Anxiety and depression thread (Please read OP)

RabbleRouser2k

Winter definitely getting to me-my sleep is all over the place. 12- 14 hours sleep not abnormal.

One More Toy

RabbleRouser2k wrote: »

Winter definitely getting to me-my sleep is all over the place. 12- 14 hours sleep not abnormal.

Same here I think, exhausted. No amount of sleep leaves me refreshed. Sleeping at lunch time and after work

Wanderer78

RabbleRouser2k wrote: »

Winter definitely getting to me-my sleep is all over the place. 12- 14 hours sleep not abnormal.

im gone the other way, fcuk all sleep, awake since midnight, out of the bed since 6, dog already walked, fcuking annoying

RabbleRouser2k

Wanderer78 wrote: »

im gone the other way, fcuk all sleep, awake since midnight, out of the bed since 6, dog already walked, fcuking annoying

Changes in sunlight can mess everyone up. Too much sleep/ too little sleep.

Its odd.

Wanderer78

RabbleRouser2k wrote: »

Changes in sunlight can mess everyone up. Too much sleep/ too little sleep.

Its odd.

it can indeed, ive no idea whats going on with me, this is new just this week, been flying for months

Sardonicat

My sleep's all over the place as well. I go to bed really tired and just as I'm about to enter deep sleep I'm suddenly wide awake.im also very adverse to hauling myself out of the pit in the morning. Fortunately someone else relies on me to do so so that prevents me from sleeping the morning away and spending the rest if the day beating myself up about it. It's not helping that the weather is so bleak and the days aren't getting very bright.

Graces7

Sardonicat wrote: »

My sleep's all over the place as well. I go to bed really tired and just as I'm about to enter deep sleep I'm suddenly wide awake.im also very adverse to hauling myself out of the pit in the morning. Fortunately someone else relies on me to do so so that prevents me from sleeping the morning away and spending the rest if the day beating myself up about it. It's not helping that the weather is so bleak and the days aren't getting very bright.

As I have no obligations I just let it be for now. Worrying about it made it worse and no one is any the worse for my erratic sudden Rip Van Winkle spasms etc. We had three nights of loud gales here which scuppered me totally.

As long as the cats get fed.. still in too much pain and too seriously unwell with no meds.

If you need sleep, sleep

carzony

The weekend is over, thankfully.. I find the weekends very difficult/lonely at times.

Wanderer78

carzony wrote:

The weekend is over, thankfully.. I find the weekends very difficult/lonely at times.

Yea they can be very painful to experience at times, the general advice given in those situations is to not self isolate, but that can be easier said than done

Rain_Dog_Brian

carzony wrote: »

The weekend is over, thankfully.. I find the weekends very difficult/lonely at times.

Me too. At my most vulnerable due to the uncertainty. Pity to be holding my breath and wishing the weekends away (and trying to hide it from the kids).
Did you manage to get to a GP, or managing without?

carzony

Rain_Dog_Brian wrote: »

Me too. At my most vulnerable due to the uncertainty. Pity to be holding my breath and wishing the weekends away (and trying to hide it from the kids).
Did you manage to get to a GP, or managing without?

I just don't have the energy to go through all that. I'm suffering in silence to be honest..
My mood improved the last few days. I was at rock bottom for weeks, found it genuinely difficult to cope/function.
I've been single for a long time now, honestly desperately trying to find a partner, think that might help me a lot if I could find someone.
I'm 28 now and really want to settle down it just isn't happening for me.
I feel a lot of depression but quite a nasty angry feeling about it all too.

ironictoaster

Anyone have any experience changing SSRIs?

I have using Seroxat (paroxetine) 30mg for a over 4 years now, however I recently had a relapse 3 weeks ago and I have since prescribed 40mg, I did see improvement, however I still wasn't 100% myself. I still lacked the motivation to do things I used to love and socialise with friends over the phone etc.

I will be moving to 20mg of Prozac.

Wanderer78

ironictoaster wrote:

Anyone have any experience changing SSRIs?

Im only on my first ssri, sertraline, side effects are a pain in the hole, but im very reluctant to change them

Graces7

One More Toy wrote: »

I've always wondered about sad lamps, do you find they actually work?

I could not cope with the actual lamp ( too bright as the M.E affects my eyes) but I had a SAD bulb bedside lamp a while that did definitely help ; then the bulb died and I had bought it in the UK etc etc etc

They DO work as they are the same " lux" as natural sunlight. Totally sound reasoning ….There have been folk who have used the full lamp an hour in the morning and that has supported them all the day long.

Well worth a try.

Graces7

carzony wrote: »

The weekend is over, thankfully.. I find the weekends very difficult/lonely at times.

I remember that so well. Part of it was like walking a street at evening and seeing a family sitting at a table, happy together.. YOU know? The loneliest feeling on earth.

Sunday was hell on earth.

Along the way that changed. I was in a different situation where I was and am valued more. Sunday became a rich and peaceful oasis. Still is; no post can arrive! And I enjoy Sundays.

It must be so much harder out there in the covid world. Life out here has not changed outwardly.

