I’m terrible at my job and need a change

JamesBean · 07-08-2024 1:30pm #1

Hi folks,

First time poster here!

I’m in my late 20s Business grad and I have previously worked in Supply Chain and currently work as a Planner for a Construction company. So a relatively good job, but I just feel like a square peg trying to squeeze into a round hole.

I’m just a terrible fit, I thought it would be further removed from my old Supply Chain analyst role but it’s not. I’m 9 months in and it’s a struggle for me - I constantly make mistakes.

I don’t want a job that’ll have me entirely stuck behind a desk. I like working with others, I like the idea of starting my own Business but I’ve zero experience in doing so and no marketable skills.

I know an obvious change would be go learn a trade but having seen the industry from this side I don’t think an apprenticeship would be for me.

I’m tempted by Sales - like the idea of being able to earn a lot based on effort and ability, but in the same breath I’m not sure how well suited I would be to it! I’m somewhat socially anxious and probably not the typical charismatic salesman type, I know it’s far more varied than that but at a surface level I’m not sure how good of a fit I’d be.

Beyond that I just don’t know. Maybe I should go back to retail and work my way up to management and one day open my own petrol station. I enjoyed it back in college having stayed in the same spot for 3 + years but that may be more to do with the lack of responsibility and being surrounded by friends!

Maybe I should become a bus driver and eventually start my own transport company, or truck driver?
What else is out there? I feel most of my options are going to be fair limited in pay/progression unless I manage to make a go of self employment, with the exception of Sales.

Any suggestions?

Lonesome Rhodes · 07-08-2024 2:06pm

So you get well paid despite making lots of mistakes, it's in a nice warm office behind a desk, you admit it's a good job, you are there 9 months so past probation and you want to leave?

Why? Tough it out for bit and see how it goes it seems cushy to be honest.

The alternatives you mention.

Trade? 4 years on peanuts to then be working on building sites always under pressure and always busy. Years before you can go out on your own as you need to build up your name and finances.

Sales? Non stop pressure to sell sell sell sell sell sell and then sell some more, it's relentless.

Bus driver? You'd be taking a huge pay cut to sit in traffic and ferry the public about whom are often irritable and argumentative for the stupidest of things

Start your own transport company? Have you half a million at least to spare? Trucks/Warehouses/staff/insurance/ etc etc it all adds up to hundreds of thousands before you even have made a single cent.

You seem to be stuck in the 'grass is always greener' mode. It ain't.

Give your current job at least another 6 months. If you pack it in there is a very high likelyhood you would be taking a huge pay cut to do something you may not even like anymore than what you are currently at.

Take the money and run; nobody is 100% stimulated and excited in their job, boredom, making mistakes etc comes with the territory.

SuperBowserWorld · 07-08-2024 4:11pm

Do a lot of research, training, some side hustles, self marketing on YouTube, Toastmasters, etc etc etc to get your feet wet before you leave that day job. Maybe you can even move roles in your current company risk free. If you have no kids or responsibilities then you obviously have some more freedom. But it sounds like you really ding know what you want to do. Get a good career coach.

Donald Trump · 07-08-2024 4:23pm

If you are terrible at your job, you could always try becoming a manager.

/runs away

NiceFella · 07-08-2024 5:55pm

To be honest you're all over the map here. You don't know what you want by the sounds of it.

When you say you're not good at your job, your employer clearly doesn't agree with you if you're past your probation (means you are good enough to move forward). If it doesn't excite you and you feel flat then of course you can look at options to go for something you'd possibly like more.

When in this situation you need to ask very simple and straightforward questions. The simpler the better.

Is money your number 1 priority? Or is job satisfaction number 1? If making money is your number 1 priority I personally think you'd never make an entrepreneur because you don't make any money for the first few years plus you need quite a bit to begin with. From those that I know that own there own businesses it's a real grind especially these days.

Id say you could find a job that lines up with your personality. What do you like? You said you liked working with people. Do you think you'd enjoy a customer facing role, dealing with the public in some capacity?

dbas · 07-08-2024 6:03pm

Start with something like this, or a different alternative. You've listed off a few different things there with none of them aligning in a particular direction. Find out what you're matched to and see if anything jumps out at ya. Springboard has a lot of subsided degrees and masters too if you find what you want to do. It's a good time to advance your skill set

https://www.careerfitter.com/free_test/careerbuilder/test

Purple Mountain · 07-08-2024 6:06pm

Would you go travelling and work your way through for a year or 2 to spread your wings and you might come back more focused.

dublin49 · 07-08-2024 6:19pm

your probably not as bad as you think but if you don't change your mindset it will lead to low energy performance and perhaps termination.Maybe up your energy level/commitment and give the job a real go.Analyse where you feel deficient and take some constructive measures to improve your performance,action energises and moaning and self pity have the opposite effect.

