Anxiety and/or depression discussion.

greenfrogs

I used always feel a bit odd for not enjoying those type of events. I much prefer being at home watching a film.

Gremlinertia

You're far from it Green, the one thing that really helps me with this thread is that so many of us have so much in common.. I'd like to wander out for a pint, but i can't do it.. Stay home with my dog and tea.

mg1982

Part of me would like to be able to go out and socialise but i know i would be a paranoid anxious wreck so it would be awful.

greenfrogs

Yah I would like to be more comfortable in various social situations. I'm heading out this weekend but I'm already anxious about it. I hope therapy will make me less anxious as I really need to widen my social circle.

Gremlinertia

My chest is all sorts of tight now. Damn it..

greenfrogs

Gremlinertia wrote: »

My chest is all sorts of tight now. Damn it..

I hope it passes soon. Sounds painful. :-/

Gremlinertia

It's the snowball effect, got anxious, chest tightened, worried about chest tightening, it tightened further. Stupid way this works.

greenfrogs

Yah it seems everything goes in circles sometimes.

I'm feeling quite positive today. I have planned some holidays for the summer. It may end up not happening due to lack of funds but hopefully I'll get even a weekend break.

It's been a very tough year. Sometimes I can't believe that I still have such a long road to recovery but I feel that I have made huge progress in terms of my overall mental health. Its so strange how I spent years walking around with these issues. It has come as a relief to be diagnosed with some sort of social anxiety. I do crave friendships but lack the ability to maintain normal friendships. I really hope my next counselling session is as positive as my previous session. I really want to see improvements.

mg1982

Gremlinertia wrote: »

It's the snowball effect, got anxious, chest tightened, worried about chest tightening, it tightened further. Stupid way this works.

Its a horrible feeling that, its a vicious circle too as being unable to catch a breathe raises anxiety levels. hope it passes soon.

onethreefive

Does anyone else feel sort of panicked at night? if thats the right word. Like breathing feels a little bit different and faster? Not every night though.

Gremlinertia

onethreefive wrote: »

Does anyone else feel sort of panicked at night? if thats the right word. Like breathing feels a little bit different and faster? Not every night though.

Not necessarily just at night, but i get that often enough, have it right now as it happens, and i make it worse thinking about it, but i can't not think about it.. I try to use mental tricks, like setting my focus on my toes and working on awareness of other parts of my body..

TL;DR Yup, me too, you're not alone.

The Wallflower

Am feeling really down tonight. A lot is linked to loneliness. Would love a girlfriend as I have never had one, never even had a kiss. It can just be so hard at times.

Gremlinertia

Hey Wallflower, i get ya, despite the fact i'd hate to be out in the mess tonight, i wish someone had asked me to.. So am very lonely, really getting me down..

greenfrogs

Loneliness seems to be kinda common amongst us. For me I crave friends and to be in a relationship. I have to believe that it will happen. I find distraction is the best 'cure' for feeling lonely. But I have been in such a lonely headspace so often. It really brings the mood down.

The Wallflower

I do feel a relationship would make me feel better as I just want a woman to hold to spend time with

mg1982

Some nights i do get panicky allright and i can get very paranoid too like im afraid people are going to break into the house. It can get weird.

Gremlinertia

I haven't thought as far as a relationship, i think i need to do a lot with me first. Plus since i've entered a year's worth of a programme, i won't have much time..

greenfrogs

The Wallflower wrote: »

I do feel a relationship would make me feel better as I just want a woman to hold to spend time with

Try not to put pressure on yourself. Your time will come. Also I have found myself in the past thinking oh if I had more friends or a boyfriend I would be happier. However for me my mental health issues impact more on my life than not having the above. So for me I know I have to focus on getting better and the friends/relationship will follow.

Call Me Jimmy

Aye a recent addition to my repertoire is -> thinking for a moment about my body -> worry I'm gonna die -> repeat.

It just seems so fragile (life that is). Just watching a world war 2 series and people getting blown up, the pain terrifies me. What terrifies me most is it is a matter of time, a definite thing that I'll have that terminal pain. It's probably because I've completely stopped going out and am probably cracking up a bit, but I can't get past the fact that that pain is ahead of me.

