Anxiety and depression thread (Please read OP)

petes

petes wrote:

Tell her to do it

Ooooooooh ......... If I thought my anxiety and depression was a problem, it would be in the ha'penny place if I was to suggest that.

Poor mare has to go out and work while I sit around being sad...

Although..... Starting a new job next Tuesday. But worried that I'm going back too quick but need some structure.

The wife, myself and the little one (if 8 is still little) are heading to Orlando on a holiday in 26 days though so we have that to look forward to

BohsCeltic

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More than welcome to come over and cut my grass if you want 

The wife has been on at me for ages to do it.

Ha Ha, I went to do it this evening instead but out of petrol.

Deleted User wrote: »

Ooooooooh ......... If I thought my anxiety and depression was a problem, it would be in the ha'penny place if I was to suggest that.

Poor mare has to go out and work while I sit around being sad...

Although..... Starting a new job next Tuesday. But worried that I'm going back too quick but need some structure.

The wife, myself and the little one (if 8 is still little) are heading to Orlando on a holiday in 26 days though so we have that to look forward to

Good luck with the new job, i am not ready to go back to work yet even though i am still employed by them.

Enjoy Orlando, been twice and had a brilliant holiday both times. I have Portugal in June just for 3 days for a wedding then hopefully Thailand not long after if my insurance comes through.

Stressing that they might reject it but they have all they correct information that is true and honest. Can only hope. I need a break and i just find Thailand so relaxed even though a long way away.

That said the last few times i have went i never felt exited about going when i should have been. Not many people get the chance to go that far many times.

I feel exited now but my psoriasis is getting me down. I need to try and stop worrying. Easier said than done.

BohsCeltic

BohsCeltic wrote:

I feel exited now but my psoriasis is getting me down. I need to try and stop worrying. Easier said than done.

**** it man. Everyone here has that one thing that's getting them down. If it wasn't your psoriasis, you would find something else.

That's not in any way an insult. We are all the same. Our brains keep giving us a reason to find fault in ourselves.

Our humour and our demeanor is out of our control. Accepting that, is ironically the only thing that makes me feel a little in control.

I probably make no sense and am rambling but tl:dr don't worry chief. It'll all be grand. It has to be

alanzo27

Hi all. I hope everyone is well. I just wanted to give you an update.

I had a meeting yesterday with the Learning Co-ordinator in work. One of their roles is to meet with the apprentices and interns within the company to see how they are getting on, and any concerns they may have can also be discussed with them.

I had told them about how I was struggling daily with even basic tasks and instruction. I inquired about counselling services. I also arranged that I meet with my manager and my mentor once every two weeks.

The past two days have been awful. I can't even interpret what instructions I am given, and if a user comes up to the desk asking for a simple request I just freeze and stare blankly. I feel like I have lost the ability to think and speak. I keep forgetting where I am or what I am doing. I can't seem to do anything on the spot and everything just seems to be going way too fast. I can't relate to my colleagues either, again I think that is due to my inability to socialise. I had a bit of a meltdown and had to go somewhere quiet for a while.

Everyone has been so nice to me and I feel that I am letting them down.

I am sorry for ranting again.

Tell me how

alanzo27 wrote: »

Hi all. I hope everyone is well. I just wanted to give you an update.

I had a meeting yesterday with the Learning Co-ordinator in work. One of their roles is to meet with the apprentices and interns within the company to see how they are getting on, and any concerns they may have can also be discussed with them.

I had told them about how I was struggling daily with even basic tasks and instruction. I inquired about counselling services. I also arranged that I meet with my manager and my mentor once every two weeks.

The past two days have been awful. I can't even interpret what instructions I am given, and if a user comes up to the desk asking for a simple request I just freeze and stare blankly. I feel like I have lost the ability to think and speak. I keep forgetting where I am or what I am doing. I can't seem to do anything on the spot and everything just seems to be going way too fast. I can't relate to my colleagues either, again I think that is due to my inability to socialise. I had a bit of a meltdown and had to go somewhere quiet for a while.

Everyone has been so nice to me and I feel that I am letting them down.

I am sorry for ranting again.

Have the past two days been since you met with your mentor or did you only meet with your mentor today?

