Anxiety and/or depression discussion.

YFlyer

Gremlinertia wrote: »

Hi YFlyer, I think most people on thread have tried and are trying some form of meditation or mindfulness however the very nature of depression and anxiety make it difficult to concentrate on the practice as it were.. In my own experience I've been practicing for four months now and when low mood or panic hits it's still a matter of trying to minimise negativity for the most part.. Hoping to find it easier in time though.. Rough night at work not helping here, mind very scattered indeed..

I'm not aware of other techniques. However, TM is very simply and effortless to do. People with anxiety, depression, different mental illnesses and PTSD frind it extremely beneficial.

mg1982

YFlyer wrote: »

You can't learn TM from online. Only from a qualified trained TM teacher. There are a number of them around Ireland.

Thats what i heard too. The nearest one to me is in galway and im in sligo going by the TM website. Im not sure how pricely the classes are. But i have heard wonderful things about TM.

freudiangirl

Didn't see consultant today. Anxiety started once his name was mentioned so couldn't go see him without anxiety coming back. Will probably have to see him tomorrow.
Thoughts of it.

Still quite anxious and wrecked especially after dbt.

timecurve12

I keep going up and down in mood the whole time. I guess it's better than feeling really depressed all the time. I feel really scared because I don't think things are going to get better. I'm trying to improve things, applying for jobs, doing a degree, but I don't think it's going to work. Society just views me as a scrounger. I can't get a job, I don't think I'll be able to get one, there's too much competition. I really want to work, but my anxiety got in the way for years, and it still does, and now it's too late. I'm not really someone who regrets things but I'm looking back at all the little chances I had in the past that I never took. How things could have been different if only... (I know, there's literally no point, it's a waste of energy ruminating on this)

I guess I'm a loser, that's how others would view me. Truthfully I'm actually a hard working and honest person but because of ****ing up in the past that means nothing now. I'm finding it hard to enjoy things day to day, because I'm worrying all the time, or thinking I'm such a loser, I don't deserve this. I'm really stuck right now, and I don't see a way out. Sorry for rambling.

heyday30

mg1982 wrote: »

Took some diazepam tonight. The last few weeks the anxiety has been building and building and i can barely function now with it. Might call my community mental health nurse to discuss what are my options. I have Lyrica in mind as it worked well before.

Sorry to hear mg. lyrica is good. Don't suffer needlessly

heyday30

timecurve12 wrote: »

I keep going up and down in mood the whole time. I guess it's better than feeling really depressed all the time. I feel really scared because I don't think things are going to get better. I'm trying to improve things, applying for jobs, doing a degree, but I don't think it's going to work. Society just views me as a scrounger. I can't get a job, I don't think I'll be able to get one, there's too much competition. I really want to work, but my anxiety got in the way for years, and it still does, and now it's too late. I'm not really someone who regrets things but I'm looking back at all the little chances I had in the past that I never took. How things could have been different if only... (I know, there's literally no point, it's a waste of energy ruminating on this)

I guess I'm a loser, that's how others would view me. Truthfully I'm actually a hard working and honest person but because of ****ing up in the past that means nothing now. I'm finding it hard to enjoy things day to day, because I'm worrying all the time, or thinking I'm such a loser, I don't deserve this. I'm really stuck right now, and I don't see a way out. Sorry for rambling.

Hi timecurve.
Sorry your going through a bad time.

Have you any support? Family or doctor?

Your far from rambling. We all vent here and you're most welcome.

timecurve12

heyday30 wrote: »

Hi timecurve.
Sorry your going through a bad time.

Have you any support? Family or doctor?

Your far from rambling. We all vent here and you're most welcome.

