LETS ALL LAUGH AT PEOPLE WITH DEPRESSION!!

rain10

hi, yeah have to say im pretty used to my depression by now, as i say to my doctor its normal for me now and she always corrects me and says ''no no its ,abnormal'' but im used to it by now, have to disagree with people that say there is a lack of care for the mentaly ill , there is SO much support out there, honestly i could list 20+ irish based alone websites that deal with in great detail about depression,anxiety and all mental illness issues, the samaritans are there 24 hours a day you can even call into them to talk , there is a lot of people that genuinly care , thankfully i have a great councellor and doctor, if anyone wants to PM me i'd love to help as it is one of the hardest things i have gone through and hopefully in time i want to volunteer and work with helping people with depression x

grenache

grenache wrote: »

Does anyone else feel comfortable in their depression? Strange question i know, but that's exactly how i feel. As if i've known little else all my life and this feeling is the only thing i'm familiar with. Afraid to emerge from that safety barrier of pain.

Ironic i know.

I'm the same. I call it my "bubble."

midlandsmissus

I just want to cry today. sometimes I don't feel strong enough for this life. I read Katie Piper's book last night and she came through so much and survived, why cant I be strong enough?

hairyprincess

grenache wrote: »

Does anyone else feel comfortable in their depression? Strange question i know, but that's exactly how i feel. As if i've known little else all my life and this feeling is the only thing i'm familiar with. Afraid to emerge from that safety barrier of pain.

Ironic i know.

It's like a security blanket, it's what you know. So it's hard to strip that all away and leave yourself naked and vulnerable. As strange and all as that sounds

jammstarr

hairyprincess wrote: »

It's like a security blanket, it's what you know. So it's hard to strip that all away and leave yourself naked and vulnerable. As strange and all as that sounds

That's it in a nutshell

dragonkin

We are largely products of the environment that we live in. The major mental problems of the modern world are a symptom of a messed up environment. Think of all the fear perpetuated constantly and the human's basic necessity to feel safe.

DeVore

midlandsmissus wrote: »

I just want to cry today. sometimes I don't feel strong enough for this life. I read Katie Piper's book last night and she came through so much and survived, why cant I be strong enough?

Lots of people feel that way. John Lennon went to a guru and asked him the way to happiness and peace and he was told "breath in, breath out". Some days I just go to bed, curl up and say "lets call that a draw and start again tomorrow".

you are far far from alone in feeling that way. Depression or not, I'd say the majority of people feel like that at the moment...

mark_jmc

Karsini wrote: »

My GP put me on a 150mg dose (2x75) about 6 or 7 years ago. It made me throw up. A lot.

I've been taking effexor for 10 years, been on 225 mg for a number of years , up to 300 mg daily on occassion. I know there is a lot of difference of opinion as to effexor & its merits etc but this drug saved my life.
I feel that I am one of the lucky ones, yes I suffer from Depression but I have great friends & family and also through experience I have learned to recognise when that downward spiral is about to hit and to kick it to touch with a variety of things

I had a really nice day today. Was in work for a few hours then came out to lovely sunshine. Sunlight almost always perks me up.

Other than that I've just been quite "meh" and apathetic for the few days or weeks.

Acacia

grenache wrote: »

Does anyone else feel comfortable in their depression? Strange question i know, but that's exactly how i feel. As if i've known little else all my life and this feeling is the only thing i'm familiar with. Afraid to emerge from that safety barrier of pain.

Ironic i know.

I totally relate. If you were to strip away my problems/issues, etc, I don't know what I'd be. I remember feeling so validated ( for want of a better word) when I receieved a formal letter at the end of my counselling sessions ( not that I felt that I was 'cured' really) just stating that I was despressed/suicidal/self-harming. Seeing it down on paper made me feel better- I'm not just someone on a constant downer who isn't as fun/easy-going as other people. There is a reason why I'm like this.

I really don't know what it would feel like to be genuinely happy and worry-free. It scares me a little bit.

Millicent wrote: »

You're welcome.

You have to keep at it though; practice is essential. It won't feel comfortable or natural at first but that's because with things like low self-esteem or anxiety, you tend to feel like you're not in control of your life or that you're not important enough to demand better for yourself when you really are. Repeating it often enough makes it habit and believe me, it's a great habit to form. It helped me more than I can describe.

