Anxiety and depression thread (Please read OP)

RabbleRouser2k · 31-08-2022 11:38am

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No problem. But consult your GP or counsellor if you're worried. Disassociation can be very scary, and sometimes set off by stress.

Graces7 · 31-08-2022 11:42am

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Rest. It is a great healer.. Be kind to you.. rest, do something YOU enjoy.... if you are physically able to something that will tire your body... Go for a LONG walk..dig the garden, (I cannot do those things so I came here or knit to youtube dramas) Let time pass... Be a vegetable if that helps!

laoisgem · 31-08-2022 1:30pm

Yes I've been putting it down to stress, I wrote off my car on the 12th and my aunt passed away yesterday evening, after being in the hospital for 4 weeks. I have a telephone appointment with the mental health team in the next week or two so will mention it to them as it is quite scary when it happens.

Graces7 · 01-09-2022 9:48am

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That is enough to seriously disturb anyone .... I hope the contact with the team helps

Graces7 · 04-09-2022 5:17am

Lemon balm... Wondering if anyone else uses it? I find a few leaves help relaxation and sleep... NB I am not on any meds except codeine... there are esome excellent info websites on this herb that will speak re interactions

I have two plants here . and a real help..

RabbleRouser2k · 05-09-2022 4:15am

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For me it was those herbal teas which helped a little. There are a few different herbal remedies you can get that help your sleep. That and lavender oil, sprinkled on sheets or your pillow can help too.

I tend to try and avoid something like a sleeping pill, even the over the counter ones, Tends to make me feel like I can't sleep enough or I haven't slept enough.

Graces7 · 05-09-2022 6:54am

Just had the best and deepest sleep in weeks after a spray of lemon balm.. I had forgotten about it, I feel zonked now as so often after a really good sleep..

SuperBowserWorld · 05-09-2022 12:02pm

Can't think or focus on things that need to be done.

Too many big problems that have been dragging on for years, me and my family, with no resolution in sight. Just this week there was some incredible good news and incredible bad news at the same time. You couldn't make it up.

I'm bitter, angry, anxious, depressed, miserable, extremely worried.

Living like a recluse. Hate meeting people as I've nothing positive to share unless I pretend everything is great. I can't do that anymore.

I get no enjoyment from books, movies, tv, video games anymore.

Any time I'm off work I just sit shell shocked.

I got prescribed medication, but it has some side effect that I can't risk. I'll need to find an alternative. But not sure how it'll help. I can still eat, sleep, exercise, work. I don't want to risk these.

I've been to therapy once, but it didn't help. Obviously once is not enough, so I'll see if I can find someone else.

Sardonicat · 05-09-2022 1:09pm

@SuperBowserWorld I'm really sorry you are going through these troubles. I see you have said that therapy didn't work for you before. I'm wondering if you could try a different type of therapist it could be helpful to have someone you can talk through the different issues you are dealing with, with. With the right listener, it can be very beneficial to talk these things out so they don't overwhelm you quite so much.

I hope things start looking up for you soon.

Graces7 · 05-09-2022 6:46pm

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Just hang on in there, day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute. I remember tiimes like that. Looking at the clock and saying, IN half an hour it will be better,, then when it wasnlt.. IN half an hour it will be better.. reducing it to small portions, ... Not facing a whole day .. Just half an hour at a time..I used to knit or sew or just stare at the clock watching for the half hour to pass... new problems emerge but they too will pass,, With thee in spirit..

Graces7 · 05-09-2022 6:50pm

Being heavily dumped on by folk who really should know better and who so easily forget if they ever knew, or cared, that I am nearly 80, chronically ill and in constant pain.

apache · 06-09-2022 9:05pm

Just going through the motions. Like I laugh in the right places but I don't find it funny. Groundhog day.

nothing · 06-09-2022 9:29pm

Right there with you

Graces7 · 08-09-2022 8:54am

Feeling ... crap? Drained etc. So have closed down all official email sources as there are ongoing issues here. Need a break.

They can wait until Monday. They have secretaries etc! I don't ..

Feels very good to have taken control.

nothing · 08-09-2022 9:38am

Good on you Graces7!

Graces7 · 08-09-2022 1:28pm

https://www.boards.ie/discussion/comment/119588346#Comment_119588346

Thanks! I suspect I am not the only one here who has been ground down trying to keep up with the demands of ignorant officialdom.

nothing · 08-09-2022 3:08pm

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Definitely not. It feels like a battle at times to get a straight answer from some places.

