Anxiety and depression thread (Please read OP)

PREG1967

the days are getting longer and brighter they say but it feels darker and more depressing to me

norwegianwood

I feel so isolated, like there's nobody in the world I can talk to. The last few weeks have been so difficult, I don't know how much more I can take.

I don't know what to say to those who are going through a rough time. It's hard, maybe you walk around feeling like there is a window between you and everyone else, or maybe not but still battle sadness and hopelessness.

Keep going. Put one foot in front of the other and get through each hour. Forget about tomorrow and next week and plans and this and that and those and them. Take each hour as a victory. You'll get there x

Gremlinertia

Woken up in a bad way with anxiety primarily, i rage against this damned illness. This will not bury me..

Hugo Stiglitz

Gremlinertia wrote: »

Woken up in a bad way with anxiety primarily, i rage against this damned illness. This will not bury me..

If only we could literally kick the poop out of depression and anxiety.

Gremlinertia

Absolutely Hugo think i need a hurl or something to vent with :pac:

bridgettedon

ivytwine wrote: »

[Deleted User] wrote: »

There is a problem with the health system in this country no doubt about it but more and more I'm encountering people who want a very specialised service for little or no cost. That's just not possible. Therapy is a commitment to your state of mind. If you can't afford the cost then have a look at ways you could save money.
There was a time when I was paying €60 a week. That meant no takeaways of little treats. It was the best money I have ever spent.

I agree. I've had 2 free counsellors through college and work, but the one I'm currently attending is definitely worth the money I'm paying.

It's hard I know but I can only advise people to shop around and only hand over money to someone you feel is earning it. When you find a good counsellor you will know right away.

I have been to about 5 different counsellors. The ones I paid for were below pay where as the ones I received via the hse, which were free were very good.

For me the biggest issue is finding a counsellor that's actually good. I just used google search and the phone directory. Nearly every therapist has a generic list of what they can treat. I know people will say change therapist if there arent a match but when it's a massive effort to make an apt it can be hard to do more research. I wish there was a system in place to help people with that.

trixychic

Does anyone else just feel fed up with this country?? I mean I'm in the whole "generation f'ed" group and it dies feel like this country just wants us to get out.

I've tried to stay positive for this new yr but its really hard when it feels like your own country is trying to bring you down.

(Ps I havent watched that tv show, but i fall into that age group.)

Gremlinertia

It's not encouraging at times for sure, think the battle remains though no matter where you are. Have friends who got residencies in other countries and sure, for a while the novelty kept them distracted, not trying to be a huge downer, just realised how all that sounds, just meaning that your health and it's related issues travel too.

trixychic

Gremlinertia wrote: »

It's not encouraging at times for sure, think the battle remains though no matter where you are. Have friends who got residencies in other countries and sure, for a while the novelty kept them distracted, not trying to be a huge downer, just realised how all that sounds, just meaning that your health and it's related issues travel too.

That's actually really reassuring. Thanks. It's mad I know but I was beginning to think maybe I could escape it all... if that makes sense?

Gremlinertia

trixychic wrote: »

That's actually really reassuring. Thanks. It's mad I know but I was beginning to think maybe I could escape it all... if that makes sense?

I equate illness in my head with broken arms or legs, no one else can see the plaster you keep applying to your mind but it's with you all the time.. Some people understand and some don't, for me i wouldn't leave where i am easily, i've got doctors and friends here, my support network is important to me..

Hugo Stiglitz

If any of yours employers have the VHI employee assistance programme, I'd highly recommend it. I discovered the best counsellor I ever attended thanks to that programme.

Trebor176

I'm on a slight bit of a downer today, and particularly this evening. Maybe I'm just tired. I didn't sleep very well last night. I think I may need to see the counsellor again. I felt grand after my last visit (my first one), and tried so hard not to get myself so down again. I have been doing pretty well. I'll give myself a few days and see how I am. Weekends suit me best for such appointments.

I am trying so hard to make changes in my life. I have tried sussing out social events. Just some way to get out, meet new people, etc. and just to take my mind off the person that I feel has made me feel this way for the last year. But, I just can't seem to bring myself to signing up or RSVPing events. I've never been the best at things like this on my own, bar meeting people in the usual places, such as work, college, etc.

I want to apply for exams too, but I just don't feel motivated enough to study. I have hated the way that I've felt over the last year. Rejection has hit me so bloody hard, and I just can't seem to fully get past it.

