I don't know where we're going, but I know where I am (part 10)

In werk listening to a module I just bought, Fragile Selves: Working with Narcissistic and Borderline States of Mind.

I'll have my eye on all of you now.

I Am Nobody

Deleted User wrote: »

In werk listening to a module I just bought, Fragile Selves: Working with Narcissistic and Borderline States of Mind.

I'll have my eye on all of you now.

You will need more than one eye if your going by that BS reasoning.What is it with people now over analyzing **** to fit in?

I Am Nobody

I Am Nobody wrote: »

You will need more than one eye if your going by that BS reasoning.What is it with people now over analyzing **** to fit in?

You seem rather angry I Am. Would you like a cup of tea?

I Am Nobody

Deleted User wrote: »

You seem rather angry I Am. Would you like a cup of tea?

I am not angry at all sweetheart,just posting my point of view.If your offering tea I prefer Earl Grey.

I Am Nobody

I Am Nobody wrote: »

I am not angry at all sweetheart,just posting my point of view.If your offering tea I prefer Earl Grey.

Strong or weak?

Phoenix32

kowloon wrote: »

So everything set and feeling good about the move Phoenix?

I'm all packed and mostly ready, some last minute grooming tonight :pac:There's a lot of variables out of my control tomorrow but fingers crossed I'll get there in one piece by tomorrow night

Mam of 4 wrote: »

Phoenix , best of luck in your new home , I hope it's a positive happy move for you .

Thank you mam, I really hope it will be

Deleted User wrote: »

In werk listening to a module I just bought, Fragile Selves: Working with Narcissistic and Borderline States of Mind.

I'll have my eye on all of you now.

But but I have Borderline Personality Disorder so you already anaylse me

On the couch thinking about what to have for dinner later.

I Am Nobody

Deleted User wrote: »

Strong or weak?

I definitely don't think myself weak,so what are you hoping as a end scenario?

I Am Nobody

I Am Nobody wrote: »

I definitely don't think myself weak,so what are you hoping as a end scenario?

I was referring to the tea.

I Am Nobody

Deleted User wrote: »

I was referring to the tea.

Wasn't thinking of tea at all.But sure let's go with that.

Deebles McBeebles

Deleted User wrote: »

In werk listening to a module I just bought, Fragile Selves: Working with Narcissistic and Borderline States of Mind.

I'll have my eye on all of you now.

Is that related to your job or just an interest, Perse? Your dark triad test fairly spot on for me to be fair.

Mike Hough

[Deleted User] wrote: »

In werk listening to a module I just bought, Fragile Selves: Working with Narcissistic and Borderline States of Mind.

I'll have my eye on all of you now.

My ears were burning!!

Mike Hough

I Am Nobody wrote: »

I definitely don't think myself weak,so what are you hoping as a end scenario?

A little bit of over analysis there yourself bai

What a wonderful day to be alive...work over... mayhaps a beer & some shenanigans ...who knows?!

kowloon

Deebles McBeebles wrote: »

Is that related to your job or just an interest, Perse? Your dark triad test fairly spot on for me to be fair.

Dark triad test? Where can I do that? I've always suspected I might be Chinese and involved in organised crime.

Gremlinertia

A nice evening for dossing on the couch

Deebles McBeebles

kowloon wrote: »

Dark triad test? Where can I do that? I've always suspected I might be Chinese and involved in organised crime.

The name does fit!

Here ya go
https://www.boards.ie/vbulletin/showthread.php?t=2058088112

Sardonicat

Evening all. Kept myself busy today with household chores. I've been very, very demotivated for almost 6 months now, pre-lock down in fact, for various reasons, so it's good to have a relatively productive day.

@Kowloon: that woman on the dating website was nothing but a beeatch looking for someone to be outraged by. There was absolutely nothing wrong with what you said to her and her response was pathetic. No reflection on you, whatsoever. Delete the non-entity from your mind and move on.