This post really struck a chord with me, Milli. I would be very similar to the poster who is having trouble confronting their housemate- I'm absolutely useless when it comes to social confrontation. I'd over-analze things in my head and build them up to be extremely difficult when they're just normal situations for a lot of people. For example, work is an absolute nightmare- having to answer phones, meet new people, etc. It can take me ages to build up the courage to walk over to my boss and just ask a question. Like, hours. I do everything to avoid it.

I used to think everyone was like this and my social problems were not really related to the depression, but now I'm not sure. It's sounds mad, but it's like I spend every minute of my life worrying how other people perceive me. I've held myself back from so much stuff in life cause I just can't handle what other people might say. Even stupid stuff like dying my hair or something. I always thought it was just normal cause everyone worries what people think... but now I don't know. Like last weekend, I went out with my friend to a club, these young lads came over to us, laughing and stuff, I was convinced it was because I'm ugly, fat, whatever, spent the night hating myself over it...

Is that normal? Is it just me being uptight or is it an anxiety disorder of some sort? I'm afraid if I go to a doctor they'll just saying I'm being silly or over-dramatic or sensitive.

Sorry for the long, meandering post!:pac:

herisson

i have been depressed for a while....i just never wanted to admit it even on boards...

the last few months especially have messed me up entirely
i never thought i could talk to anyone and even if i could i wouldnt...i didnt want to burden them so i just bottled it up inside....
it was a stupid move...adding Captain Morgans to the mix made things worse
everything came out last night and i realized that i am an ass
i am no good with talking about things like this so i bottle everything up and pretend im fine

this thread has forced me to see that there are other people with depression...they have opened up about it...everyone has their problems and its time i open up about mine and try feel better!

Millicent

Acacia wrote: »

This post really struck a chord with me, Milli. I would be very similar to the poster who is having trouble confronting their housemate- I'm absolutely useless when it comes to social confrontation. I'd over-analze things in my head and build them up to be extremely difficult when they're just normal situations for a lot of people. For example, work is an absolute nightmare- having to answer phones, meet new people, etc. It can take me ages to build up the courage to walk over to my boss and just ask a question. Like, hours. I do everything to avoid it.

I used to think everyone was like this and my social problems were not really related to the depression, but now I'm not sure. It's sounds mad, but it's like I spend every minute of my life worrying how other people perceive me. I've held myself back from so much stuff in life cause I just can't handle what other people might say. Even stupid stuff like dying my hair or something. I always thought it was just normal cause everyone worries what people think... but now I don't know. Like last weekend, I went out with my friend to a club, these young lads came over to us, laughing and stuff, I was convinced it was because I'm ugly, fat, whatever, spent the night hating myself over it...

Is that normal? Is it just me being uptight or is it an anxiety disorder of some sort? I'm afraid if I go to a doctor they'll just saying I'm being silly or over-dramatic or sensitive.

Sorry for the long, meandering post!:pac:

It exists in various degrees with people but nowhere near how much it exists in anyone with depression. I would tie myself up in knots worrying about EVERYTHING when I was depressed, particularly what other people were thinking of me, how they were reacting to me and how I might have made them feel. Weirdly, I never concentrated on how they made ME feel, even when their bad behaviour was badly affecting my life. No wonder people with depression get so tired--it's bloody exhausting worrying about the whole world's feelings, thoughts and reactions all the time! Especially when you won't even give your own the time of day.

I think anxiety and depression more often than not go hand-in-hand. It's not necessarily indicative of any underlying social disorder. Talk to your doctor; if they have any business being a doctor, they'll take you seriously. If they don't go to another one and another one and so on till you find one who does. Anxiety can be crippling but it can be fixed. For the most part these days, I could not give a sh1t if someone's nose is out of joint because I called them on their crap. Life's infinite too short to put up either idiots.

herisson

so i decided to get my act together and i went to the doctor this morning
it was a good decision

im not going to go into a long post with it...i already poured my heart out in TLL

but it was the right thing to do
she told me to stop drinking and to take one day at a time
i need to focus on my exams and to try block out every negative thought i had and try do something productive

i really want this to go away so badly

i have always been afraid to post here i didnt want to admit it at all....

it has helped me realize that depression is not going to go away by itself
i need to open up and get rid of this thing!