Hugo Stiglitz

Trebor176 wrote: »

I'm on a slight bit of a downer today, and particularly this evening. Maybe I'm just tired. I didn't sleep very well last night. I think I may need to see the counsellor again. I felt grand after my last visit (my first one), and tried so hard not to get myself so down again. I have been doing pretty well. I'll give myself a few days and see how I am. Weekends suit me best for such appointments.

I am trying so hard to make changes in my life. I have tried sussing out social events. Just some way to get out, meet new people, etc. and just to take my mind off the person that I feel has made me feel this way for the last year. But, I just can't seem to bring myself to signing up or RSVPing events. I've never been the best at things like this on my own, bar meeting people in the usual places, such as work, college, etc.

I want to apply for exams too, but I just don't feel motivated enough to study. I have hated the way that I've felt over the last year. Rejection has hit me so bloody hard, and I just can't seem to fully get past it.

*bro-hugs*

trixychic

Hugo Stiglitz wrote: »

If any of yours employers have the VHI employee assistance programme, I'd highly recommend it. I discovered the best counsellor I ever attended thanks to that programme.

I was actually told to stop with my counselling in my last job if I wanted to keep my job. This sounds more like a place I should be in.

trixychic

Just had a very serious IBS attack. Not gonna sleep well and I'm worried about tomorrow. Feeling pretty bad. Lying on the couch watching room to improve and running in and out to the bathroom. *Blech*

Hugo Stiglitz

trixychic wrote: »

I was actually told to stop with my counselling in my last job if I wanted to keep my job. This sounds more like a place I should be in.

What the actual Fact?! :mad:

trixychic wrote: »

Just had a very serious IBS attack. Not gonna sleep well and I'm worried about tomorrow. Feeling pretty bad. Lying on the couch watching room to improve and running in and out to the bathroom. *Blech*

Sorry to hear that, TC.

I don't know a lot about IBM, I'm afraid. Is there anything you can do to lessen it when it flares up?

Gremlinertia

Trixy that's rough. The stress is really taking it's toll on you, talking to someone is important when things are like this.. Take care..

trixychic

Hugo Stiglitz wrote: »

What the actual Fact?! :mad:



Sorry to hear that, TC.

I don't know a lot about IBM, I'm afraid. Is there anything you can do to lessen it when it flares up?

Hugo yep I was taking an hour and a half once a week (15 min drive there, an hour session and 15 min drive back). I was on a 6month trial. After 2 months they told me if I wanted any chance of getting full time position I would have to stop taking that time off.

As for the IBS unfortunately it's all about managing it and making sure it doesn't come... if it hits that's it!!! I'll be in pain for a few days now. I'm on tablets for it (along with my other tabs for anxiety) but sometimes it just overrides them. Thanks though.

Hugo Stiglitz

trixychic wrote: »

Hugo yep I was taking an hour and a half once a week (15 min drive there, an hour session and 15 min drive back). I was on a 6month trial. After 2 months they told me if I wanted any chance of getting full time position I would have to stop taking that time off.

As for the IBS unfortunately it's all about managing it and making sure it doesn't come... if it hits that's it!!! I'll be in pain for a few days now. I'm on tablets for it (along with my other tabs for anxiety) but sometimes it just overrides them. Thanks though.

That's rough. The fact that someone would actually even say that to someone makes me sad and anger.

trixychic

Hugo Stiglitz wrote: »

That's rough. The fact that someone would actually even say that to someone makes me sad and anger.

I know. I didn't even last the full 6 months there. It's was awful. I regressed into severe depression there. Stopped working and became stay at home mammy... but my youngest is off to jr inf in Sept and I'll be going back to work... I must say I'm dreading it. But not focusing on it for now. Xxx hope your ok.

Gonna try get some sleep. Hopefully I won't talk to any of yous for the rest of the night... no offense. Xxx

Gremlinertia

I hope the same for you Trixy also not in a bad way. I hope you sleep.

Hugo Stiglitz

trixychic wrote: »

I know. I didn't even last the full 6 months there. It's was awful. I regressed into severe depression there. Stopped working and became stay at home mammy... but my youngest is off to jr inf in Sept and I'll be going back to work... I must say I'm dreading it. But not focusing on it for now. Xxx hope your ok.

Gonna try get some sleep. Hopefully I won't talk to any of yous for the rest of the night... no offense. Xxx

No offence taken!

Hopefully you'll get a good night's sleep there. Goodnight.

