I dont need an assessment.. what for I spoke to doctor

Really the GP can only do so much and concelling may be required, or a psychologist or even psychiatrist. This is like going with something wrong with your eye and being spent to an eye specialist.

You KNOW you should go, it's apparent in your post, bit it isn't easy. Really though you know to do this. You could reap huge rewards it is just the illness is telling you, like the insidious evil that it is, that you shouldn't go. Think of it like a parasite that is lying to you. You need to stomp it out. In this case slowly and with professonal guidance.

I'm rooting for you, you can do it!

lukesmom

Had enough of this now don't think I'm strong enough to wait until these meds work I'm emotionally drained. Just want it to stop whats wrong with me?

ellavin

Thanks for that.. it really does feel like a parasite! I can be fine for a week straight then just wake up and I know its back..I see what you sayin in regards the assessment too. .

RossFixxxed wrote: »

Really the GP can only do so much and concelling may be required, or a psychologist or even psychiatrist. This is like going with something wrong with your eye and being spent to an eye specialist.

You KNOW you should go, it's apparent in your post, bit it isn't easy. Really though you know to do this. You could reap huge rewards it is just the illness is telling you, like the insidious evil that it is, that you shouldn't go. Think of it like a parasite that is lying to you. You need to stomp it out. In this case slowly and with professonal guidance.

I'm rooting for you, you can do it!

DeVore

lukesmom wrote: »

Had enough of this now don't think I'm strong enough to wait until these meds work I'm emotionally drained. Just want it to stop whats wrong with me?

Go to bed.... get a good nights sleep and see how you feel in the morning. You are definitely strong enough, that's one thing that's certain imho. Write if you need to, here or PM.

lukesmom

DeVore wrote: »

Go to bed.... get a good nights sleep and see how you feel in the morning. You are definitely strong enough, that's one thing that's certain imho. Write if you need to, here or PM.

Feel the same today just need a break from it all. At least my husband home today to mind kids. Can't wait for better days.

efb

Feeling v low

Turtwig

efb wrote: »

Feeling v low

*hugs*

(Nothing to do with Arsenal? :pac: )

Hang in there bud. It will pass.

efb

Jernal wrote: »

*hugs*

(Nothing to do with Arsenal? :pac: )

Hang in there bud. It will pass.

.

efb

efb wrote: »

Feeling v low

Have a good rant here, let it all out.

efb

I am just sick of my pathetic life. New job but I not sure if it's clicking. Nothing happening outside of that. Life is one big pile of grey

Call Me Jimmy

Yea as Bob Hoskins says 'it's good to rant' and I find even if ye don't want a reply but just to express and have people read it is good

DeVore

lukesmom wrote: »

Feel the same today just need a break from it all. At least my husband home today to mind kids. Can't wait for better days.

And you *know* they are coming. You've been around long enough to zoom out and see the pattern. Its really really important to see that pattern. It literally lifts you to a new understanding and a higher frame of thinking.
The day I stopped looking at everything from the ground view and looked at the pattern, that would be the day I would point to if anyone said "when did things start to change". Instead of getting into a big downward spiral because I couldn't see past "now".... I would take a philosophical view and say "its a pity its raining in my head today... the sunshine will follow, it always does, till then I'll just hold a steady course".

You know good days are coming. You are not your thoughts, you are your thinking around your thoughts.

pinkstars

Concoction is:

Amitriptyline
Zispin
Zyprexa
Lyrica
Valium

And I'm in the middle of a breakdown

efb

Good day in work today. And 3 more this week!

stop animal cruelty

Feeling up & down today...keep thinking of the things l havent got, but at the same time being grateful for what l do have. Facebook has alot to answer for :rolleyes:

I think its days like this that make me realise of all the things l want to do, but deep down l just cant.

After weeks of putting it off l finally made an appointment with my old councellor, head feels like its all over the place.

Hope everyone else is having a nice day!

AnonAsimov

DeVore wrote: »

AnonAsmiov... I suffer with that too. What I've found (and been told by others before me) is that being "happy" is a conscious personal choice. At first I didnt really understand that and in fact I got quite annoyed, tired of being told cliches about this and then a mate of mine said "well, if it ISNT then you are allowing your happiness to be at the mercy, beck and call of outside forces, like a little boat in a big sea... sure, sometimes it will be on the crest of a wave and sometimes it will sink to the bottom".

That kinda stopped me because its true, if you dont control your "happiness" then who does?

It sounds to me like there is something underlying which you aren't confronting or talking about and it's bubbling up a resentful unhappiness because you are trying to bury your feelings about it.

This is how it works for me anyway, if I try to ignore/bury something its like trying to crush silly-putty... it squirts out in all sorts of directions and its rarely pleasant. I have to sit down, go through my feelings about whatever it is (and identifying it isnt always easy or pleasant) and then give it its due time and attention.

You cant just say "ok I'm going to be happy and only think positive thoughts and be all Sunshine and Lollipops", thats not going to work ether but if you can process anything negative and then say "ok, not everything is perfect but I'm choosing to be in a good mood because I'm in charge here" you might find that works for you.
Once I've processed anything I'm feeling hurt about, I put a mental tick note on it as "Done" and then I continue on my way. I've given it my time and its due, and now it needs to be put to rest.

Your mileage may vary!

Hey Thanks for the reply.Such a cringe feeling reading my previous post, I wasn't a happy camper that day. I'm under pressure at work(Under ***ing staffed, a department should have more than one person in it!) and I have exams coming up. Part of it was I sat down to try do some study that night and couldn't focus at all. I'm sitting there thinking "The coursework is right infront of you, read it, understand it and commit it to memory. Why do you find that so ****ing hard?" and then I started thinking of all the things I regret and it just went down down down.

The boat analogy is a good one. I do let outside factor influence my mood too much. I also make the mistake of making the conscious decision to just be happy and ignore my problems, It feels fake and never lasts, Its like sticking wallpaper over a crack that you know is there.

I love that movie "Fight Club"

Anyways I'm up for work in like 5 hours :S

I'm going to try get back into a proper food+gym routine again, I remember having more energy and looking and feeling better. Its awful when I see people I know and their looking great while I look tired and gaunt and am dressed like a homeless person.