Thanks so much for starting this thread DeVore and thanks to all the boardsies who have opened up!

DeVore

That was the hardest day. I wont lie and say there aren't hard days to come, there are... but that was the hardest. Well done you.

stupidusername

I finally found a way to speak to my housemate, that didn't make me look horrible. and I did it. my boyfriend helped me word it the best, and I think that helped me be less nervous about it. at the same time, I was sweating and shaking before it and after, but I did it. it didn't go great, because, well there's something awfully wrong with that lad if he thinks he's cleaned the apartment, but anyway I've said it now, and he may get the point. he might have something to say to me once he's thought about it, which will make me very very nervous about being around him over the next while, but I'm heading home tomorrow for a few days, so at least we'll both have time to think.

Yes I can see that it's not the worst thing. but then he also didn't react badly, so well it didn't turn out that bad.....this time.

TheBegotten

DeVore, I honestly think you may have saved someone's life since you started this thread. That is THE single greatest thing anyone can EVER do. We're all damned in the end, but it's people that can put off that end.
Congratulations. You can now say the world is better off because of you.

Edit: learning about science helps me be less depressed (although I wouldn't think I'm suffering, just very cynical about humanities prospects), I'm not sure why. If you think it would help, try it.

Mucky.Bucky

I'm having a relapse. Felt sh1te for weeks. I want to die. So much emotional pain that I want to go and fcuk off. All due to being on the receiving end of empty promises, lies, false hope. I was kept in anticipation for nothing for him just to leg it lying to me more to cover his own ass. Why am I like this when that man was a maggot and I had a lucky escape I do not know.

I need extra help I think but don't want meds due to work. Work is the only thing that is keeping me good. Outside of work in my free time I am ****e.

I don't know if I'm able for any sort of couselling. My head is too melted.

Went to visit a physic/tarot reader at the weekend in the hope of gaining some peace at this situation. She sensed something. She urged me to visit my doctor. She sensed thyroid problems which would make some sense. Have put on loads of weight but I'm not eating probably but I'm very inactive. A quick google also says that thyroid problems may lead to depression.

DeVore

Mucky, sounds like you met a psychological-vampire. Nasty buggers.

I think you need to visit the doc cos even if everything is ok... You will worry about it now. Just go for a chat and bring the topic up.

Also, when you are feeling like you do, get up, get out, get on. . Staying busy is good.

I've been up and down myself recently but mostly going the right direction. I'm trying to change ruts in my life I have become very comfortable in and that's hard and painful at times. Good luck to both of us eh?

Pixie-Fairy - I remember the day I decided to approach a GP and it was one of the hardest decisions I ever had to make. But it was the right one. I felt so proud of myself for doing it and I hope you feel proud of yourself for doing it too. Congratulations.

Benny_Cake

boneyarsebogman wrote: »

Pixie-Fairy - I remember the day I decided to approach a GP and it was one of the hardest decisions I ever had to make. But it was the right one. I felt so proud of myself for doing it and I hope you feel proud of yourself for doing it too. Congratulations.

Absolutely, it won't be the last day of your depression, but it will be the first day you do something positive about it and that makes all the difference. Congratulations to anyone who is taking the step.

Snowie

Out of curiosity, as people with depression have you got top tips to helping you over come those lethargic says where you want sit in a room and hide in a corner past 4 maybe 5 weeks I was on the point off anxiety melt down i freaking out every day over silly things.

I even started smoking again because i found it was the one things that calmed me down..
which know one knows about

how ever Ive stopped again..

I find showers, fruit, sunshine, cigerates and exercise.

Also I generally use photoshop and illustrator as a means of making pictures and just learning how to use it. but also because I find it something positive to be obsessive over which I really need. I find bye stretching my creativity it some how makes things easier for me which he also pointed out..

But Meditation is supposed to really help Im thinking of starting blog and seeing how I feel in 21 days starting from tomorrow but I can't remember the chaps name but i think its worth checking out


Yesterday I was listening to ray darcy he had some convict from down under who suffers from depression, and made some strong points that I think need to be remembered.

Don't forget that we role on Dips and high just like a choppy see calm as well as rough, way it goes..

herisson

Deleted User wrote: »

Pixie-Fairy - I remember the day I decided to approach a GP and it was one of the hardest decisions I ever had to make. But it was the right one. I felt so proud of myself for doing it and I hope you feel proud of yourself for doing it too. Congratulations.