JamesBean · 07-08-2024 7:20pm

https://www.boards.ie/discussion/comment/122474950#Comment_122474950

It's the stress of it all, on a good day it's just the 'ah man just double check your work' - and I can't turn around and say I checked it three times and didn't spot it.

I probably should have added above that I have an ADHD assessment coming up very shortly. It was my parents who actually pushed me to get assessed, because they see the behaviours and having filled out the preliminary assessments they sent out - I see it too.

That's neither here nor there, whether I have it or not I'll know shortly but I already know that this line of work is a terrible fit for someone like me.

I am constantly disappointed in myself at the quality of work I put out, I am constantly annoying others at work who have to rectify my mistakes or check my work - had you asked me about them a few months back (when I had similar opinions on my fit for the job), I would have said he was a d*ck, in reality he's absolutely not and he's far more patient than I ever could be.

It's long hours made longer by my incompetence and poor fit for the role. I have to work so much harder at it than more recent hires do, at trivial things like collating data or cross referencing schedules. I know myself well enough to know I'm simply in the wrong job.

They're all just shots in the dark - nothing seriously thought out.

Because the reality is haven't the foggiest clue what to go at. I just know I don't want to be stuck behind a desk Monday to Friday staring into spreadsheets and word docs. I've no interest in working in HR, Marketing, Finance or anything of the sort.. with the potential exception of sales.
I like being on the go, I like having targets - I like being busy at work (when I'm not busy trying to correct yet another stupid blunder). I don't know if Sales is the move, I have no idea what is.

JamesBean · 07-08-2024 7:47pm

https://www.boards.ie/discussion/comment/122475804#Comment_122475804

That's the thing - I haven't the foggiest clue, these are all just shot in the dark ideas.

I know they struggled to find someone for the role, I applied for a more senior position with no real experience and was brought on aboard because of that. I show up and I put in the effort so overall they're fairly happy with me. But my direct boss isn't - he's the project lead, he's constantly picking up the slack, fixing my mistakes and calling them out. Not in a 'well now you know' sort of way but a 'ah here for the 4th time like get it together' way.

I'm just a terrible fit - I feel like I'm a terrible fit, I don't enjoy the nature of the job.

Money isn't my number one priority in the sense that I need to always earn as much as possible, I'm willing to go back and start an apprenticeship because I know the pay off would be worthwhile, same situation with one day starting a business (but I'm getting ahead of myself with that, it's just a pipe dream at the moment - I've just always wanted to start my own Business).

With regards what I like.. I enjoy practical things - big part of why I disliked my previous role is because it was so up in the air, it was theoretical to max, 'in theory we should be achieving this, adjusted for this we should in theory achieve this, but we're achieving this because…' week in week out. The work had no meaning - it was just a little brain teaser.

So I like practical, results orientated work. I like working with people - wouldn't fancy being stuck in a back office all day.
I like to be challenged, be busy and to continue to learn. I like to be able to take pride in what I do and I get zero satisfaction out of word docs.

So I don't know..
Maybe Sales would allow me to work in a results orientated, people focused role. But maybe I'd be a terrible sales man!
I'm probably not what most would picture when they picture a Sales man, but at the same time I'm quite intelligent, personable and ultimately I work well with others.

Complete 180 then, what about Plumbing - I like the idea of; being hands on, seeing and end result, being able to take pride in my work, to not be stuck at a desk.
That being said I don't know if I've much of an infinity towards sinks toilets or massive heat pumps!
By the same logic - bricklaying - the work looks quite satisfying, but I already know the reality is going to be worlds apart, and I don't enjoy the poxy rain!

JamesBean · 07-08-2024 7:50pm

I've never really had the drive to go travelling..maybe I'm missing out but I'm quite a homebody.

I wouldn't have the funds to travel for 2 years, nor would I fancy moving to Aus for 2 years unless a rake of my friends randomly decided to go.

JamesBean · 07-08-2024 7:58pm

https://www.boards.ie/discussion/comment/122475880#Comment_122475880

I know what your saying but I also know in myself I'm a terrible fit. I left my old job in Supply Chain after a year because I didn't enjoy the work, I hated being in an office and I just knew in myself that I was not well suited to that line of work.
The thing is I moved to this line of work not realising just how office based it would be, and just how similar it would be.