@Perse: I don't know if you're training to be a mental health professional but if you are and a narcissist comes through your door put them straight back out of it. I'm speaking as someone who comes from a vipers den of cluster B personality disorders. These people are irredeemable ( I'm excluding Borderline from that. This can be very treatable once they are open to it and I think they are unfairly clumped in with the others)

I'm going to do a bit of writing tonight. I've been stuck in a loop, hung up on an event from long ago. Not a negative event at all, quite the opposite in fact but remembering it has provoked overwhelming sadness for months now. If I ever thought of it before it woukd provoke a fuzzy feeling and a wistful smile before leaving my thoughts again . Obviously, this moment has taken on a new meaning now and is representing some kind of loss that I need to process. The trouble is I don't know what, so round and round I go and every few weeks I end up crashing emotionally and breaking down in floods of tears. I'm hoping I might get to the true heart of the issue by writing about it and eventually crafting a piece of creative writing out of it so I can have something concrete and 'tangible' with a beginning, middle and an end (even an open end) so I can move on.

Missing some people on here. And feck the glitch!

Gremlinertia

Or maybe back to bed, don't feel well..

Mike Hough

Gremlinertia wrote: »

Or maybe back to bed, don't feel well..

Ah no, feel better soon..... we'll have to keep Perse as our boards-mammy tonight...... we're doomed!

Sardonicat

Gremlinertia wrote: »

Or maybe back to bed, don't feel well..

Hope you feel better soon, Grem

Sardonicat

Sardonicat wrote: »

@Perse: I don't know if you're training to be a mental health professional but if you are and a narcissist comes through your door put them straight back out of it. I'm speaking as someone who comes from a vipers den of cluster B personality disorders. These people are irredeemable ( I'm excluding Borderline from that. This can be very treatable once they are open to it and I think they are unfairly clumped in with the others)

I'm going to do a bit of writing tonight. I've been stuck in a loop, hung up on an event from long ago. Not a negative event at all, quite the opposite in fact but remembering it has provoked overwhelming sadness for months now. If I ever thought of it before it woukd provoke a fuzzy feeling and a wistful smile before leaving my thoughts again . Obviously, this moment has taken on a new meaning now and is representing some kind of loss that I need to process. The trouble is I don't know what, so round and round I go and every few weeks I end up crashing emotionally and breaking down in floods of tears. I'm hoping I might get to the true heart of the issue by writing about it and eventually crafting a piece of creative writing out of it so I can have something concrete and 'tangible' with a beginning, middle and an end (even an open end) so I can move on.

Missing some people on here. And feck the glitch!

That ship has sailed Sardi

Writing down how you feel can be a powerful way of getting clarity and feeling a bit of a release. Try to not to think about it all too hard though. Sometimes just accepting that you are in a process is enough without also having to make sense of it.

Mike Hough

Mike Hough wrote: »

Ah no, feel better soon..... we'll have to keep Perse as our boards-mammy tonight...... we're doomed!

Shut. Your. Cake. Hole. Or I'll stick the wooden spoon up your ass!




Grem, hope you are ok there.

Mike Hough

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Shut. Your. Cake. Hole. Or I'll stick the wooden spoon up your ass!




Grem, hope you are ok there.

Hang on...there's a chance of you sticking something up my ass? ..I suppose it's about time we swapped roles :P

On a serious note....my respect for Tony Holohan has gone thru the roof after tonight's news... putting the needs of the country before his own personal situation....some man for one man

Sardonicat

Thanks Perse. I knew the second it started that I was processing something. But it's been six months now. I need to get to the nub of this as it's taking over my thoughts completely. I want to be at the point where if I remember this I have a little smile and move on, like I was up to six months ago. 'Something' is eating me up and I need to figure out what it is because I'm stuck .

Sardonicat

Jaysus, last night there was fingerings and tonight we've got pegging. It's like The Last Days of Pompei in here! Anyone seen the lubricant?

Gremlinertia

Mike Hough wrote: »

Hang on...there's a chance of you sticking something up my ass? ..I suppose it's about time we swapped roles :P

On a serious note....my respect for Tony Holohan has gone thru the roof after tonight's news... putting the needs of the country before his own personal situation....some man for one man

I just saw his statement, wow. Respect as you say.

Sardonicat

Sardonicat wrote: »

Thanks Perse. I knew the second it started that I was processing something. But it's been six months now. I need to get to the nub of this as it's taking over my thoughts completely. I want to be at the point where if I remember this I have a little smile and move on, like I was up to six months ago. 'Something' is eating me up and I need to figure out what it is because I'm stuck .