Benny_Cake wrote: »

Absolutely, it won't be the last day of your depression, but it will be the first day you do something positive about it and that makes all the difference. Congratulations to anyone who is taking the step.

i broke down to her it was so hard to get everything out

so happy i did it i know there is a long way to go but i need to do it!

cloud493

Would not deny, am not doing too well at the moment.

Kathnora

Can anyone answer this for me?........ I know anti depressants take about 6 months to be effective. Someone close to me is on them for 6mths (but doesn't know that I know this yet) and is on a "high" at present. She is very confident (maybe over confident at times) and nothing workwise or studywise is any bother? Is this a normal effect of anti depressant medication? Would someone like this be likely to be so confident that they neglect their work commitments though this would be behaving out of character for this person? In other words what I'm trying to find out is ....do anti depressants change people's behaviour/habits/work ethic etc? and make everything seem "rosy in the garden"? Or, do they just enhance someone's confidence without interfering with their work? Apologies if this sounds a bit mixed up....just worried about her right now.

I'm not sure whether anyone can answer that question for sure, because none of us are qualified to do so.

RobbingBandit

Stopped taking my meds last week and tried to do something I shouldn't have twice,don't really feel to happy being on them any way. Psychologist I have seen twice since christmas and once before last year has really left me screwed up,I have a diagnosis of ADD,Aspergers and Dyspraxia from 2007. My GP also diagnosed depression last year.

This lady last year said I was putting on an act,then in January I may have some problems but none of the above then three weeks ago I now have emotional problems according to her. She is a senior doctor is a Psychological hospital and runs a clinic in my local health center. She wont refer me to a specialist for a second opinion,neither will my GP.

I am due to see this woman again in two weeks and am dreading it as the last three time I have seen her it has made me do stupid things to myself afterwards.

Millicent

RobbingBandit wrote: »

Stopped taking my meds last week and tried to do something I shouldn't have twice,don't really feel to happy being on them any way. Psychologist I have seen twice since christmas and once before last year has really left me screwed up,I have a diagnosis of ADD,Aspergers and Dyspraxia from 2007. My GP also diagnosed depression last year.

This lady last year said I was putting on an act,then in January I may have some problems but none of the above then three weeks ago I now have emotional problems according to her. She is a senior doctor is a Psychological hospital and runs a clinic in my local health center. She wont refer me to a specialist for a second opinion,neither will my GP.

I am due to see this woman again in two weeks and am dreading it as the last three time I have seen her it has made me do stupid things to myself afterwards.

That is absolutely ridiculous and tbh, when you're feeling a bit better, I think you should put a complaint into the relevant bodies about this treatment. It's unacceptable.

I can't find any info on whether there is a legally defined or enshrined right to a second opinion in Ireland but there are ways around everything. Are there any other GPs in the surgery who you could make an appointment with instead? One who may be more receptive to you, the patient (I know, what a crazy idea...)?

I am really sorry you are not being respected and I hope you can find some solace soon. Until then, you've got a load of people here ready to support you and who have understand what you are going through. ((hug))

RobbingBandit

Millicent wrote: »

That is absolutely ridiculous and tbh, when you're feeling a bit better, I think you should put a complaint into the relevant bodies about this treatment. It's unacceptable.

I can't find any info on whether there is a legally defined or enshrined right to a second opinion in Ireland but there are ways around everything. Are there any other GPs in the surgery who you could make an appointment with instead? One who may be more receptive to you, the patient (I know, what a crazy idea...)?

I am really sorry you are not being respected and I hope you can find some solace soon. Until then, you've got a load of people here ready to support you and who have understand what you are going through. ((hug))

My GP is more worried about me as I am a diabetic and don't take my pills for this all the time,there isn't really anyone she can refer me to but the other one is just nasty.

Thanks for the kind words.

More feelings of apathy here - I just feel like doing nothing. It happens so much to me.

cloud493

I feel like, I'm at the rather interesting point, of just not caring. What happens either way. Like if I let the despair in, and did something regrettable that I couldn't come back from, that would be ok. And the only reason why I'm being so cheerful, and flippant, is because I'm so absolutely terrified of these feelings.