It's just cemented in my own head that I'm not cut out for analytical, desk based, detail orientated work. I also know I've zero interest in Marketing or HR, and I would make for a shocking accountant.

I've lasted in my current role so far because the first 3 months there was nothing for me to do other than trivial training material. Then I actually started working, realised how similar it was decided to stick it out but wasn't sure I'd pass my probation. Then I passed my probation and stuck it out again as there was a lull between projects - now my current project is ramping up fast and all my inabilities and inadequacies are once again coming to light.

I don't enjoy constantly feeling like an idiot because I cannot stop making mistakes.. not because the work is overtly hard or going over my head, but because it doesn't interest me and as mentioned already - I'm a terrible fit for it.

dublin49 · 07-08-2024 9:35pm

https://www.boards.ie/discussion/comment/122476482#Comment_122476482

I have retired after 50 years and for a good chunk of of it I had imposter syndrome and took a long time to understand most colleagues were also spoofing sometimes more than me.Never particularly enjoyed my jobs but had family monetary pressures to keep me in line.I emphatise with your apathy,was often that soldier,but you will not have the confidence ,energy etc to launch a new career from your current low esteem position.Perhaps you hate the thought of investing time and effort into a job that you suspect might not work out.thems the rules,unfortunately,we all played by them and I encourage you if possible to give it a few months giving it 110% ,whether you leave or stay you will be in the right mental space to progress your career.

Lonesome Rhodes · 08-08-2024 7:29am

https://www.boards.ie/discussion/comment/122476240#Comment_122476240

You are very hard on yourself and you seem to lack discipline perhaps? Discipline would teach you to persevere and to see things more logically and less negatively. How do you get it? Usually involves learning something, like Martial arts; I really think you would benefit from a strict routine and discipline.

As regards being stuck behind a desk well that's most office jobs, but all jobs you are going to be 'stuck' doing something. Bus driver- stuck in a bus/ salesman- stuck with clients or in office/ plumber- stuck in people's kitchens or building site developments etc etc it goes for literally every job. It's how you are seeing things. You see it all terribly negatively. No one here can tell you what to do that's up to yourself but try and see where you are as not so bad, as you mentioned the people there are tolerant and patient with you, the next place they may not be. I've moved jobs due to restlessness and impatience, it sometimes works out sometimes doesn't. People neve tell you about when it doesn't is the thing but be patient, give where you are some time and have a plan before you jump! Don't leave them and not have a clue what's the next move, have something planned. Discipline with help with that also!

blackbox · 08-08-2024 8:09am

Why do you make mistakes?

Why do you think you would make fewer mistakes in a different job?

This is something you need to understand and address rather than simply jumping to a different job.

Do you need more training? Do you need to come up with better procedures for your work? Are you getting enough sleep? There are loads of diverse factors that you need to consider.

Starting your own business would be a disaster if you keep making mistakes.

You definitely should not move to a job where the safety of others could be at risk until you solve this.

CramCycle · 08-08-2024 8:34am

It's very hard to give advice on a query like this without meeting a person but, and taking massive leaps in guesswork here, a few points.

Your lack of confidence in your posts screams at me you will not be a good salesman unless you get lucky and get to sell something that sells itself, it also doesn't change much, there is little growth and with a niche product can be hard graft for little reward.
Opening your own petrol station based on working on one in college also seems like a terrible idea, one i had myself in regards opening a bar. It isn't the same job as working in the station, also the investment etc would be huge. A more realistic one is to work your way up to management in a station but that is a massive pay cut for something that might never happen. Most people who get their were on low pay for a long time, or came in from outside straight to that level. Either way, much like a trade, you are either on peanuts for years, or you maybe look at springboard and get a part time management qualification while you work where you are and pivot over in a few years
You mention trade but not a specific one, they are all hugely different. This is the least worrying plan but it is hard work, getting dirty and truly earning your pay for many many years but my son in law pivoted this way after years in finance and it is doable.
I have to be honest, what it sounds like you truly need to do is find a hobby you love, and treat work for what it is, a way to enjoy life outside of work. A lot of us do that, and there is nothing wrong with it but whatever you do, stay in your current job until you have something lined up as it is much harder to get a job when you don't have a job.

