IVF Journey

Yellow diamond

Sara sorry to hear your news, I could imagine the emotions you are going through, I hope you are doing ok.

Sticky, I hope you get through the next few weeks ok, it won't be long coming around for you again.

Hollywood, fingers crossed, when are you due to test? I really am hoping you get good news!

I have my down reg scan in the morning, I just hope we can move forward to next step. I also hope the cyst on my ovary isn't after getting much bigger, it's the only one I have and unfortunately they can't remove cyst without taking the ovary too, that's game over for me then!

stickybean

Hope all went well today Yellow xxx

Yellow diamond

Had my down reg scan this morning! Unfortunately it did not go well. After four weeks on buserlin and two weeks on the pill, my uterus lining was lovely and thick and I had a nice big follicle! The nurse said my own cycle was still working away as normal. We are disappointed. My doc isn't back till Tuesday so meeting him that morning. She said to continue with the buserlin till then. I still have one vial left thank god!! Hope everyone else is doing ok.

stickybean

Aw I am sorry YH xxx

Yellow diamond

Thanks stickybean, just a small blip! Hopefully will have a better idea of what happens next, Tuesday! Hope you are doing ok, I know you have to wait a bit too....I suppose nothing is straight forward in this process!

TomeeTipee

Sara, so sorry to hear your news. Hope you are doing ok. I've done some counselling after failed ivf before and I did find it helpful, so hopefully you do too. I know its frustrating but I was told by so many doctors that the first round of ivf is really where they learn a lot about how you respond etc. Sometimes, on paper, they expect a certain response, but in reality things work differently so hopefully they will have learned a lot from this cycle and make some changes for when you try again. It is not always about making huge changes to a protocol, but usually there will be some things they were happy with and some things they were not. I see, for example, that your period arrived early, so maybe they will change your progesterone support. I've found some doctors are more willing than others to make changes and adjustments for each individual but some just stick with the same protocol over and over hoping for different results. Make sure that you are happy yourself that your doctor has learned from this cycle so that something positive will come out of your failed cycle. Wishing you all the best for round two xx

Yellow diamond, sorry to hear about your down reg scan. You must be so frustrated! Hopefully your consultant has some answers for you. I've tried 3 different protocols at this stage and none of them included down regulation, so there are lots of options if down regulation isn't for you, for whatever reason. All the delays and setbacks though are difficult to take so hopefully you can move forward soon.

Hollywood, best of luck with your upcoming test. I don't know how you've held out for so long! You've more patience than me anyway. Fingers crossed for a positive tomorrow.

Yellow diamond

Thanks tomee tipee, I got call back from the clinic today, they spoke to doc and he advised that I start on primolut this Sunday for a week....hopefully this will work.

Hope everyone is doing well, feeling ok and has a relaxing /stress free weekend.

saraj14

Thanks ladies for everything. This has been a fantastic support.
I really found the councellor great. I'm more postive, focused and happier after it.
I've also decided to change clinics. Decided to go with a new doctor, he is specialized in endo and ivf research. Thought about going one more round with my current clinic and moving if that failed. So thought to hell with it move now.
Hollywood i really hope you get good news.

Lucyfur

saraj14 wrote: »

Thanks ladies for everything. This has been a fantastic support.
I really found the councellor great. I'm more postive, focused and happier after it.
I've also decided to change clinics. Decided to go with a new doctor, he is specialized in endo and ivf research. Thought about going one more round with my current clinic and moving if that failed. So thought to hell with it move now.
Hollywood i really hope you get good news.

That's mighty positivity Where are you moving to, if you don't mind me asking?

saraj14

I'm based in Australia, the clinic I'm moving to is qfg.

Hollywood130

Hi Ladies

I'm sorry I haven't been on for a while, I've had a tough couple of days to be honest. The dreaded period came on Thursday in full force so I didn't even reach test day. i took the day off work because I really couldn't cope with it and spent the entire day with my other half. I knew it was coming on Wednesday from lunchtime and work that day was a real struggle. Being honest, today is too but I need to move on.