The Wallflower

greenfrogs wrote: »

Try not to put pressure on yourself. Your time will come. Also I have found myself in the past thinking oh if I had more friends or a boyfriend I would be happier. However for me my mental health issues impact more on my life than not having the above. So for me I know I have to focus on getting better and the friends/relationship will follow.

My problem at the moment is panicky feelings.
I am 21, never had sex, never kissed a girl and never even cuddled a girl.
I find myself craving female affection.

greenfrogs

Gremlinertia wrote: »

I haven't thought as far as a relationship, i think i need to do a lot with me first. Plus since i've entered a year's worth of a programme, i won't have much time..

When I think about a relationship I don't mean right now. More of in a 6 or 12 month timeframe. I also need a lot of me time. Relationships are overrated I think. I'd much rather have a group of good friends around me.

Gremlinertia

I'm being me specific, everyone's situation varies.. I wish you all well..

greenfrogs

The Wallflower wrote: »

My problem at the moment is panicky feelings.
I am 21, never had sex, never kissed a girl and never even cuddled a girl.
I find myself craving female affection.

Have you talked to anyone, a friend or GP about the panicky feelings?
I know this probably won't help you but you are not alone. There are many people out there who have not kissed someone. It doesn't make you any less of a man.

I find myself craving male attention at times. And I also look at couples and feel jealous. I think that's normal.

The Wallflower

greenfrogs wrote: »

Have you talked to anyone, a friend or GP about the panicky feelings?
I know this probably won't help you but you are not alone. There are many people out there who have not kissed someone. It doesn't make you any less of a man.

I find myself craving male attention at times. And I also look at couples and feel jealous. I think that's normal.

Im on meds for anxiety so it's nothing new. I feel even a kiss would make me feel better but sure I dunno.

Gremlinertia

I too get jealous of couples at times, it's unfair of me but it still happens. I'm just trying to trust in the treatment i'm getting for now.

greenfrogs

Gremlinertia wrote: »

I'm being me specific, everyone's situation varies.. I wish you all well..

Yah that's true everyone does vary. With me my issues kinda prevent me from being in a relationship as I can get very intense. I'm just very aware of the fact that for me relationships haven't worked out due to my issues in the past. I think for me you have to be in the right headspace to be in a relationship. If you are depressed or anxious then being in a relationship won't make you happy. That's just my experience though.

greenfrogs

Gremlinertia wrote: »

I too get jealous of couples at times, it's unfair of me but it still happens. I'm just trying to trust in the treatment i'm getting for now.

Same here. I trust my treatment atm anyway. I know my emotions are all over the place. I just need to regulate and manage them better.
I don't it's unfair of you. It's hard when I see people I went to school with getting engaged, married, having children and building houses. It seems they are moving on with life yet I'm stuck here as an eternal child.

mg1982

greenfrogs wrote: »

Same here. I trust my treatment atm anyway. I know my emotions are all over the place. I just need to regulate and manage them better.
I don't it's unfair of you. It's hard when I see people I went to school with getting engaged, married, having children and building houses. It seems they are moving on with life yet I'm stuck here as an eternal child.

I can totally relate to that gf. Most of my friends from school days are living in there own homes and married with kids while i feel like im stuck in a time warp. It does sadden me and brings up jealous emotions but im trying to get into a headspace of being happy for them and to wish them well. I guess all our journeys through life wont be the same.

heyday30

Can someone please come glue my mouth together.
Major binge the last hour.
It's done I suppose I can't undo it.

Nothing edible left in house now ;(

That's the one thing personally I find so difficult the overeating. being overweight.

I some how think that if I was skinny/ thin, than this anxiety/depression loop thing would be easier to deal with. Which is not true I know.

Euphoria Intensifies

I'm being let out. Thankful that my consultant is a fan of community based care over hospital based where possible. So back to the day hospital/home care team I go. Thanks again guys. This is such a lovely supportive thread. Hugs to you all.