Thank you for your reply heyday. I have friends and family but I don't talk to them about my feelings tbh. I don't think there's much point and I don't want to worry them. Whenever I express that I'm unhappy I'm told that I need to do this, or do that. It's just like, I'm trying, but it's never enough. I am going to start counselling soon so hopefully that will help.

greenfrogs

timecurve12 wrote: »

I keep going up and down in mood the whole time. I guess it's better than feeling really depressed all the time. I feel really scared because I don't think things are going to get better. I'm trying to improve things, applying for jobs, doing a degree, but I don't think it's going to work. Society just views me as a scrounger. I can't get a job, I don't think I'll be able to get one, there's too much competition. I really want to work, but my anxiety got in the way for years, and it still does, and now it's too late. I'm not really someone who regrets things but I'm looking back at all the little chances I had in the past that I never took. How things could have been different if only... (I know, there's literally no point, it's a waste of energy ruminating on this)

I guess I'm a loser, that's how others would view me. Truthfully I'm actually a hard working and honest person but because of ****ing up in the past that means nothing now. I'm finding it hard to enjoy things day to day, because I'm worrying all the time, or thinking I'm such a loser, I don't deserve this. I'm really stuck right now, and I don't see a way out. Sorry for rambling.

I can totally relate to this timecurve. I, at times feel like a scrounger as well. In the past, all I used do was focus on my failures and shortcomings. It really drags your mood and energy levels down. Every single day I used to think I was a loser and stupid.

Now, I am applying for jobs on the ce scheme. Sometimes it occurs to me that the government literally as to pay someone to hire me. But, at least I am trying. For me it is a step forward. My ultimate dream is to land a full time job in the area I want to work in and be good at that. I'm very slowly getting there but I am trying.

Other people may look at me as a scrouger but, I know I hard I am trying to gain control of my life. Give yourself a break . You will get through this.

carzony

greenfrogs wrote: »

I can totally relate to this timecurve. I, at times feel like a scrounger as well. In the past, all I used do was focus on my failures and shortcomings. It really drags your mood and energy levels down. Every single day I used to think I was a loser and stupid.

Now, I am applying for jobs on the ce scheme. Sometimes it occurs to me that the government literally as to pay someone to hire me. But, at least I am trying.

No need to feel bad about it a huge % of the country is the same. Literally thousands of people are on similar schemes hoping to get a job, least your not alone there Sign of the times and it'll be a while before ''real jobs'' return:(

Maybe it's just where i'm living but most people I know are unemployed and anyone I know working is seriously struggling financially..

I find it amazing looking at the news to be told that were are back in celtic tiger territory??:eek: :eek:

Iseedeadpixels

First session done this morning, was very formal just laying out how we will proceed, Im looking forward to the rest now as she mentioned her son has a similar health issue to me so she really can relate.

greenfrogs

carzony wrote: »

No need to feel bad about it a huge % of the country is the same. Literally thousands of people are on similar schemes hoping to get a job, least your not alone there Sign of the times and it'll be a while before ''real jobs'' return:(

Maybe it's just where i'm living but most people I know are unemployed and anyone I know working is seriously struggling financially..

I find it amazing looking at the news to be told that were are back in celtic tiger territory??:eek: :eek:

Yah that's true. It can be annoying hearing that things are picking up. I know a few people who are unemployed. It is demoralising but, it won't be forever. Thanks for your reply. I suppose I should count myself lucky that there are such schemes in place.

Foggy.nelson

greenfrogs wrote: »

Yah that's true. It can be annoying hearing that things are picking up. I know a few people who are unemployed. It is demoralising but, it won't be forever. Thanks for your reply. I suppose I should count myself lucky that there are such schemes in place.

The only advice I can give you is do as many courses as you can through fas/solas. I did ones that were related to my field that really were a load of crap but have helped me now that I back working. More so in interviews talking about them and not having gaps on my cv rather than actually been been beneficial to me

Diamond Doll

I was told in hospital lately that I come across as a very resilient person.

You know what? She was sure as hell right.

Yeah I've been through of a hell of a lot. In the last two years, I've gone through a difficult pregnancy. Did professional exams at seven months pregnant (and kicked ass.) Moved house at eight months pregnant. Gone through a horrendous birth, from which I suffered PTSD. Suffered post-natal depression, post-natal panic disorder, post-natal anxiety, even post-natal psychosis (that's the really scary one) ... all of which have been only diagnosed recently, following an ectopic pregnancy and subsequent medical abortion as my life was in danger.