So Wednesday/Thursday were my 2 worst days, had lots of tears those days then Friday I had a wedding which was a great distraction. I spent Saturday planning my next steps with my DP. We've decided to go again, I called the clinic and made my review appointment for the 17th of September and I've already started making a list of questions for the Doctor.

I'm giving it at least 90 days before we start again. One reason being to save for the next cycle, unfortunately I don't have €4500 lying around! For those 90 days myself and DP are going to get ourselves into the best possible shape we can. LOTS of fruit and veg, nuts, seeds, exercise and vitamins! We are both going to loose some weight in the process. Today is Day 1 of 90! I've purchased Omega-3 fish oils (I don't eat fish so I need to get those nutrients somewhere), Royal Jelly and Pregnacare. I've also been recommended Coq10 enzymes so I might buy those at the weekend. Trying to give us the best possible chance next time.

I must say having a plan in place has really helped, I was dreading work today but it's ok so far, I'm taking it easy because I don't want to burn out and get panicked! My mind tends to run away with itself if I let it - 'what if it never happens', 'what else is wrong with me', etc but I need to set those questions aside until the 17th.

Sara, I'm sorry to hear that it didn't work out for you either, I know exactly how you feel, have you a plan in place for round 2?

YH, sorry to hear you had a little set back but it's good that your clinic have taken some action to try and get things going for you, there are lots of set backs in this journey, fingers crossed it all goes to plan for you.

Won't be long ow until you get going Sticky!

dori_dormer

Oh I'm so sorry Hollywood, I had everything crossed for you. Grieve and be sad as much as you need to, *hugs*

brokensoul

Sorry sorry Hollywood.

After my D&C I set myself some healthy eating and fitness goals and they are helping.

If you and your other half are not runners then maybe try the "couch to 5k" programme. It should have ye running 5k within the 90 days or so. I am doing it at the moment and it is giving me a nice feeling of achievement. I can now run for 8 minutes without stopping!

Just a thought.

Mind yourself and do what feels right for yourself, above all else.

Neyite

I'm so sorry to hear that Hollywood. It must have been so tough for you.

I can highly recommend the C25k. I've a great app that I use, and it's free. I was desperately unfit and the first week I was dying. But I did run my 5k at the end of it. If you take it a bit slower you'll be grand. I did it with a friend who is on a health kick but has some back and gait problems so we go nice and easy.

The days when TTC was getting on my wick, I loved to just head out with my phone, plug into music and bust the stress.

stickybean

Aw Hollywood, sorry to see your news this morning, hope you are doing okay honey xxx You were on my mind all weekend.

Me and the OH joined Slimming World. I had a weight in last week, I lost 7lbs, I actually couldn't believe it. My OH lost 4.5 lbs we were both delighted. We've been doing loads of home cooking and I have to say its been a super distraction. I've 6 weeks till hopefully we start again, I had aimed to loose 1 stone, so looks like I am halfway there.

Also like you it is giving us a chance to save. We got another bill from the clinic on Friday that we did not expect. €600 for freezing. We had thought that as it was a cancelled cycle (I responded too well to the meds), that the freeze was included, but looks like it was not :mad::mad::mad::mad:

Hollywood130

Thanks Sticky, I just couldn't bring myself to post all weekend, I tried to a number of times and just couldn't type the words, didn't want to think about it at all but today is a better day, onwards and upwards.

WOW 7lbs is amazing, well done you. You've plenty of time to reach your target and you'll have it done by the looks of it in no time. I actually want to loose a stone too and DP needs to loose that also, male factor isn't an issue for us but no harm in him getting in shape too. Well it'll be a long 90 days but at least if I'm in better shape I'll feel more confident about it all. Trying to get lots of colour into the diet. I'm going it alone, not doing slimming world or anything like that, hopefully it works. So onto preparation for round 2.

Yeah I was told we would have had to pay if we had any to freeze but unfortunately we didn't. I've been doing alot of reading over the weekend and I read that the cycle of an egg is 90 days so that's why I've decided to give it that long, all the supplements that I'm taking is supposed to be for egg health, fingers crossed it works. Surely they'll have some sort of impact. I now need to find somewhere in my area that does fertility accupuncture.