JamesBean · 08-08-2024 8:47am

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for awhile I thought it was just imposter syndrome (I’ve a lot of friends in tech and it seems to be a common theme for them) but I honestly don’t think that’s what this is.
I see it in my colleagues spoofing on calls or phrasing mistakes as personal taste.

The more I think about it the more I think I’m just a bad fit for the role, that’s the long and short of it. I have to work exceptionally hard to just stay on par on the simplest of tasks but I’m not suited to sitting staring at an excel file for hours mulling over the minutiae.

I don’t have the attention span or the accuracy needed for this role.
I don’t enjoy sending out weekly reports for the sake of being seen to send out the report weekly - and just so it’s on record.

I get zero satisfaction out of being good at this job, it just means I’m pestering others for their info for my report.
We have no real authority, we’re just there to ensure that the report is correct - but correct as to how we want to portray the information, I’m just a cog, we’re all cogs but I feel like I’m a cog you’d see on the back of a watch, spinning like mad in full visibility.
And even I think to myself - does that cog actually do anything or is it just there so we know the clocks working away in the background?

JamesBean · 08-08-2024 8:54am

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Funnily enough I actually have had the notion of taking up Boxing or the likes!

I guess I do lack discipline from a disciplined persons point of view, but not so much when compared to my peers.

My issue is less so with the idea of being stuck somewhere/anywhere.

Simply put it’s that I feel in myself that I am not well suited to the roll.
It is evident in how much harder I have to work to just not make the same mistakes on relatively trivial sections of work that newer hirers than me are flying through.

I am not fit for a repetitive, admin heavy desk job.
I like the part where I get to understand the building process - but that’s usually only as it pertains to my role, we don’t need to know what skimming and make good means, we just need to know how long it takes to get done.

I just feel there has to be something else out there where I will have the chance to excel and potentially even enjoy my role.
Some of the lads I work with relish the nature of being the guy with the answers, the guy behind the curtain - I don’t.
I don’t.

JamesBean · 08-08-2024 9:06am

https://www.boards.ie/discussion/comment/122477679#Comment_122477679

because I don’t have the attention span or attention to detail required for the role. I have to properly sit myself down and triple check (not an exaggeration) everything I do because I keep making simple admin related errors.

I’m a terrible fit for a desk based admin heavy role.

I don’t naturally just always make mistakes, no more than anyone else.
I just find admin, excel and word docs mind numbing.
I struggled to concentrate in school, nothing has changed, I still sit at a desk all day trying to get my mind on task.

In retrospect it’s not the job I thought it’d be and to make things worse it’s just absolutely not what I would have put myself at.

Same thing happened in my old job - silly formatting errors, forgetting attachments, wrong attachments, forgetting to CC someone - forgetting to send the mail in the first place.

my parents agree that all of this probably relates back to the possibility of me having ADHD.
Maybe I do, maybe I don’t.
If I don’t then I’m back to square one, if I do - I doubt medication will magically make me like admin heavy, tedious work.

I thought this job would have me on site on my feet a lot more.
I thought I’d spend my day in meetings, with site supervisors working through issues with the project.

In reality all I’m worried about is my report reading right, and chasing people constantly for information for said report.

JamesBean · 08-08-2024 9:25am

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thank you, I agree even from my side it’s very difficult to get the info across, I nearly have to do a write up for every possible assumption.

With regards the sales thing - that’s where my reservations are.
I just don’t know if I could do it - but I like the idea of a job where I’m not dying of detail in yet another weekly report.

The petrol station thing was more so an end goal, reality is I’d go back to retail, work my way up to senior management with the intention of one day going it my own way one day.

Falls under my notion (and that’s all it is at present) of learning a job/trade/skill.
Pay my dues, learn it inside and out and one day start a business off the back of it.

I never expect myself to find a blue ocean strategy and reinvent the wheel.
But I could see myself being successful running a petrol station, owning a tyre shop, running a plumbing business or the likes - just being a business owner, not the next Elon Musk.
Maybe I’m wrong - maybe I’d be sh*t but I’d like to find out for myself and make a good go of it - by spending the time, learning my craft and going from there.

With regards the trades.
The more I think about that the more I think I wouldn’t actually fancy plumbing no more than I would electrical.
but I’d potentially like something like Carpentry - focus on fit and finish etc.
Id get more satisfaction out of a beautiful bespoke staircase than a well maintained boiler.