Deja Boo · 08-09-2022 10:38pm

Back on coffee just to stay awake, not good on the nerves though :/

Gremlinertia · 08-09-2022 10:45pm

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Snap, extra work on so i really have to, hoping it just frays the edges

nothing · 08-09-2022 11:16pm

2 bouts of bad depression this year, so for the second time I'm having to deal with not minding the place. Tonight I've bagged up 16 black bags. 5 are gone out, still 11 in the hall. Dreading the impending inspection, even though they said it'll be very informal, that niggle says they'll kick me out (they 100% won't).

RabbleRouser2k · 11-09-2022 2:12am

Managed to give myself a panic attack late Thursday night, Friday morning. Hit me so hard I slept 24 hours-possibly longer. Genuinely haven't had one that bad for a long time. Left me feeling shaken and drained. Was drenched in sweat. Lasted about 90 minutes.

I took a glass of whiskey, before I was planning to go to bed, and I think that might have set it off. I'm usually more measured with any alcohol, especially since having Covid. So this one hit outta nowhere. Alcohol hasn't set one of these off either, but then again circumstances can be weird too.

Have to look into getting a new counsellor too. My one's going off on maternity leave.

Gremlinertia · 11-09-2022 2:38am

Bloody hell what an experience you had. That's 90 minutes of proper hell, i feel for you. I hope your counsellor has someone in mind for you?

RabbleRouser2k · 11-09-2022 3:03am

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Honestly I had to put back the appointment so much, due to circumstances beyond my control (bloody weather usually-bad weather messes up my internet). When I looked into rescheduling again, I realised maternity leave would be coming up, so instead I'm just gonna look into a new counsellor myself. I'm still using the online service just because it's easier for me. I don't drive, and arranging transport can be a nightmare.

My sleep has been erratic, lately. An extended family member had to go into hospital (woke up with breathing problems in the early hours, had to go to hospital. Thankfully, it was a chest infection brought on by exposure to a weedkiller/ spray that they were allergic to. I say 'thankfully' because it could have been so much worse. They're recovering, put on antibiotics to clear the infection. Getting better everyday.) And the last week or so has been all over the place. (Where I live, there's been lots of machines and heavy vehicles moving around the place. Construction and road works, amongst other things).

Gremlinertia · 11-09-2022 3:10am

Ah i see, it isn't a relationship of weekly appointments so not as potentially disruptive to see someone different, that's a plus anyway.. Glad to hear family member is recovering too. Anything messing with sleep really messes up your rhythm so hopefully they finish up soon..

Gremlinertia · 13-09-2022 12:06am

I've had this as a background image for some time now.

https://br.ifunny.co/picture/i-don-t-like-the-phrase-a-cry-for-help-ad4M6Mpf7

One More Toy · 13-09-2022 1:23am

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I needed this tonight. Thank you Grem

Gremlinertia · 13-09-2022 1:31am

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Am around for the night if ya need company. That thing i posted has been my wallpaper since i don't know when.. Always there in the background on my computer

SuperBowserWorld · 15-09-2022 5:45pm

Exhausted today. Can barely think.

Graces7 · 16-09-2022 3:45pm

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(((HUGS)))

Graces7 · 16-09-2022 3:53pm

https://www.boards.ie/discussion/comment/119590236#Comment_119590236

You said it!

nothing · 16-09-2022 5:16pm

Can feel a pending spiral pecking at the back of my mind, after a meeting today with someone who can give some practical help with my living situation, and the straightforward way I was told it could be 8 to 10 years before my transfer comes through. It's been 3 years already. Had a frank discussion about how badly the county council's housing dept is run (as I'm sure Is the case with many of them). I didn't have a particular time frame in mind, but another 10 years is heartbreaking.

Graces7 · 16-09-2022 6:57pm

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That is truly appalling. I was very very lucky as I needed a home away from a bad rental situation and the council had an unused place on a small island where no-one wanted to live. Very small and simple but private and enough for me.

Graces7 · 16-09-2022 7:06pm

The autumn slump is upon me and this year I am so forgetful and vague and keep saying and writing things wrong... HInernation time before I get into serious troubele with folk misunderstanding posts. scuse typos please

Graces7 · 17-09-2022 7:42am

Hoping to be in quieter waters soon.. and yes, deeply involved in my English heritage

Graces7 · 21-09-2022 1:09pm

some very very bad news came and just ...

nothing · 21-09-2022 6:08pm

Hope you can manage @Graces7 whatever it is

Graces7 · 21-09-2022 6:30pm

Not really up to me this time... That is the most difficult scenario,, "This too shall pass"

And thank you

Graces7 · 23-09-2022 12:44pm

Wondering how many here go downhill as soon as the days shorten? ie SAD.. I suffered from this years before my M.E was diagnosed but it still always catches me out.

