Shan's Stygian Shack of Shenanigans (Lair Thread)

Gremlinertia

Rant away here sure..

Shpud2

Thanks Grem.
Basically had a social thing this morning where there were lots of people and I had no one to talk to. Then i had doctor stuff and other things to sort out and had more social situations to deal with and do and I'm just tired of it all after today. Meanwhile while feeling stressed out with all the people I've felt so alone all day and the happiest I've been is when someone text me asking for weed cause it meant i had someone to talk to

Gremlinertia

used too many spoons today, i get that.. Happens me too. Over extend and pay for it once alone.

Shpud2

Yeah exactly Grem. Just feel **** now

Gremlinertia

Very hard to put yourself first. Time to do that for the night.

Shpud2

Yeah just need time to catch up and take a break.

Gremlinertia

Don't commit to doing too many things in any one day.

Shpud2

I try not to. Think I have a bit of a busy day tomorrow too though.

Gremlinertia

I tend to only allow a certain amount of tasks a day for myself..

Shpud2

Unfortunately my things are out of my control.

Gremlinertia

That's something to focus on changing in time..

Shpud2

Yeah it is. I may treat myself this week to counter the stress

Gremlinertia

Do it!.

Shpud2

Gonna do some retail therapy if i have some money left over. Hopefully the stuff I do this week will come good next week cause I want to feel good for the weekend. Terrified of it.

Gremlinertia

Mate has just become a dad, delighted for him

Shpud2

Woo!

Gremlinertia

Delighted for his good news, mama and baby are both great.

Shpud2

Always nice to hear good news like that

Gremlinertia

Yeah, i try to be as happy about stuff like that as i can since my head spends so much time seeking bad things

Shpud2

*hypocrite warning*
Yeah you have to like you can't be negative all the time

Gremlinertia

You and me both, hence trying to cling on to the good stuff.

Shpud2

I'd say you're a lot better at doing that then me.

Gremlinertia

There's measurement really, i guess time can help some..

Shpud2

I guess. I just seem to really clinge to things that are bad for me.

Gremlinertia

That's a recognised thing to do.. If i get good news i feel smiley for a minute maybe or two, if i see bad news on the net or wherever i can be down for hours.

Shpud2

I'm the same. It usually takes an awful lot to put me in a good mood and small things can put me in a bad mood for the day

Gremlinertia

Tis a balls but no one is alone in it..

Shpud2

Very true but you'd feel like it somedays

Gremlinertia

Oh hell yeah, that's why i like boards, twitter et al, loads of chatting or just lurking.

Shpud2

I actually find having all the options makes you feel even more alone when no one is on or replying. Like i have loads of friends on snapchat but feel **** when they don't reply or talk

Gremlinertia

Oh i don't really do direct messages that much, there are comforting thing threads here, mental health pages on other sites that i can read and nod in agreement with or whatever..

Shpud2

Ah that's fair enough. I like to have that sort of one on one convo.

Gremlinertia

I feel attention spans are shorter than they used to be which makes it hard for some people to have sustained conversation

Shpud2

That's true. Makes you appreciate the people who can hold a conversation more though

Gremlinertia

I dunno, some people are able to bang on and on about feckin nothing though..

Shpud2

True but some people are just very easy to talk to and its great. I had a person like that but unfortunately i ruined things there and we haven't talked in over a week and i miss her like hell.

Gremlinertia

Don't stress, you'll move around a lot of people as time goes on..

Shpud2

That's true but she was the most important person in my life and i do miss that.

Gremlinertia

Would you believe there is no one in my daily life now that was in my daily life at eighteen?.

Shpud2

I would

Gremlinertia

Then again i'm an ould cranky bag :pac:

Shpud2

Also true





(Please don't hurt me)

Gremlinertia

Wouldn't dream of it Shpud

Shpud2

So kind Grem

Gremlinertia

I may be cranky and angry but i can show mercy...

Shpud2

I struggle with compassion sometimes. I can be a very cold hearted person.

Gremlinertia

Sometimes i distance because i overengage

Shpud2

So you get so involved that you are distanced?

Gremlinertia

I can feel my empathy dragging me into the other person's life/problems too much and i panic and turn cold..

Shpud2

Oh i get you now.