Anxiety and/or depression discussion.

Gremlinertia

Whatismyname, it's difficult to box it up but practice is helping for me anyway.. And if I had a euro for every time someone told me to "stop saying sorry" I most definitely wouldn't be stuck at work right now! Take care of yourself..

Heyday, how long have you left on medication for your chest? Being physically ill always drags my mood to a down and erratic place, hope it's over soon..

Scrim, tbh I'm struggling like mad here too. It's a big workload I've taken on and I'm a bit scared at times and others I'm just outright terrified. Welcome to the big ship LE messedup :pac: usually though there's always that sliver of belief that it can be better, will be better..

heyday30

Gremlinertia wrote: »

Whatismyname, it's difficult to box it up but practice is helping for me anyway.. And if I had a euro for every time someone told me to "stop saying sorry" I most definitely wouldn't be stuck at work right now! Take care of yourself..

Heyday, how long have you left on medication for your chest? Being physically ill always drags my mood to a down and erratic place, hope it's over soon..

Scrim, tbh I'm struggling like mad here too. It's a big workload I've taken on and I'm a bit scared at times and others I'm just outright terrified. Welcome to the big ship LE messedup :pac: usually though there's always that sliver of belief that it can be better, will be better..

Another week grem.

I really admire you being able to work like that .

Gremlinertia

Nothing admirable here Heyday, I create and fall into my own traps, sabotage and criticise myself just like a lot on thread would. We just have different baskets.

Gremlinertia

Battling not to sink a bit here.. Working on tactics from course but very little to work with thus far and practice needed too. Just feeling a bit miserable and not in form for anything especially dbt group work.. I know I'll feel better later but just ugh and fcuk this.. Already shaky with nerves..

stinkle

Gremlinertia wrote: »

Battling not to sink a bit here.. Working on tactics from course but very little to work with thus far and practice needed too. Just feeling a bit miserable and not in form for anything especially dbt group work.. I know I'll feel better later but just ugh and fcuk this.. Already shaky with nerves..

Hey G. Great that you know youll feel better later. Its alright if youre not in form, we cantbalways be all the time. Do you feel like you can talk about it at group work?

Gremlinertia

stinkle wrote: »

Hey G. Great that you know youll feel better later. Its alright if youre not in form, we cantbalways be all the time. Do you feel like you can talk about it at group work?

I'm bloody pinning my hopes on it being true.. Nah won't say anything..

stinkle

Gremlinertia wrote: »

I'm bloody pinning my hopes on it being true.. Nah won't say anything..

Have you been like this before other sessions? Hopefully the reality later will be better than the thought of it

Gremlinertia

Don't think it's course related tbh. Just general stress/anxiety and my brain trying to ruminate on stuff. How are you doing now?

stinkle

Gremlinertia wrote: »

Don't think it's course related tbh. Just general stress/anxiety and my brain trying to ruminate on stuff. How are you doing now?

Doing ok thanks, few ups and downs but I keep telling myself its just thoughts and try not to get carried away by them. Trying to be healthier too but stomach issues this week aren't helping. Did a lot of travelling recently si am off kilter, and just tell myself its ok to take time to settle again. I had a big blip and in hindsight should have noticed the signs.

Rumination is a scourge, but it's easier said than done to break that cycle.

scrimshanker

Grem I wish I had something useful to say to you. Sorry I haven't, but I hope you get a break from the ruminations.

Not going in today. Just not possible

Gremlinertia

I'm just waiting to head for hospital now for group. Got spray for my neck muscles at home so hope that helps. Hope today is ok for you. Try do something nice for yourself..

Kimbot

whatismyname wrote: »

Sometimes yes.

But I think it's intensifying things. When it's beyond what feels safe. What escalates it, and just breaks my heart.

When I have to be ok tomorrow. Have to be for many reasons. And the more i cry the more I feel that I've falling apart, the more the pain is literally unberable, the more I think I can't stand the pain so have to die. Not there yet, but I know how my stupid mind works, and really want to find a way to calm for now.

I'm really, really sorry.

So sorry to hear your going through the wars at the moment. If its something in your life that you cant directly control then the best thing you can do is put it to the back of your mind and let it run its own course, it will eventually work out for you. Crying is a great way of letting it out but I would advise talking to someone aswell when your feeling like that as it will help massivley.

scrimshanker

And the guilt of not going in sets in Bit upset, normally if I'm not in I get a text asking if I'm okay. No text today Must have pushed everyone away a bit much. They no longer care. And the poor cat had to wait an extra 4 hours for her breakfast. Awful person

Kimbot

scrimshanker wrote: »

And the guilt of not going in sets in Bit upset, normally if I'm not in I get a text asking if I'm okay. No text today Must have pushed everyone away a bit much. They no longer care. And the poor cat had to wait an extra 4 hours for her breakfast. Awful person

Your not an awful person your just going through a rough time of it at the moment, dont worry things will get easier.

scrimshanker

I actually really hate myself. I just don't understand why I can't behave like a normal person.