Yellow diamond

Oh Hollywood I am gutted for you. I was thinking about how you were getting on over the weekend. It's such an emotional rollercoaster, be kind to yourself! You seem like such a positive person from your posts, it's a great outlook to have, to pick yourself up and be positive and enthusiastic about getting ready to try again.

saraj14

Oh Hollywood I'm so so sorry. I was really hopeful that it would work for you.
The councillor i spoke to told me to get a plan and every time my mind wanders to the "I'll never have a baby" side, focus on the plan.
So far it's working. I'm going to go again this month. So fingers crossed i respond to the drugs and get a different result next time.
Next Monday I'm starting my healthy living again. Will also try and do some exercise. Oh how i hate exercise!
Well ladies my positivity has taken a serious knock. My AMH results are 2.7! Really another issue to pile on top of all the others!

skallywag

We also went through the same roller-coaster when our first attempt failed.

But, to add something of a positive note for what it's worth, it did work out for us second time round.

saraj14

Thanks skally, really need to hear some positive stories.

brokensoul

skallywag wrote: »

We also went through the same roller-coaster when our first attempt failed.

But, to add something of a positive note for what it's worth, it did work out for us second time round.

That is really encouraging to hear. Thanks for posting it!

skallywag

brokensoul wrote: »

That is really encouraging to hear. Thanks for posting it!

No problem at all.

The failures are indeed tough. I think I personally was far too optimistic the first time around, but then again one must think positive I suppose, what's the point in going into it thinking it's never going to work, etc.

After our first failed attempt my expectations dropped, and I found myself having more of a 'sure if it works, it works' attitude.

But it did you see

So keep the heads up.

Hollywood130

Thanks for posting Skallywag, definitely good to hear the positive stories.

snucks

Hi all been reading this thread for last few hours and it has made me laugh and cry lol we are just starting out on the ivf process and feeling a bit overwhelmed with it all. I suppose like every girl I presumed that I would have no problem getting pregnant when I wanted but unfortunately that is not the case. I'm 38 years old, had a miscarriage in 2005. After being tested it was found that i have a very low egg count of 4 amh. The doctor recommended ivf but then went on to say that we have a slim chance of success. I know he is only being realistic but I needed someone to tell me go for it that it would be all worth it. My partners attitude is it only takes one egg to make a baby and I am trying to stay positive but I'm so scared. What if this doesn't work and what if I will never be a mammy. Sorry for the long winded message just wanted to thank you all for giving me and insight of the honest ups and downs of the ivf journey xxxx

saraj14

Welcome snucks, sorry to hear that you're going through this also. My amh is actually lower than that. My specialist says it isn't ideal, but it isn't a problem. They deal with these things all the time. Have you started stiming yet?

snucks

saraj14 wrote: »

Welcome snucks, sorry to hear that you're going through this also. My amh is actually lower than that. My specialist says it isn't ideal, but it isn't a problem. They deal with these things all the time. Have you started stiming yet?

Hey Sara on my first appointment they found a pollyp in my womb. Plan is when my next period starts to make appointment with clinic for the day it finishes to get another internal. They just need to see if it is gone. If not I will have to get it removed. Then once this is done we will be getting our plan of action xxx

Hollywood130

Best of luck Snucks, I have a low AMH too of 4.5 and your partner is right, all it takes is one egg, keeping everything crossed for you that ivf works, good luck

Intothesea

skallywag wrote: »

After our first failed attempt my expectations dropped, and I found myself having more of a 'sure if it works, it works' attitude.

But it did you see

So keep the heads up.

Ahh, couldn't agree more with you Skallywag, absolutely resigning yourself to the outcome one way or the other helps every cell in your body to relax, while living in hope or pessimism stresses everything out, strangely enough.

I think IVF is more successful in subsequent rounds partially because we naturally make ourselves more resistant to bad news by not daring to hope. Stable resignation for the win. The best of luck to you ladies.

saraj14

Well I've started IVF again. I'm day 1. Anyone with me?

stickybean

Not this time, waiting on AF. Then hopefully I can catch up with you xxx

Very best of luck pet x