At one time penfriends were a help; any contact with others? I am on "ravelry" now and love it.

charlietheminxx

The last couple of days haven't been good. I'm feeling physically rough (headaches, nausea, feeling cold) and my anxiety is wearing me down a lot. I feel like I'm edge all the time. I really don't want to feel like this.

I've been bad at keeping up my mood journal etc. I don't want to let everything slip again but I kind of just want to climb into my bed in the dark and stay there for a couple of days.

I'm sorry to hear others are having a hard time this week also.

Graces7

Just a small word that there has been progress for me. I was left with no meds etc several weeks ago under appalling circumstances. Today my usual prescription arrived here. No idea who issued it and I don't care. Just such relief that the pain can be under control again.

I have had migraines all weekend from the stress of the pain.

Also the official complaint I made has been taken on board and is being treated fully and seriously.

It should never have happened as it did ; not ever

I cannot tell you the relief ;tears flowing.

And blessings and thanks to all who have stood by me and been kind to me . It helps so much when things are hard.

Meeoow

that is great news Graces, delighted to hear that you are getting help, and that someone is listening to you. I got your PM, but I cannot reply. Are your settings ok on boards? It looks like they are locked that posters cannot reply to you, maybe that is the way you like it!

Graces7

Meeoow wrote: »

that is great news Graces, delighted to hear that you are getting help, and that someone is listening to you. I got your PM, but I cannot reply. Are your settings ok on boards? It looks like they are locked that posters cannot reply to you, maybe that is the way you like it!

Oh shoot ! I changed it for some reason . hang on!

Try now?

Meeoow

Graces7 wrote: »

Oh shoot ! I changed it for some reason . hang on!

Try now?

That's it now! I had a big reply for you earlier, and it wouldn't send, but it doesn't matter now anyway!!!

Graces7

"Sleep; that knits up the ravelled sleeve of care.."
They knitted in Shakespeare's day..

Just woken from the first real sleep in weeks. And can walk to the kitchen without clinging to the walls... Bliss, and I bless whoever effected this miracle of provision.

Now I can start cleaning the place... Six cats and I tread in a lot of winter muck between us.

Graces7

Got over ambitious there! Slept almost all day yesterday and all night. Slumber season.. Just blasted off at a few things on other threads and now retreating quietly out of range.

Very very drained. And aware that the matter of the dr is not over by any means. Next week,,, meanwhile, home things, like setting up Advent here; my favourite season with its hope and light...

Sleep calls; stay well out there. So peaceful out here. Love it!.

SMC92Ian

Just in here to vent really, I'm so sick of toxic and negative people I can't get away from. People who don't listen. Just give out all the time and moan and crib about NOTHING.

I talk to nobody anymore I just can't be arsed, what's the point. People rather stare at phones, not listen or communicate and have a real conversation. If they're not doing that they're more focused on creating some fake life on the internet and giving out about what others are doing. Like what is going on with humans now?

Another peeve is people who are super nice to random people in Tesco, Costa, etc but a nightmare to people they live with or supposedly care about. Treat us all like dirt but the random person who served you coffee like a queen?

carzony

Finally, after weeks, the depression has finally lifted. The last few days have been so much easier. i've been able to think a lot more clearly and the sadness has certainly lifted.

Hopefully, it stays away.

Liamo57

Just after reading this thread and its fantastic that ye can all discuss your own personal issues. Best of luck to ye all, ye have enlightened me.

carzony

I forgot to ask, has anyone else gotten a little used to the lockdown situation? I think it's become quite normal or something

Graces7

carzony wrote: »

I forgot to ask, has anyone else gotten a little used to the lockdown situation? I think it's become quite normal or something

And that is the right thing to do. Adapt. Heads and brick walls are not a good combination :eek:

Graces7

Yesterday was a perfect and healing Advent Sunday.

Back to all my oldest and most fulfilling times and values.

Feeling at peace now.

Howard Beale

carzony wrote: »

I forgot to ask, has anyone else gotten a little used to the lockdown situation? I think it's become quite normal or something

Self imposed isolation is normal?

Not to me.

I know many find it depressing and know of at least 3 suicides linked to this lockdown.

Horses for courses but if I went along with all this self isolation shyte I know my depression be awful and it would lead to a terrible deep episode.

No thanks. I need to meet people and just be outside not cooped up. We aren't chickens.



The worst think for depression is isolation in my view and my counsellor missus view.

RabbleRouser2k

Howard Beale wrote: »

Self imposed isolation is normal?

Not to me.

I know many find it depressing and know of at least 3 suicides linked to this lockdown.

Horses for courses but if I went along with all this self isolation shyte I know my depression be awful and it would lead to a terrible deep episode.

No thanks. I need to meet people and just be outside not cooped up. We aren't chickens.



The worst think for depression is isolation in my view and my counsellor missus view.

I know at least 2 or 3 suicides linked tot he lockdown. Folks had depression, then it worsened when they couldn't do things like visit their counsellor, go to Pieta House or whatever.

One or two addicts I know relapsed too.

While my work schedules been all over the place, so has my sleep schedule. But that's sort of weirdly commonplace for me, when it comes to winter.

Pets have helped enormously, for real. They help with a schedule.