It is not the shortness of the light but the quality and intensity of the light the LUX they call it.

Been going downhill, overreacting etc several days now and this morning I had a long and difficult phone call to the bank involving concentration and a lot of figures etc. And I am in bits.. Shaking and in tears.

Then I remembered the time of year.. Everything gets intensified and exacerbated by the S A D,

Reading posts here had me wondering if this is so with others? It seems to affect those suffering some other illnesses. They now know about it with M.E

Worth looking it up?

Just knowing the why does not help with the condition but it helps with other aspects.

nothing · 23-09-2022 2:45pm

A gp mentioned it to me many years ago, but it doesn't seem to be something that effects me (not sure if that's good or bad) but he did recommend light therapy (I never looked into it) and taking a holiday (must have thought I was made of money). I've seen so-called daylight bulbs, which are exactly what you think, mainly for use in art, not sure if they'd be of any use @Graces7

Graces7 · 23-09-2022 3:34pm

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Thank you. I tried the light therapy bulbs but the M.E carries light sensitivity. Never mentioned it to a dr as even getting any positive reaction to the M.E... mission impossible....It is awareness that matters, which is true of all illnesses. Wondering now how I AGAIN was not alert. I suppose that shows I am not imagining it! it is a relief now as I was getting concerned re my mental state. ,,My life is very limited with the M.E but also I am nearly 80 so ...But the SAD seems to latch on to other conditions which I why I raised it here in case it is an added dimension,, and for some light therapy DOES work miracles. There have been times I slept up to 19 hours a day.. So RIP Van WINKLE is me.. Before I knew what it was I was on various psych meds

SuperBowserWorld · 25-09-2022 12:34pm

It's not the seasons or different light that affects me.

Just all my problems. I wish I could escape from them.

I've noticed repetitive noises really getting to me at the moment. Dogs continually barking. Loud Traffic noises. Certain sounds just grate on my nerves.

Peace and quiet would be nice.

Graces7 · 25-09-2022 4:43pm

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Seems to be that we get heightened awareness ( wrong word but cannot find the right one) of sound. I have in the past resorted to ear plugs to get me through a bad patch. But out here ( offshore island with tiny population) it is really quiet - until the gales start.. The wax ear plugs worked best for me.

SuperBowserWorld · 25-09-2022 5:06pm

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Island life sound lovely. Maybe bleak in the Winter. But you've got so many other advantages to compensate.

Yes, I use foam earplugs for sleep. Don't want to use them all the time.

Did a bit of googling and one can have hypersensitivity to sound from anxiety or trauma.

laoisgem · 25-09-2022 7:28pm

I am very sensitive to noise to a point where I can't concentrate in work when other's are talking around me or if I'm even visiting my mam and the tv is on in the background I get so agitated.

Graces7 · 26-09-2022 12:31am

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Bleak is good. Clean if you know what I mean. Simple; uncomplicated. I lived on an island a decade before I came to Ireland and was restless until I got back to this life. Not been off island for several years now.

RabbleRouser2k · 26-09-2022 4:34am

I got an S.A.D lamp because I often find when the Autumn/ winter months come in, I feel my energy being sapped. Sleep longer than needed and so on. They can help. You do sorta feel a tad better. They have a time out feature in some of them, but you may need longer exposure than needed.

They're really cheap now, I think 20 euro for my one on amazon.

Graces7 · 26-09-2022 6:34am

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I tried one but the M.E light sensitivity zapped that idea! I was sitting there with my eyes closed..lol.. I think awareness is the real key. Compensating in whatever way you can.

Gremlinertia · 27-09-2022 6:36am

Have psychologist for the first time in a good few weeks later today. It's badly needed, vicious mood cycling recently

Graces7 · 27-09-2022 8:07am

Low mood and the wild wet weather adds an expressive dimension. But the day is mine. Just the fuel to get in.. eejit that I am not doing it yesterday.. old age forgetfulness...

RabbleRouser2k · 27-09-2022 8:13am

Best of luck with it Grem. Have you noticed a pattern that 'might' have triggered the mood cycle? Like events, the weather, or just anything in general?

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