I’ve plenty of hobbies, sadly they’re all quite expensive!
I love playing guitar and I’m restoring/keeping an old mx-5 on the road.
I get obsessive about hobbies but I’d also like to at least enjoy my day job to an extent, that’s not the case as it stands

Gary_dunne · 08-08-2024 9:26am

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From reading through this thread it just seems that any office role would not be the best fit for you when you say that you find admin, excel and word docs mind numbing. Unfortunately especially when starting off that's a lot of the work you'll get in any office role.

I'd echo what another poster had said about going off and travelling, it seems you need an escape from the mundane day to day work. I was the same myself and had the best year of my life over in Aus. You don't need a gang of friends to go with you, there's endless Irish over there and it's very easy to find a group of mates.

Doing the farm work (for relatively good money) are some of my happiest memories, creating life long friends and getting an education in proper hard work. I'd happily do it again. The more I type about it the more it makes me want to go back so I'll stop there, ha!

But I'd seriously consider it as you don't know what you want to do in life so go and get some life experience and you may figure stuff out while you're doing it.

Lonesome Rhodes · 08-08-2024 9:34am

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Had a feeling you be the kind of lad who who benefit from some form of martial art if you are thinking about it do it! It will give you a goal and discipline. The goal orientated discipline will help you see things more clearly in regards to what you want to do. Martial arts gave me discipline and assertiveness and goal orientation; things you can use to develop a career I'd imagine it would do the same for you.

Even if you don't like your job no reason why you can't enjoy things outside of it. I can gurantee you in your current role your attitude to it would change if you were enjoying things outside of it. Like I said give it a bit of time, don't jump before you have a plan and look at other learning things that cultivate discipline and assertiveness, martial arts/boxing etc.

witchgirl26 · 08-08-2024 10:18am

OP you say you want to set up your own business but why? Do you realise the level of essentially office based work that requires and the level of concentration and dedication and focus? If you're saying those are things you struggle with currently, they will only be compounded at present by trying to set up a business from scratch.

Look imposter syndrome takes many forms. I'm highly qualified and come across very confident in my role but I suffered for years with it. Took some professional coaching to get me to change my mindset on it so that I'm not constantly doubting myself or what I'm doing.

I think what you need to do is think hard about what it is you want to do. Do you want a job that you love and can pour yourself into? Or do you want a job that will pay you well enough and provide enough time off etc to allow you to pour your energy into things outside work that you love? Both are good options. Not everyone loves their job and that is ok. My sister, for example, will always say she likes her job but she has no emotional attachment to it (some of the people maybe but not the work). If she could earn the same amount sitting at the tills in Tesco, she'd probably happily do that. For her it's a means to an end to pay the mortgage, have some holidays & enjoy time with her family.

I do love my job - always have. I still don't skip into work every day. Sometimes I really don't feel like it. But I also don't live to work. While I love what I do, I also love my hobbies outside of it and put more energy into them for the most part. A job does not have define you.

dublin49 · 08-08-2024 12:32pm

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99.9% of jobs are replaceable cogs,you are in the largest possible majority you could find.best of luck.

NiceFella · 08-08-2024 1:17pm

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Sounds to me that you just don't like the job enough to truly be good at it. I hear you now.

Then I would say sales might actually be a good fit for you. A friend of mine sells till systems to shops. He has monthly targets and gets commissions for hitting those targets. It's about calling up leads and asking them about their needs etc and you work largely by yourself but as part of a team. So you'd probably need some customer facing experience to get into those jobs. Usually the best way in is to take a job selling car insurance over the phone or something like that.

Tefral · 08-08-2024 1:38pm

OP, have you considered being evaluated for ADHD? You could suffer from this. I have seen it before. Once you get a diagnosis you can then plan how to move forward correctly.

I am in Construction so I know exactly the role you are in as a planner. It wouldnt be for me. Maybe a role in Health and Safety would suit you? Not always behind a desk, out on site etc. Theres loads of night courses, Springboard etc.

One thing I would say and I notice it alot with the younger people I employ, they get disheartened very quickly when theres no massive progression. Its like they are after instant gratification, always chasing the title etc. A career is built slowly and steadily. Jumping around like mad wont get you anywhere, if you realise that you will make slow gains at the start and the rest will come, it might help with your mindset.

JamesBean · 09-08-2024 8:39am

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I’ve an uncle who’s a carpenter, has a successful business fitting kitchens to the point where he’s stepping back from actually fitting kitchens to run the business.

He doesn’t do near as much admin heavy - detail oriented work as I do in my role.
he’s up on the phone, he’s out on site, he’s meeting clients, project managers and the likes - I’d be quite happy doing that, just not 8 in the morning till 5:30 in the evening admin.