The best of luck with it Sardi and sure there's always this place for a welcome escape, or torment, whatever is your poison

Gremlinertia

Gremlinertia wrote: »

I just saw his statement, wow. Respect as you say.

I just had a read. We really never know what another person is dealing with. That's as obvious as the nose on our faces but reading Dr Holohan's statement there really brought it home.

kowloon

Deleted User wrote: »

Shut. Your. Cake. Hole. Or I'll stick the wooden spoon up your ass!

Sardonicat wrote: »

Jaysus, last night there was fingerings and tonight we've got pegging. It's like The Last Days of Pompei in here! Anyone seen the lubricant?

Last days of Pompeii? Why not go full Caligula?

Gremlinertia

Oh not WD40 water displacement is not what you want :pac:

Sardonicat

The voice of bitter experience I presume, Grem.

Mike Hough

You can't bate a good auld handful of Kerrygold

Mam of 4

Sitting listening to the rain falling while cosy inside with the fire lit , thankful for being introduced to some good music earlier too

Grem , hope whatever ails you passes soon .

kowloon

Sardonicat wrote: »

The voice of bitter experience I presume, Grem.

I never took you for a lubricant snob Grem .

Fine, proper lubricant it is:

Mike Hough wrote: »

You can't bate a good auld handful of Kerrygold

Taking the horse to France has just taken on a new meaning.

Phoenix32

Every inch of me is clean, moisturised, shaved and plucked. I'm like a chicken ready to go in the oven here

Did someone say pegging?

Sardonicat

All of that and you forgot to lubricate, Phoenix?

JupiterKid

In my OH's mum's house, watching TV. She has the fire on and it's like a sauna in here!

Did a million and one errands today in town, then out to put some nice little Fuscia plants on my parent's grave in Castleknock.

Then over to my OH's mother's house with my OH on the Southside to cut her grass, which I promised her
few days ago I'd do. Done 2 hours ago.

To say I'm flaked is an understatement...

Mam of 4

Time to switch the lights off here , Unsolved Mysteries tonights bed time stories , it'll be like a podcast in reality
Tis funny , go through phases of sleeping great , then back to normal an hour or two here and there during the night .

arybvtcw0eolkf

My daughter is doing much better today, much better. I'm so relieved and things are looking good, finally.

So had a nice and relaxing 2km swim this evening, then treated myself to a bottle of wine on the way home

Oh, a photo of my swim, a few of us have our eye on some swim events coming up (had the first last weekend)



Not looking good for any triathlon's coming up this year, but 'fail to prepare, prepare to fail' and all that

Phoenix32

Sardonicat wrote: »

All of that and you forgot to lubricate, Phoenix?

I'm naturally lubricated

Sardonicat

That's great news about your daughter, Mak.

kowloon

Glad to hear that Mak!

kowloon

Phoenix32 wrote: »

I'm naturally lubricated

I always suspected you were a sintered bronze self-lubricating bushing.

Phoenix32

I'm very glad to hear your daughter is doing better Mak

There's nothing "bushing" about me right now I'll have you know Kowloon

Sardonicat

Phoenix32 wrote: »

I'm naturally lubricated

I've no reason to doubt it....

cj maxx

Ready ( I hope) for bed. I need to go through emails to find if half the shyt I've bought from ads has even arrived.
And the hamster is doing a marathon on his wheel

Purple Mountain

Mak, that's fantastic about your girl
How do you manage to capture your swimming photos?

kowloon

Purple Mountain wrote: »

Mak, that's fantastic about your girl
How do you manage to capture your swimming photos?

I can't manage an indoors selfie.

Leg End Reject

Glitched out, nothing interesting to report anyway!

Pretzill

Hi all - it's been a while! I can't keep up with threads lately. Bedside now and wonderfully sleepy after being on my feet all day.

Gremlinertia

Mak I'm delighted for you and your daughter, scary days there.

Thanks for all the care folks. I'm not dying here but I'm rarely ill like that, all that ails me usually has a name.. Feeling okish now. More rest methinks..