Anxiety and/or depression discussion.

fiftythree

handbagmad

^^^^
Nice 53, nice

fiftythree

handbagmad wrote: »

^^^^
Nice 53, nice

just been listenin to music tonight.
love music.

handbagmad

fiftythree wrote: »

just been listenin to music tonight.
love music.

love my music too, great way to escape for a few hours.

Tequila Sunrise another eagles favourite,

fiftythree

handbagmad wrote: »

^^^^
Nice 53, nice

you ok tonight handbag?

fiftythree

handbagmad wrote: »

love my music too, great way to escape for a few hours.

Tequila Sunrise another eagles favourite,

victim of love....

some playing on that track.
dammit i wish i had a guitar now.
really feel like making music right now.

handbagmad

fiftythree wrote: »

you ok tonight handbag?

I'm good ya. Slept a lot today so wide awake now.

how are you?

Ps U might not have a guitar but u can always air guitar

fiftythree

handbagmad wrote: »

love my music too, great way to escape for a few hours.

Tequila Sunrise another eagles favourite,

may not be your thing but i absolutely love this intrumental...

it just flows, and stalls when it needs to stall.
hard to describe music in words.
got a beachy/california vibe about but it's a bit city too if you get me.
really chugs along nicely.

fiftythree

handbagmad wrote: »

I'm good ya. Slept a lot today so wide awake now.

how are you?

Ps U might not have a guitar but u can always air guitar

ok are you on a night ryhthm?
oh god i wouldn't be into the air guitar at all.
music makes me cry and laugh.
get all emotional listening to sounds.

fiftythree

just on a bit of a retro trip tonight, apologies!!
need to get myself back into a band and playing i guess.
love the feeling of the bass bellowing out behind me and the snare kick.
god what have i done. have let so much life slip past me.
i want to make songs again.

if i could get this crippling anxiety thing under control
i'd be flying.

handbagmad

fiftythree wrote: »

may not be your thing but i absolutely love this intrumental...

it just flows, and stalls when it needs to stall.
hard to describe music in words.
got a beachy/california vibe about but it's a bit city too if you get me.
really chugs along nicely.

WoW I loved that, bluesy Motown feel to it..

fiftythree

handbagmad wrote: »

WoW I loved that, bluesy Motown feel to it..

great you liked it!!!
i love freddy king. not a lot of people know about him.
got lost in time for some reason.
his best stuff has no lyrics as i feel his guitar does the talking.
yeah i love all that soul/motown stuff.
been getting into the northern soul stuff that
was going on in NW England back in the day.
see above. or similar.
love music sooooo much!!!!:D

cookie24

hate when i wake up in the middle of the night and cant get back to sleep. will watch an episode of homeland, hopefully that'll do the trick

loveisdivine

This song came on the radio in work and made me think of everyone here

http://youtu.be/SybgWaQy7_c

cookie24

loveisdivine wrote: »

This song came on the radio in work and made me think of everyone here

http://youtu.be/SybgWaQy7_c

I need to stop thinking of tomorrow, and all those what-if scenarios. Just try focus on the now and enjoy it.
Easier said than done

loveisdivine

cookie24 wrote: »

I need to stop thinking of tomorrow, and all those what-if scenarios. Just try focus on the now and enjoy it.
Easier said than done

It never occured to me that it could be taken that way I always just thought it was a happy/motivating song.

cookie24

loveisdivine wrote: »

It never occured to me that it could be taken that way I always just thought it was a happy/motivating song.

dont mind me. everyone picks up different themes/mesages from music. Just for me that was the message I get, and its also part of the cause of my anxiety.
Still a great song though.

guitarzero

Has anyone been to a recovery meeting? It was founded by Abrahm Low and uses the CBT model. I've been to 3 meetings and I found it a bit weird, would love to hear others experiences.

cookie24

guitarzero wrote: »

Has anyone been to a recovery meeting? It was founded by Abrahm Low and uses the CBT model. I've been to 3 meetings and I found it a bit weird, would love to hear others experiences.

I looked into these but couldn't find any that were close to me and/or was for anxiety.
I'm slightly ashamed to admit it but for a while I was considering going to the local AA meetings just to get used to talking in front of people.

What was your experience like? How many people?

But I am on the look-out for something like public speaking coaching but for people with severe anxiety.

Any ideas?

fiftythree

cookie24 wrote: »

I looked into these but couldn't find any that were close to me and/or was for anxiety.
I'm slightly ashamed to admit it but for a while I was considering going to the local AA meetings just to get used to talking in front of people.

What was your experience like? How many people?

But I am on the look-out for something like public speaking coaching but for people with severe anxiety.