Could you try having a notebook with you when speaking to people about work and to write down bullet points for each task. 4-10 words per point could be written quite quickly and may help you to refer to it for clarification later.

alanzo27

I do have a notebook with me and I try to take notes but sometimes I forget a step and then they don't make sense.

I will try to format the notes I have so far into logical steps. I am usually very methodical but I am quite slow and therefore when I try to write down notes quickly they don't make sense.

BohsCeltic

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**** it man. Everyone here has that one thing that's getting them down. If it wasn't your psoriasis, you would find something else.

That's not in any way an insult. We are all the same. Our brains keep giving us a reason to find fault in ourselves.

Our humour and our demeanor is out of our control. Accepting that, is ironically the only thing that makes me feel a little in control.

I probably make no sense and am rambling but tl:dr don't worry chief. It'll all be grand. It has to be

You make good sense.

I just find myself looking at other people and thinking i wish i was like that which is wrong but that all stemmed from my acne day's, now it's teeth as i need veneers plus i have psoriasis so it's like i am just putting myself down all the time thinking when will i ever get a break from all this shi*.

Only last year my skin was perfect, was in Thailand twice last year wearing shorts e.t.c but i cannot do that now and i am thinking i will look strange in a warm country wearing long trousers or whatever during the day. Overthinking everything.
Still haven't got my blood tests done because i am **** scared of the results.

BohsCeltic

BohsCeltic wrote:

I just find myself looking at other people and thinking i wish i was like that which is wrong but that all stemmed from my acne day's, now it's teeth as i need veneers plus i have psoriasis so it's like i am just putting myself down all the time thinking when will i ever get a break from all this shi*.

My legs as are scabby as ****. I've actually just ordered waterproof scuba trousers to put under shorts for Orlando.

I know I shouldn't be embarrassed about it but I know I'd feel awkward so I've got them. **** psoriasis. It can try and make me feel awkward but I'll find a way around it. Just like you did with your cap.

You aren't hiding it, you've just not let it ruin your day.

Celebrate small victories instead of mourning small losses.

Skybirdjb

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My legs as are scabby as ****. I've actually just ordered waterproof scuba trousers to put under shorts for Orlando.

I know I shouldn't be embarrassed about it but I know I'd feel awkward so I've got them. **** psoriasis. It can try and make me feel awkward but I'll find a way around it. Just like you did with your cap.

You aren't hiding it, you've just not let it ruin your day.





Yeah totally agree with the hiding thing , I now walk funny from my issues and I'm so so conscious of it . Feel like a fool limping along like a twat . I hide behind loads of clothes to hide my weight . Can't exercise cause of pain so can't lose the weight . Can't diet cause of my head
Sorry I'm sure this is all coming out wrong , weird brain again can't say it right !!

BohsCeltic

Skybirdjb wrote: »

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My legs as are scabby as ****. I've actually just ordered waterproof scuba trousers to put under shorts for Orlando.

I know I shouldn't be embarrassed about it but I know I'd feel awkward so I've got them. **** psoriasis. It can try and make me feel awkward but I'll find a way around it. Just like you did with your cap.

You aren't hiding it, you've just not let it ruin your day.





Yeah totally agree with the hiding thing , I now walk funny from my issues and I'm so so conscious of it . Feel like a fool limping along like a twat . I hide behind loads of clothes to hide my weight . Can't exercise cause of pain so can't lose the weight . Can't diet cause of my head
Sorry I'm sure this is all coming out wrong , weird brain again can't say it right !!

Are you putting on more clothes to make you not look thin ?

Edit - sorry just seen it was the opposite. I am very thin, alway's have been so even without having psoriasis i am always conscious of people looking at my thin legs when wearing shorts.
But when i am abroad i couldn't really give a *****. No one know's me, i judge people from the inside not the outside and that will never change. One thing about me, if someone starts making fun e.t.c i am very good at giving it back, that's one thing i haven't lost. Not that i want to but i always stand up for myself.

One More Toy

Howre we all today?

Skybirdjb

One More Toy wrote: »

Howre we all today?

Hi how are u ? Just heard got a wedding invitation I'm in a heap now anxiety

One More Toy

Skybirdjb wrote: »

Hi how are u ? Just heard got a wedding invitation I'm in a heap now anxiety

They're like a court summons!

Skybirdjb

Skybirdjb wrote:

Hi how are u ? Just heard got a wedding invitation I'm in a heap now anxiety

Oh dear. When is it?