AnxietyPug

Hi everyone. I've only just joined looking for a place to share my thoughts.

I've had anxiety for 3 years now. At the beginning it was very problematic, being in and out of the doctors, having panic attacks daily, sometimes multiple times. During this time I visited my out of hours service doctor many many times from feeling like I was unable to breathe, feeling faint and having pains. After a while I felt better for some time. Still there, but not as severe.

Recently I've been feeling worse again. I'm have constant pains in my chest, my legs, and dizziness. I've seen 3 doctors who give me different diagnoses (one says restless leg, other says it isnt) with no specific answers to what's wrong. They seem to brush over my chest pain or dizziness. I know my anxiety makes how I feel worse and makes me panic but with no answers I can't help it. I'm not sure what to do now.

In the past (over a year and a half ago) I went to a counsellor and I feel it didn't help me. I was just recounting my past with no solution to my problems. I'm not sure if that experience was what I should expect from all or just that individual in particular.

I really do feel like there is something very wrong with me physically given how often i feel in pain, but I feel my anxiety and history with my doctor makes him put it all down anxiousness.

I'd appreciate any advice in what to do if anyone would like to share. I feel lost and don't want to be stuck this way.

RubyXI

I am a body, a mind, and a soul. My mind is racing. My soul is asleep ( possibly dead) and my body is just a outer shell dragging it all around.

AnneFrank

AnxietyPug wrote: »

Hi everyone. I've only just joined looking for a place to share my thoughts.

I've had anxiety for 3 years now. At the beginning it was very problematic, being in and out of the doctors, having panic attacks daily, sometimes multiple times. During this time I visited my out of hours service doctor many many times from feeling like I was unable to breathe, feeling faint and having pains. After a while I felt better for some time. Still there, but not as severe.

Recently I've been feeling worse again. I'm have constant pains in my chest, my legs, and dizziness. I've seen 3 doctors who give me different diagnoses (one says restless leg, other says it isnt) with no specific answers to what's wrong. They seem to brush over my chest pain or dizziness. I know my anxiety makes how I feel worse and makes me panic but with no answers I can't help it. I'm not sure what to do now.

In the past (over a year and a half ago) I went to a counsellor and I feel it didn't help me. I was just recounting my past with no solution to my problems. I'm not sure if that experience was what I should expect from all or just that individual in particular.

I really do feel like there is something very wrong with me physically given how often i feel in pain, but I feel my anxiety and history with my doctor makes him put it all down anxiousness.

I'd appreciate any advice in what to do if anyone would like to share. I feel lost and don't want to be stuck this way.

Honestly, I'd go to another Doctor

Trebor176

I wish things would go right for me for once. I learned that I didn't get a role that I had been interviewed for. A role which would have been good for me! Is it wrong for me to be annoyed at the fact that some that have let me down seem to be having better luck, and things seem to be going well for them? I'm not the jealous type at all, by the way. It's just how I feel!

mg1982

phi3 wrote: »

I am a body, a mind, and a soul. My mind is racing. My soul is asleep ( possibly dead) and my body is just a outer shell dragging it all around.

Sorry to hear i know the feeling. I feel my mind and body are disconnected somehow like im fragmented inside. Its been that way for a long long time now.

trixychic

Trebor176 wrote: »

Is it wrong for me to be annoyed at the fact that some that have let me down seem to be having better luck, and things seem to be going well for them? I'm not the jealous type at all, by the way. It's just how I feel!

I know the feeling aaaaalll too well. I font have any pointers... just reassuring you your not alone.

It's awful cause your angry with (well for me anyways its) karma for not doing its job and then you feel guilty for even feeling that way!!!

Ferrari3600

trixychic wrote: »

Hugo yep I was taking an hour and a half once a week (15 min drive there, an hour session and 15 min drive back). I was on a 6month trial. After 2 months they told me if I wanted any chance of getting full time position I would have to stop taking that time off.

As for the IBS unfortunately it's all about managing it and making sure it doesn't come... if it hits that's it!!! I'll be in pain for a few days now. I'm on tablets for it (along with my other tabs for anxiety) but sometimes it just overrides them. Thanks though.

Personally I have found the best tablets for IBS are :

- Dr Udo's Super 8 (needs to be kept refrigerated, one a day to be taken after food)
- Alflorex (one a day, can be taken at any time, does not need to be kept refrigerated)

Neither require prescription.

This is not medical advice of course, just based on my personal experience.