I think whether I intend to or not I pour myself into my work - I can’t, nor do I particularly want to separate myself from my work, I like being busy, I like feeling like I’m constantly doing something. Work allows me to do that, I just wish work wasn’t this sort of work.

witchgirl26 · 09-08-2024 12:00pm

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With all due respect, unless you shadow your uncle, you don't see the other side of the business. Yes he's meeting clients, on site etc but there is massive amounts of detailed paperwork in the background. He'll have orders that will have to managed in a timely manner to ensure that the kitchens are there when he's able to fit them & there's no waiting around, he'll have wages to pay so that involves ensuring that everything there is complied with. He'll have VAT returns to do, invoices to work out and issue to clients as well as ones to pay. He'll have to manage the payments in & out so that cash flow is consistent & he's not living job to job. If he's successful enough to step back from fitting to solely focus on the admin, he must have been doing all these before hand. He's probably doing a lot of admin in the evening after doing the heavy load of working.

Look I'm not saying it's not rewarding etc but do not be fooled - owning a small business generates a large amount of admin work that has to be tackled or the business won't be successful.

Why do you not want to separate yourself from work when you so obviously don't seem to enjoy what you've been doing? I mean I could understand that if you love what you do but otherwise it seems a little odd. There's no harm in being busy but maybe find some hobbies to give you that busy feeling elsewhere. Also an important skill to learn is the art of doing nothing. If you constantly are busy with no down time, you'll burn out.

09-08-2024 5:00pm

The OP is very articulate so I suspect doing the job is not the issue really.

There is a big difference between can't do a job and dont like doing the job.

The OP seems to want to jump straight into a job that takes years to build up, on the phone, a bit of wheeling and dealing in and out of sites it doesn't work like that.

username2013 · 09-08-2024 5:28pm

What about software development? I know you mentioned that you think you may not be suited for desk based roles, but from reading through, a lot of your dislike seemed to be based on the work itself - spreadsheets, reports etc.

With software development you can be involved in the building of tangible products, so for me at least it's not boring or like what you described at all. The other thing going for it is, if you have the discipline you can pretty much learn how to code for free these days - check out youtube for some amazing full courses on various languages/topics within the software engineering sector. Lots of other good sites such as udemy too.

Like all industries it has its fair share of stress at times and reporting is something that you have to do at times to management, but i think you will get that everywhere tbh.

JVince · 09-08-2024 5:34pm

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JamesBean · 14-08-2024 11:41am

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That's the thing, a lot of the constructive criticism is framed as 'look you're obviously a bright lad, but just double check your work' - after I've already triple checked it and still managed to send it with mistakes.

I'm more so talking about ultimate ambitions, I think people will usually say 'I want to become a Doctor' when asked rather than 'I want to get 600+ points', under the pretence that it's obvious they want to become a Doctor.

Ultimately, I want to own my own Business - always have, always will, will not be swayed on that I'll manage the admin work aspect of Business ownership.

I just don't want a 9-5 that solely consists of never-ending, detail orientated time consuming admin work that's paramount to our role, because I'll inevitably make mistakes.
I have to listen to music to get through the task, which has the unfortunate side effect of never allowing me to fully concentrate, but it allows me to at least do the job at hand, even if it's done poorly.. it just wouldn't get done otherwise.
I've techno blaring in my Airpods and I have no gra for techno.

In terms of day-to-day, I just don't want to be lodged behind a desk staring at the 8738 line in an Excel Spreadsheet trying to decipher the activity ID coding for that line item.
I don't necessarily mind being in an office, when I'm not chained to the desk 8:30 to 5. That being said I had to bring home work with me yesterday, got it all wrapped up at 9pm, so 8:30 am to 9:00 pm with a 15 minute break in between because I went out to my car under the pretence of taking a phone call, when I really just scoffed down a protein bar.
Sick of this job is an understatement.

JamesBean · 14-08-2024 4:31pm

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Funnily enough I actually was just diagnosed (today) with ADHD, Doctor even made a joke about having ADHD and being in planning almost being oxymoronic.
I had actually looked into EHS, but it seems to be a lot of work for little reward, I know a lot of the lads on site call it busy work - which I don't think is fair, but I can sort of see their point.

I am aware that a career is built slowly and I'm also hyper aware that I'm going nowhere by not sticking at any one career path, but I honestly struggle to see myself not (eventually) getting fired from my current role.

I’m terrible at my job and need a change

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