Anxiety and depression thread (Please read OP)

theballz

One More Toy wrote: »

I've an exam to study for and I cannot get out of bed. All I want to do is sleep

Keep yourself busy if you want to avoid depression. For me, inactivity is the enemy.

One More Toy

So stressed today. Wish I was a different person living someone else's life

BohsCeltic

One More Toy wrote: »

So stressed today. Wish I was a different person living someone else's life

Sometimes i think the same. Yesterday i looked back at my past and the mistakes i made.
Usually every Christmas i have good money e.t.c but because i am out sick it won't happen this year.
My Psoriasis and financial difficulties are putting me down so much too, looking at other people so happy and here is me asking why am i not like that, my psoriasis was the final straw but i know this can be controlled a bit if i try and stop thinking and worrying too much, easier said than done though.

But this is me, I don't want to be anyone else. I just want to be the person i was before these horrible illnesses took a hold of me.

I won't give up, if anything, all this crap i have been through has made me stronger. I have hope.
Hope that 2020 will be better but there is only one person who can achieve that goal, and that person is ME.

It's time for me to roll up the sleeves and start taking more care of myself. I am going to start a diary/week planner of things for me to do instead of just being stuck in my room wasting my life away.

I will do this after dinner and start from tomorrow. I am not putting it off untill new year, it starts from today.

Keep strong.

One More Toy

BohsCeltic wrote: »

Sometimes i think the same. Yesterday i looked back at my past and the mistakes i made.
Usually every Christmas i have good money e.t.c but because i am out sick it won't happen this year.
My Psoriasis and financial difficulties are putting me down so much too, looking at other people so happy and here is me asking why am i not like that, my psoriasis was the final straw but i know this can be controlled a bit if i try and stop thinking and worrying too much, easier said than done though.

But this is me, I don't want to be anyone else. I just want to be the person i was before these horrible illnesses took a hold of me.

I won't give up, if anything, all this crap i have been through has made me stronger. I have hope.
Hope that 2020 will be better but there is only one person who can achieve that goal, and that person is ME.

It's time for me to roll up the sleeves and start taking more care of myself. I am going to start a diary/week planner of things for me to do instead of just being stuck in my room wasting my life away.

I will do this after dinner and start from tomorrow. I am not putting it off untill new year, it starts from today.

Keep strong.

I've given up on 2019,im gonna make 2020 my year

Funny I've bad psoriasis too - I'm starting an injection for it soon as nothing I've tried works

BohsCeltic

One More Toy wrote: »

I've given up on 2019,im gonna make 2020 my year

Funny I've bad psoriasis too - I'm starting an injection for it soon as nothing I've tried works

I turn 40 next month. Should be looking forward but i am not.
I am waiting for a specialist for my psoriasis, doc said just go private as it will be quicker. Yes but impossible when on 203 a week lol.

Mine only started last June but spread quickly. Just another thing to mess me up.

One More Toy

BohsCeltic wrote: »

I turn 40 next month. Should be looking forward but i am not.
I am waiting for a specialist for my psoriasis, doc said just go private as it will be quicker. Yes but impossible when on 203 a week lol.

Mine only started last June but spread quickly. Just another thing to mess me up.

Yeah I see a consultant too, and as you've said it's public, but I got seen to quick enough. I'd maybe give the dermatology department a ring tomorrow and see what the situation is

One More Toy

It's been very quiet on here, how's everyone doing today?

BohsCeltic

One More Toy wrote: »

It's been very quiet on here, how's everyone doing today?

Not too bad, been trying to keep busy and eating good for a change. I have gained 5 pounds since Sunday.
It's like my appetite has returned. I hope it stays like this as i want to gain even more as i lost a lot over the past year.
I ideally want to gain an extra 5kg. That would bring me up to my ideal weight for my build and height and pretty sure boost my confidence and fuel my body to give me the energy to get out of bed in the morning and do things.

BohsCeltic

I went for a walk earlier and passed by the bookies and just felt a feeling. Went in and done my numbers for the lotto.
Usually i do 50c so total cost €4 but i just done 25c so only €2.

My 3 numbers came out so i'm €375 richer Gave me a right good lift. I got rid of the deadwood in my life too, ie the girl i had been talking to for a while who wasn't helping me at all and look what happened

Babysitting a 1 year old tomorrow then again on Thursday overnight along with my 12 year old Godson as my other Nephew is going for an operation.
Will treat the family to some nice takeaway and on Sat have my friends 40th that i will go to seeing as i have a bit of spare cash now.

Weighed myself again and now 7lb's heavier than i was on Sunday. Have to keep it going.

Gremlinertia

Bohs, i'm grinning away here, couldn't happen a nicer person, i'm so glad for you

Gremlinertia

Finished work, heading home, sit holding a blanket for three days then go back to it.. Its grim and I'm really down..

One More Toy

Gremlinertia wrote: »

Finished work, heading home, sit holding a blanket for three days then go back to it.. Its grim and I'm really down..

Are you OK grem? Wanna vent about it?

I know the feeling, I'm supposed to be studying but I'm frozen and unmotivated

Graces7

Just a quick post, wishing all well. More and more drained and ill here as each day passes. Trying to get and keep warm …

I have my cats and their needs and affection help and support.

And I have my knitting; which will sell to feed rescued babies in Nepal; very aware of how much I do still have. I have my knitting... Christmas bells and angels, tiny pretty hats for babies... So I am abed most of each day; in the deep peace of this sanctuary... I have my knitting.

Being licked and purred at!

Hang on in there.. stay warm .. Blessings and peace.

BohsCeltic

Gremlinertia wrote: »

Finished work, heading home, sit holding a blanket for three days then go back to it.. Its grim and I'm really down..