And now my boyfriend has left me, taking the baby with him.

And yet I'm alive and kicking and ready to kick absolute ass and do everything it takes to get back to work and to get my baby back with me.

He's shot me a cheap blow by kicking me in the face when I was at the lowest possible point imaginable.

But maybe in an odd way he's done me the biggest favour by reminding me of just how STRONG I can be!

I'm a little bit awesome. Yeah I have had my mental health struggles, but I've come out fighting. And ready to take on the world.

Foggy.nelson

This little piggy wrote: »

I was told in hospital lately that I come across as a very resilient person.

You know what? She was sure as hell right.

Yeah I've been through of a hell of a lot. In the last two years, I've gone through a difficult pregnancy. Did professional exams at seven months pregnant (and kicked ass.) Moved house at eight months pregnant. Gone through a horrendous birth, from which I suffered PTSD. Suffered post-natal depression, post-natal panic disorder, post-natal anxiety, even post-natal psychosis (that's the really scary one) ... all of which have been only diagnosed recently, following an ectopic pregnancy and subsequent medical abortion as my life was in danger.

And now my boyfriend has left me, taking the baby with him.

And yet I'm alive and kicking and ready to kick absolute ass and do everything it takes to get back to work and to get my baby back with me.

He's shot me a cheap blow by kicking me in the face when I was at the lowest possible point imaginable.

But maybe in an odd way he's done me the biggest favour by reminding me of just how STRONG I can be!

I'm a little bit awesome. Yeah I have had my mental health struggles, but I've come out fighting. And ready to take on the world.

Wow.. well thus has made my Friday, hell my weekend.. I could feel negative taughts coming back into my thinking over thinking about a certain person and just generally finishing work and staying in bed till Monday. But after reading that no I'm in a new city and I'm gonna enjoy it, socialise and have a good time. Everything you said is right you do kick ass... and then some. Well done and thanks for inspiring me to get out of my low patch

Diamond Doll

I just haven't given myself enough credit. I've spent too long feeling sorry for myself, and too long beating myself up about feeling that way.

I guess I just needed to actually see it, that it actually WAS a really tough awful time, especially as it was all untreated, even though I sought medical advice again and again at the time.

And I can and will get better, I absolutely will.

My ex was a very unforgiving person. He dragged me down so low for so long. I feel like a burden has lifted now that he's gone, I really do. I'm free now to live my life again. With my son, who I've adored from the first day. It's a short-term battle to get him back to me, but at least I can see it now as the short-term battle it is, and not as an overwhelming source of anxiety.

scrimshanker

I'm so tired lately. So so tired. I'm sick of this. I can't wake up before 1pm properly and I'm drowsy all day...

alaskayoung

I am so so depressed. There's no reason, no explanation, I just am. There's nothing even left to say anymore. I wish I'd died earlier this year. I'm so fxcking tired of living like this.

scrimshanker

alaskayoung wrote: »

I am so so depressed. There's no reason, no explanation, I just am. There's nothing even left to say anymore. I wish I'd died earlier this year. I'm so fxcking tired of living like this.

Hang in there AY. It makes no sense at all, of course there's no reason, it's not logical, it's not based in reason. We're right there with you. *hugs*

Eventually you'll beat this. It isn't you, it's an illness.

greenfrogs

True, there is no sense in any of this. Very bored the last few days. Can't do much because I'm resting. My mood hasn't plumentated though which is good.

Hugo Stiglitz

scrimshanker wrote: »

I'm so tired lately. So so tired. I'm sick of this. I can't wake up before 1pm properly and I'm drowsy all day...

alaskayoung wrote: »

I am so so depressed. There's no reason, no explanation, I just am. There's nothing even left to say anymore. I wish I'd died earlier this year. I'm so fxcking tired of living like this.

Hugs to the pair of ye.