Skybirdjb

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Oh dear. When is it?

Not till June ! So have a while yet . How are you

Skybirdjb

Skybirdjb wrote:

Not till June ! So have a while yet . How are you

Little bit better. Nephew's 21st tonight. Dreading that. Buuuuuuuut..... I know at 11 it will be over. And I will have done it. And I'll be on my way home

Hedgelayer

Anxiety and depression is hard going, I suffered it for year's and im in my 40's

The last two years have been the best years of my life, Im learning how to compartmentalise my fears and worries.

I found listening to Jordan Peterson quite good.

I had to realise that I have to be honest with myself and see where I am wrong in situations and how my personality pisses some people off.

There's so many personalities out there and it's a mine field out there.

I had to do a lot of writing and figure out what makes me and others tick.

Disarming someone with a smile is good, being there for a hard to get on with relative make them tea, bring them cake or something.
Tell them you were thinking of them, sounds like manipulation but it isn't.

I used to be extremely sensitive and one aunt in particular i couldn't stand, my therapist suggested I call to that aunt with a cake and a chat....
Tell her i was thinking of her, ironically she was delighted i called and now we get on really good.

The anxiety of meeting her was always crippling, she is hard to get on with and I broke the cycle.

Nobody ever really was nice to her, always walking on eggshells.

That's the tip of the iceberg over the last two years, my therapist gave me loads of tasks to face my demons...

Im a different person now

BohsCeltic

Anyone watch this on the late late show ? I thought i had it hard but he went through hell and fought back. It is time for us to do the same. We have that fighting Irish spirit in us.

Oiche Mhaith.

https://www.dessiefitzgerald.com/about/

One More Toy

Nothing but bloody nightmares all night.

Good morning all

Skybirdjb

One More Toy wrote: »

Nothing but bloody nightmares all night.

Good morning all

Me too weird horrible dreams and some strange ones tohave to go do the shopping no food in the house been putting it off all week how are u

One More Toy

Skybirdjb wrote: »

Me too weird horrible dreams and some strange ones tohave to go do the shopping no food in the house been putting it off all week how are u

Trying to study its a beautiful day outside so you've got that at least, feel the warm sun

BohsCeltic

Had really strange dreams too. Woke up at 6am. Went back to bed until 1pm. I cut the grass yesterday. Now going to do the back. Have my 3 nephews staying overnight so will be busy. Family dinner tomorrow. Looking forward to it.

Skybirdjb

BohsCeltic wrote: »

Had really strange dreams too. Woke up at 6am. Went back to bed until 1pm. I cut the grass yesterday. Now going to do the back. Have my 3 nephews staying overnight so will be busy. Family dinner tomorrow. Looking forward to it.

Oh that sounds lovely , lots of happy faces to see

TG1

Hope the sunshine and vitamin D is making everyone's life a little easier today.

I find my mental health is a lot easier to manage on days like today. A bit of sunshine goes a long way towards easing the depression and anxiety, as does getting out in said weather and getting a bit of exercise.

TG1

TG1 wrote:

Hope the sunshine and vitamin D is making everyone's life a little easier today.

Hate to be a misery guts but i hate this weather.

Hope you all are doing good today though.

BohsCeltic

TG1 wrote: »

Hope the sunshine and vitamin D is making everyone's life a little easier today.

I find my mental health is a lot easier to manage on days like today. A bit of sunshine goes a long way towards easing the depression and anxiety, as does getting out in said weather and getting a bit of exercise.

Sunshine helps, already my psoriasis has got better, i was out doing the garden earlier and enjoyed it but when it get's bad i just like dark.

Going pharmacy now to get some vitamin D. Soon i hope to have a nice holiday.

Skybirdjb

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Hi and welcome ! How are u today are u enjoying the weather ??

SMC92Ian

Dragged myself out of the house and went for a long walk to Smyths, had some gift card so bought a game... needed a reason to go out. Wrecked now, it was roasting.

SMC92Ian

SMC92Ian wrote:

Dragged myself out of the house and went for a long walk to Smyths, had some gift card so bought a game... needed a reason to go out. Wrecked now, it was roasting.

What game did you get?

One More Toy

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What game did you get?

I'm playing cod:ghosts for the PS3, I'm too tight to upgrade to a PS4