Any ideas?

that sounds like a decent idea to me, the AA meetings.
to get used to public speaking if you need to.
i haven't had to speak in public much but i am terrified of it.
it really does get a LOT easier after the first few times.
i would suggest maybe finding a group of some kind to join,
that wasn't specifically anxiety related. something you are interested in.
sporsts club/amateur dramatics/host a pub quiz/club or society if you are studying..
or if you have a real life friend who understands your situation you could build it up by starting with them, one person.
and build it up from there.

fiftythree

loveisdivine wrote: »

This song came on the radio in work and made me think of everyone here

http://youtu.be/SybgWaQy7_c

thanks listened to that and ended up listening to a bit of earlier mac..

just noticed for the first time the dangling balls on the rumours album cover:eek:

lot darker this one!
but i like it.

cookie24

fiftythree wrote: »

that sounds like a decent idea to me, the AA meetings.
to get used to public speaking if you need to.
i haven't had to speak in public much but i am terrified of it.
it really does get a LOT easier after the first few times.
i would suggest maybe finding a group of some kind to join,
that wasn't specifically anxiety related. something you are interested in.
sporsts club/amateur dramatics/host a pub quiz/club or society if you are studying..
or if you have a real life friend who understands your situation you could build it up by starting with them, one person.
and build it up from there.

I'm gonna have to find something that requires public speaking, if I dont overcome that before I get a job, I fear the anxiety will be too extreme to continue working....fear of meetings, presentations, etc.

On a side note....has anyone tried curcumin supplements for depression? Its a newly discovered component of turmeric. Research is in its infancy but the results are promising. You can buy curcumin supplements, so I was thinking of getting them.

Here's a link to a study, only the abstract is available.

http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/23035031

Call Me Jimmy

cookie24 wrote: »

I'm gonna have to find something that requires public speaking, if I dont overcome that before I get a job, I fear the anxiety will be too extreme to continue working....fear of meetings, presentations, etc.

On a side note....has anyone tried curcumin supplements for depression? Its a newly discovered component of turmeric. Research is in its infancy but the results are promising. You can buy curcumin supplements, so I was thinking of getting them.

Here's a link to a study, only the abstract is available.

http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/23035031

Toastmasters for the speaking? Never been but heard great things

fiftythree

cookie24 wrote: »

I'm gonna have to find something that requires public speaking, if I dont overcome that before I get a job, I fear the anxiety will be too extreme to continue working....fear of meetings, presentations, etc.

On a side note....has anyone tried curcumin supplements for depression? Its a newly discovered component of turmeric. Research is in its infancy but the results are promising. You can buy curcumin supplements, so I was thinking of getting them.

Here's a link to a study, only the abstract is available.

http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/23035031

might have a curry tonight cookie then
i really think the public speaking thing comes with practice.
try to think as you would were you an audience member as opposed
to the speaker. most of the audience don't even want to be there or are
wrapped up in their own lives and concerns.
good luck to you

loveisdivine

Just read this article on Tiny Buddha and found it really interesting. Hope its ok to link to it. "You're not broken, you're powerful beyond measure".

http://tinybuddha.com/blog/youre-not-broken/

Gongoozler

Before I forget, Jimmy, been wanting to say for a while I think you come off as a very nice, very smart genuine person, and when I read of your anxiety issues I feel really bad for you. It's like from the outside you can see that there's no reason someone should think such bad things, but they can't see it themselves. If that somehow comes off as an insult, I don't mean it to!

Anyway, I am feeling pretty tense this evening. Housemate really pissing me off, as she keeps eating my things. Amongst other issues. She comes off like she's nice and wouldn't harm a fly but I think it's all an act so that no one calls her on anything. Hard to explain.

Plus just had an argument with the woman I sit next to in work, through text. She's being an eejit, and I pretty much called her on it, and yet she came back with defensiveness. Tomorrow should be fun I'm going to try take my mind off things. It's so hard. Have jobs to look for and things to watch, so hopefully...

Call Me Jimmy

I very much appreciate that Gongoozler. I feel the same reading people's experiences here, we find it easier to feel that deep compassion when it's someone else. It's strange when you try to turn that compassion inwards and are met with resistance!

It sucks having to deal with the petty conflicts that you are atm but I just thought 'good on ye' for addressing the issues even if it causes discomfort in the present. It's a much better way to live than just pretending to be nice and having your boundaries close in.

@loveisdivine (don't know why i keep using the @symbol when addressing you)

The quote in that article has always rang true for me. It's a very odd feeling that I get sometimes that I'm almost afraid to wield any power at all, but I know its potentially there. Interesting link, keep em comin!

fiftythree

CZ 453 wrote: »

I have anxiety people- Lend me your ears. I have no idea where to purchase Call of Duty tonight? Where is the cheapest place to go?

On a side note. The amount of things I got done today was Trojan work to say the least.

well done today on getting stuff done:D
wouldn't know about where to get the game.
just go into town if you live near one i'd say.
happy gamings..

fiftythree

CZ 453 wrote: »

It very easily could have been a Netflix day.
I got up today and started by making the bed. I never make the bed. I like the bed the way it is. All messy. The missus would be nagging away about it. So i made it today. A wise decision. That's Christmas sorted for her

and new year:D
and her birthday:D
happy days

cookie24

CZ 453 wrote: »

I have anxiety people- Lend me your ears. I have no idea where to purchase Call of Duty tonight? Where is the cheapest place to go?

On a side note. The amount of things I got done today was Trojan work to say the least.

Unfortunately I dont know. Most places will do a midnight release. I got a copy today very luckily
there were early releases and i chanced my arm in gamestop. luckily there was a cancellation. relaxation tonight
best of luck with getting the game and more importantly, your anxiety