Roquentin

http://www.independent.ie/editorial/StoryPlus/Mental-health-and-wellness-tips-the-little-things-count.html

fr336

Anxiety making my eyes all sensitive and the sun's just been glaring into them all day Even through the blinds..it just glares in from the sides. Awful and worried I'm damaging my eyes

Diamond Doll

So eh ... I'm back in the dating game.

And ... I've met someone.

He's a single dad himself to a little girl. Who shares my name. Like he said, the four of us are a ready-made little family. With maybe more to add.

It's not ideal, I mean clearly I'm still in turmoil over the break-up. But I'm 110% over my ex. Yes, I move on fast. I didn't expect to meet someone I like so much so soon. But it's nice.

There's hope for us all!

timecurve12

greenfrogs wrote: »

I can totally relate to this timecurve. I, at times feel like a scrounger as well. In the past, all I used do was focus on my failures and shortcomings. It really drags your mood and energy levels down. Every single day I used to think I was a loser and stupid.

Now, I am applying for jobs on the ce scheme. Sometimes it occurs to me that the government literally as to pay someone to hire me. But, at least I am trying. For me it is a step forward. My ultimate dream is to land a full time job in the area I want to work in and be good at that. I'm very slowly getting there but I am trying.

Other people may look at me as a scrouger but, I know I hard I am trying to gain control of my life. Give yourself a break . You will get through this.

Yes that's how I feel, a loser and stupid. Good luck on the CE scheme, I think it sounds like a great step for you to take. At least you have a goal and know it's for you, more that a lot of people Thanks for your encouragement, it's just I see everyone around me doing really well, landing jobs no problem. It's funny what Carzony said, that most of the people he knows are unemployed, it's the opposite for me. It just affects me that I keep getting turned down. I don't know what to do... there's one thing I would actually love to do but have no idea how to break into that area, with no experience. I just feel like such a failure, all the time. Like I can't do what everyone else finds so easy.

Did anyone read that thread over on PI about the person with social anxiety? It kind of got me down, so many people who don't accept it as a real condition

mg1982

This little piggy wrote: »

So eh ... I'm back in the dating game.

And ... I've met someone.

He's a single dad himself to a little girl. Who shares my name. Like he said, the four of us are a ready-made little family. With maybe more to add.

It's not ideal, I mean clearly I'm still in turmoil over the break-up. But I'm 110% over my ex. Yes, I move on fast. I didn't expect to meet someone I like so much so soon. But it's nice.

There's hope for us all!

Glad to hear you feeling better. Things seem to be moving fast there with you. Just be careful and take things slow.

alaskayoung

I always think to myself that I'd love a group of close friends but then I never do anything to maintain the friendships I do have.

Hugo Stiglitz

alaskayoung wrote: »

I always think to myself that I'd love a group of close friends but then I never do anything to maintain the friendships I do have.

Same here Alaska. It's always been a problem for me. You?

Roquentin

alaskayoung wrote: »

I always think to myself that I'd love a group of close friends but then I never do anything to maintain the friendships I do have.

an error people make is that they dream of this "good life," you know where they have friends, partners, families and a good job. When we are dreaming we never take into account how stressful these things really are. We only see the good times. Friendship, dating and jobs can reward but they also carry a lot of uncertainty.

People automatically think as well that once they obtain these things that they will become happy. They say friendship and a good job should make them happy. Again its not guaranteed. Thus when people who achieve these things are left unhappy, they wonder what is going wrong.

One has to take into account that the world is unpredictable. the dream life is often just an illusion. "life is great but living is painful" said hunter s thompson. One has to make do with who they are and what they have.

mg1982

alaskayoung wrote: »

I always think to myself that I'd love a group of close friends but then I never do anything to maintain the friendships I do have.

I just seemed to lose interest in making friends a good many years ago. It no longer interests me even though in an ideal world it would be nice thing to have. As roquentin said being around people is very stressfull. I guess im your classic loner.

greenfrogs

Yah I agree people are stressful. I find myself able to relate to people more recently. I find myself slowly building friendships which suits me. Still a bit of a loner though. I like my alone time.