Kimbot

scrimshanker wrote: »

I actually really hate myself. I just don't understand why I can't behave like a normal person.

Scrim, you are a normal person. Your mind is just messing you about. You have to start trying to take control of it, I know thats hard but you have to do it.

Euphoria Intensifies

scrimshanker wrote:

And the guilt of not going in sets in Bit upset, normally if I'm not in I get a text asking if I'm okay. No text today Must have pushed everyone away a bit much. They no longer care. And the poor cat had to wait an extra 4 hours for her breakfast. Awful person

You're not an awful person. Sometimes you just need a duvet day to recharge. College is tough, going through it myself at the minute and really struggling too. Don't worry about the others - they might be stressed themselves and just not gotten round to texting. Do something nice for yourself today scrim, you deserve it. You're worth it.

I have to spend time with someone who is really anxious today, and it has really triggered me, so now I'm super anxious just trying to take some time to myself now. When I'm unwell my boundaries are extremely **** so anything like this sends me mad.

spudger1

Euphoria Intensifies wrote: »

I have to spend time with someone who is really anxious today, and it has really triggered me, so now I'm super anxious just trying to take some time to myself now. When I'm unwell my boundaries are extremely **** so anything like this sends me mad.

For what it's worth, i'm experiencing a bit of that these days too. There's a few things i'm juggling at the mo, and then throw into the mix someone who has a hair trigger temper these days... Trying to tip-toe around them, but sometimes it's very difficult.

I hope the situation didn't have you under too much pressure today EI.

Hugo Stiglitz

I really hate to hear that some of ye are having a rough time there today. I hope it passes for ye soon.

mg1982

scrimshanker wrote: »

I actually really hate myself. I just don't understand why I can't behave like a normal person.

I ask myself that question all the time scrim. Trouble is I can never come up with an answer. It's just the way life goes sometimes. There's no rhyme or reason to it. Just understand your great to be going to college and trying to better your life. That takes a lot of courage.

spudger1

Kinda general question, but please humour me:


For those of you who became reclusive/shut ins, but took action, what did you do?


I've become very isolated in the last while... some people are twisting my arm to 'get out', but i don't even know where to start.

Roquentin

spudger1 wrote: »

Kinda general question, but please humour me:


For those of you who became reclusive/shut ins, but took action, what did you do?


I've become very isolated in the last while... some people are twisting my arm to 'get out', but i don't even know where to start.

i embraced my loneliness and myself.

Hugo Stiglitz

spudger1 wrote: »

Kinda general question, but please humour me:


For those of you who became reclusive/shut ins, but took action, what did you do?


I've become very isolated in the last while... some people are twisting my arm to 'get out', but i don't even know where to start.

I wouldn't mind finding that out too Spudger.

Apart from going to work and Tesco, I'm basically a recluse. I've has bouts of proper reclusiveness in the past that was treated with medication and patience - this got me to where I am now, the "best" I've ever been in this regard. It's the final social hurdle that can't face up to. The world seems like a vast horde that I just can't face alone.

mg1982

spudger1 wrote: »

Kinda general question, but please humour me:


For those of you who became reclusive/shut ins, but took action, what did you do?


I've become very isolated in the last while... some people are twisting my arm to 'get out', but i don't even know where to start.

I try to fight it as much as I can but it's just work and home really. Rarely if ever socialise as I find it very uncomfortable. Meds might help though and confidence is vital too.

heyday30

Scary thing is I've become ok with being reclusive.
I actually think I'm just introvert. For as long as I remember I've hated crowds or even company of one or two people for long periods Of time. I find it draining.

Kayleigh..

Feel crazy

greenfrogs

I know this is unrelated to depression and anxiety. Still feel absolutely terrible from this vomiting bug. I'm such a poor patient. I'm rarely physically sick. I pity those who have bad physical side effects from anxiety etc. I feel like death.

scrimshanker

greenfrogs that must be dragging you down an awful lot. It's REALLY tough when you feel physically sick or are in pain. I find it next to impossible to focus on my mental health when I'm in a lot of pain or feeling physically unwell. Look after yourself, plenty of fluids. If you can, try to have fresh PJs in the evening so you feel cool and fresh going to sleep. Hope this passes for you soon.

JustTheOne

Sorry to hear a few aren't doing great, please hang in there, people love and care about you.

heyday30

greenfrogs wrote: »

I know this is unrelated to depression and anxiety. Still feel absolutely terrible from this vomiting bug. I'm such a poor patient. I'm rarely physically sick. I pity those who have bad physical side effects from anxiety etc. I feel like death.

I know how you feel gf. Been ill for a while now. Hard to stay positive when your physically and mentally drained.