You've hung in for so long and i'm sure you will do the same again. We all have them days.
Even today i felt like not going out but i did. I went out and got my hair cut, a simple task in reality for 'normal' people' but i done it and it helped me.

My teeth are so bad now because of medication and laziness. I wan't to smile but cannot give a real one. Booked dentist for Friday to try and get back to my normal good teeth.

I can only do myself, i realise that despite all the support i have around me it's up to me to fix myself and use my support as motivation.

It's wet, dark, windy and cold outside now but i am going to go for a quick walk. On the way back i will get some food and also do the lottery then shower and try to relax this overthinking brain of mine.

Graces7

Graces7 wrote: »

Just a quick post, wishing all well. More and more drained and ill here as each day passes. Trying to get and keep warm …

I have my cats and their needs and affection help and support.

And I have my knitting; which will sell to feed rescued babies in Nepal; very aware of how much I do still have. I have my knitting... Christmas bells and angels, tiny pretty hats for babies... So I am abed most of each day; in the deep peace of this sanctuary... I have my knitting.

Being licked and purred at!

Hang on in there.. stay warm .. Blessings and peace.

I hope you’re well Graces7 , I hope you have someone you can call on or who can call on you if you need ? It’s only November and we’ve another few months of Winter. Thankfully it’s meant to get milder next week . So maybe a reprieve for a bit.
When I’m feeling the blues in Winter (& thankfully that’s all I suffer from these days, nothing worse) , I think of the long Summer evenings and beautiful early Summer mornings and the birds singing, bees buzzing , flowers blooming and know (&hope) that’s all ahead next Spring and Summer again. After Christmas, which is only a few weeks away ,the evenings will start getting a bit longer .

My cats have become indoor cats lately and are ever so loving when I light the fire .......in the summer they couldn’t care less about me !

Graces7

Deleted User wrote: »

I hope you’re well Graces7 , I hope you have someone you can call on or who can call on you if you need ? It’s only November and we’ve another few months of Winter. Thankfully it’s meant to get milder next week . So maybe a reprieve for a bit.
When I’m feeling the blues in Winter (& thankfully that’s all I suffer from these days, nothing worse) , I think of the long Summer evenings and beautiful early Summer mornings and the birds singing, bees buzzing , flowers blooming and know (&hope) that’s all ahead next Spring and Summer again. After Christmas, which is only a few weeks away ,the evenings will start getting a bit longer .

My cats have become indoor cats lately and are ever so loving when I light the fire .......in the summer they couldn’t care less about me !

Thanks. I have my supply lines set up; negotiating for a turkey just now ! And I have my faith family for vital support. But I will not have "officials" here! The GPs have no idea re M.E so they are of little use, frankly. I have become needfully a very private person. I know this illness and how to cope and survive and get some joy in my life.

Read a report last week that claims that a large percentage of old folk "self neglect"! The definitions etc are so insulting. lol... I understand why many old folk refuse eg meals on wheels . And become " reclusive".

Being out here is great.

Graces7

ps Things will start to ease as soon as the shortest day passes ie just in time for Christmas! Best, indeed, only Christmas gift.

Hunkering down with knitting and youtube and cats for a peaceful and productive weekend.. After trying a short walk as it seems to be dry and calm out there for once. Very very tired but that is bearable. Has to be! lol...

Be blessed and at peace today..We are, here, my cats and I

zerosugarbuzz

Graces7 wrote: »

ps Things will start to ease as soon as the shortest day passes ie just in time for Christmas! Best, indeed, only Christmas gift.

Hunkering down with knitting and youtube and cats for a peaceful and productive weekend.. After trying a short walk as it seems to be dry and calm out there for once. Very very tired but that is bearable. Has to be! lol...

Be blessed and at peace today..We are, here, my cats and I

I love reading your posts, have a happy day on the island with your cats 😊

Graces7

zerosugarbuzz wrote: »

I love reading your posts, have a happy day on the island with your cats ��

It is outwitting them and getting in and out of bed to let them in and out that keeps me grounded. I posted on the pet forum in the general chat thread re my "new" cat. Who came to me for help. People think cats are aloof. Depends how you treat them.

So cold today and it has gone on far too long! Shivers!

One More Toy

I'm so stressed, I've no idea where to go or what to do or who to talk to even

Skybirdjb

One More Toy wrote: »

I'm so stressed, I've no idea where to go or what to do or who to talk to even

Talk to us omt are u ok ?

One More Toy

Skybirdjb wrote: »

Talk to us omt are u ok ?

So stressed with an upcoming exam that most people fail. It's tough going.

Gremlinertia

One More Toy wrote: »

So stressed with an upcoming exam that 60 per cent of people fail. It's tough going.

You are not one of the sixty per cent right now. You do you, feck the stats. We're all right being you here

Graces7

One More Toy wrote: »

So stressed with an upcoming exam that 60 per cent of people fail. It's tough going.[/QUOTE

But you ARE one of the 40 % who pass.. Trust me; I know these things

One More Toy

Tbh guys I don't care if I fail. I just want to see Christmas at home with my family right now that's all

Graces7

One More Toy wrote: »

Tbh guys I don't care if I fail. I just want to see Christmas at home with my family right now that's all

Aw go on! Do the work and pass!

One More Toy

Graces7 wrote: »

Aw go on! Do the work and pass!

I will try to the best of my ability graces!

One More Toy

One More Toy wrote: »

I will try to the best of my ability graces!

That's all you need to do!

Can't ask for any more.

Graces7

One More Toy wrote: »

I will try to the best of my ability graces!

(((HUGS!!)))

Graces7

One More Toy wrote: »

I will try to the best of my ability graces![/QUOTE

I know you will; and that will heal you more than anything...